Never pen your dreams on me for my thoughts are embers of a once ever so bright fire.
Tatters of thought bury the recluse now they simply confide in me a lost fool who truly never gave a shit to begin with.
The fighter that's tried and worn his body broken his will the only thing left that he holds true.
When you have drown in your vices from this bottom will you emerge or simply settle for a good rest ?
past glory and worn lines my story is a cliff note to the bullshit the will imagine .
Empty bottles and the scars to show the rroads end and all is left to return.
When they break you they will simply find another kid .
And life will pass you by as it has me.
Watch the patterns only to break the rules no outlaw fades easily.
And the sad old men we've become isn't a scene I care to relive much longer.
Nobody will be surprised for it been long overdue but I could never exist on another's terms.
I rather crash and burn than fade gracefully I am sorry to disappoint
but the hand was shit to begin with kids .
It's not always the way we see it but In life do we seldom write the ending.
Maybe the page understands me far better than I understand myself anymore .
Well when you get there as I you wont envy the others only realize the roads been paved long before your words where nothing g more than whispers .
Bury your ego for it has nothing to gain.
I view the highways end a different man than the young fool who cast his cares to the wind.
It's time to bury mine .
We played the act for as long as possible but to the naked eye it was so easily clear.
As the radio cry's old memories I realize are thoughts were bleak as this half delusion cast view .
Take my hand as one last time we embrace only to close the chapter .
Nobody can see the man for the character maybe I simply asked to much of you and to little of myself.
It's no longer there sweetheart so to you and the reader I must say this farewell.
Chapters close and pages fade nothing understands the pain but with time soon none will recall.
We know the memories now it's simply time to erase the void .
I hate this choice but tonight is as good as the next.
Shards of broken glass once held fragments of are half truths.
Secrets will seldom remain so try not let them bury you as me.
The nights magic no longer is my spark and this page has far better
company to keep.
Treat her well as she once did treat me.
I sit in darkness, soaked in Gin, I remember everything,
except all the things Tequila forgot,
I remember nothing except for the things left to rot
I forgot the darkest nights
most certainly in days light
I forgot you placed the drink in my hand,
is that how we ended up here last night?
A half empty glass we have mired our delusion dear
Do the stories just get better or do we simply fill in the blanks?
Trace our old lines again and again.
Weathered are my eyes behind a mask
It’s no place to breath but anything beats the grave.
As we recall the sunset from the shore it seems so far now
it is but a fraction of the truest sense and the most cursed fools delusion
a switchblades sting and you will remain my favorite scar?
Delusions are illusions with which we fool ourselves
with a magician’s eye and a sense of skill.
Sunsets upon a distant shore are our memories
retreating against our will.The switchblades knife is rusty and it's only hope is to scar.
Do you revere or revile me?
The empty bottles that lay between us ask for little.
I ask us for more!
Will I be your scar, the one you rub when you’re alone?
Tracing lines that cut so deep but set rigid, like stone?
Perhaps the open wound you created
when you picked apart our past won't heal as quickly,
and like the final drink we had together won't be our last.
Painted is the portrait so far from the truths we all choose to ignore
and now I simply understand are regrets than the echoes of a shared view.
When we break the heart do we find solace in a statue like existence?
We all spill the glass sometimes and a candles view dim will only reflect the shadows we've become.
Tomorrows a dream and the nightmares become a friend far more than this dance
I care no longer to stand and the ice won’t bare the weight of this ego's crash.
Let's skate the ice so thin it cracks beneath the weigh of pain.
Let's dance the tango of wilted dreams and find no shame.
Let the broken heart of shattered glass
be a reminder of our pain
but you and I, we share a common lust
we mix silently, oil and water
blending in the same frame
For from the page to the far corners of this empty floor we have made our choices
Now we understand past regrets in silent reframe
Never doubt the passion for the lack of fire it simmers a volcano underneath the illusion of emptiness and so we find are paths twisted yet always brought back to the same point.
We always speak in shadows what is known in light of day.
Our paths are gritty dirt, pretty split and intertwined
broken cobblestoned nights and sun baked days to which we can’t deny
Shadows that come to play hide the demons
we would once talk to, but threw away
when we attempted to revive a life we weren't meant for
Our answers don't lay at the bottom of the bottle
nor do they rest behind the closed door,
They itch beneath our fractured skin and spill their secrets on the floor
dripping from serrated cuts that pump a life full of opiate memories
the broken bottle stands as sentinel asking always for
Maybe we found our muse in a mutual insanity.
Laid bare the vein I question what lingers when nothing remains beneath?
This last round stands only for the night my dear for its clutches are but a moments embrace and an overcast view.
Tomorrow I can never promise what fate hands us by surprise.
Insanity is a fickle Muse
that's sips from a collapsed vein
breaking bottles against skulls
looking for an idiot to blame
Personally I think our Muse
is a Mistress that flogs well in the dark
Chaining our souls to our demons
never shining light on our demise,
Demanding we whip ourselves hoarse
prying opens the oysters
of our murky world spilling pearls of stone into a world so stark
No, the Muse of you and I is an unruly bitch.
She chokes our memories and forces our pain
with a flick of her wrist
I was celebrating as normal I'm not sure why besides oh yeah duh I'm the most awesome writer in the history of this site .
The bar was empty as usual the old crowd had been abducted by aliens and replaced by children whom seemed to believe I truly gave a fuck that there five day relationship had just fallen apart yeah live on your own bust your ass to exist then tell me how fucking hard life is okay kiddies.
It came through the wire a message that read.
Dear Gonzo I just read your recent co write and wow was I impressed
It's so great to see established writers giving new writers like yourself a break.
It appears this juvenile hamster had smoked a little to many bath salts today for they had no clue as who my ego fed arse was how dare they.
Yes kids isn't it a shame when all the kick ass drugs were discovered by your grandparents ?
Look don't reinvent the wheel if it gets you fucked up stick with the shit that hopefully doesn't make you trip balls and lock yourself in a closet with a butcher knife .
That's why I stick with the mild stuff like herion.
I was just about to write this writer wanna be a long and thoughtful response telling them in a mature way to go fuck themselves when yet another message came in .
Hey Gonzo loved your co write I always wanted to co write with a true writer any chance you could ask Helen if she would write one with me ?
Dear lord man these kids were higher than Justin bieber's over inflated ego yeah he's going to put out a new album yeah you been warned .
Another message came in in one after the other it was like I was driving a fucking ice cream truck on a hot summer day every bed wetter and booger picker running down behind me with there snotty little dollars clutched in hand didn't these children know I hate kids .
Well all except for barley legal hot sluts with low self esteem cause I truly love helping misguided whores yeah I know I'm such a thoughtful bastard aren't I?
I couldn't take it I slammed the laptop shut and turned up the jukebox as I poured myself a stiff drink .
At least here at the bar I could escape this insanity .
But the nightmare was far from over .
As I herd the squeal of airbrakes as a school bus came to a stop outside the bar dammit I was being invaded fuck why hadn't I infested in those rabid coyotes Lilly Mae had tried to sell me .
The little shits hit the door like invaders across are unguarded boarders yeah do you know how many millions of those fucking Canadians slip through every day .
Yeah if only we had snipers then we never would had to listen to Nickleback.
They jumped on the pool table laughed played and really started to kill my buzz as they played there modern crap they called music .
It was like being raped by a midget clown and the rest of his fifty buddies that could fit in one car I swear those fuckers can pack a car better than any Mexican I've ever known and for my fellow Latino friends out there I truly meant no disrespect please don't stab me or bounce up and down on my skull with your low rider .
Hey Gonzo the leader of this dwarf cult spoke up we want a co write with you.
Um like hell I will Frodo just take your sawed off ass and return back to the shire okay.
Fuck that stupid lord of the rings joke dork don't you know harry potter is the in thing dumbass.
The little man had said a mouthful there and being he was a Harry Potter fan I could tell he was probably used to having his mouth full of assorted things like his nerd friends magic staff .
Look sparky or dipshit or whatever the hell you name is note to anyone if you don't have boobies I probably wont care what your name is .
I truly hate kids okay and there's nothing in this world that would make me ever write anything with you so just carry your ass cause I'm sure you are missing out on some kickass time to sulk in your room that is more furnished than my entire house and post your bleeding heart sonnet all over your ex girlfriends face book wall alright.
Okay the little hamster replied .
You know Gonzo I'm real sorry you feel that way cause I was going to overlook the fact that you offered me and my friends booze and tried to get my underage sister to flash her boobies .
It's a real shame I hate to see such a talented co writer go to waste sitting in prison but you don't want to co write with us so I fully understand .
I couldn't believe this little shit was going to blackmail me it almost brought a tear to my eye how demented he truly was .
Reminds me of myself at that age when I blackmailed my sitter into showing me her boobies ahh the preciouses memories .
I weighed my options co write masterworks of true demented genius or play basketball with guys who had been in so long that they let me win cause I was a hot bitch .
Hmm I had to ponder that one cause I never was very good at basketball duh I'm white and slightly bad humored with racist jokes that if do offend get over yourself it's called a fucking joke okay.
Okay sparky you got yourself a cowriter but can I ask one thing first?
Sure Gonzo shoot.
Well being that I was going to be falsely accused of seeing your sisters boobies maybe I could actually see them?
I don't have a sister you perve I just said that to trap you into co writing for us and finish this stupid ass write cause it's drinking time and I got places to be people.
Until next time hamsters stay crazy Gonzo.
I took a walk to see.
All the queens down market street turning just for a fix .
The bullshit of the day doesn't matter when you only live for the score.
Greetings from the gutter.
Go wash yourself clean as I embrace it's decay.
Least I know my place art is never a safe bet sweetheart does his touch still make you cringe?
Meet me at the bar and we will get lost together.
Goodnight to the fakes I have little more to give.
Goodnight to you all it's ran it's course shall we just let it die?
To the designer junkies who's prison resembles a palace I prefer the chaos of my own reality keep your distance for your bullshit need not apply.
The cutter scars I prefer to some airbrushed queen your flaws are your perfection were all fucked up so embrace the truths and ignore there lies.
Goodnight my friends my buzz has began to fade .
Life is a bruise beautiful in it's story .
Never hide the flaws for art is the biggest train wreck of them all.
The road behind bares us a backdrop, too many nights find us fractured in our thoughts and the dreamers we once were are far from the two people who stand today.
We're broken, mere splinters of our shipwreck past, driftwood on a shore that drowns every time the ocean breathes.
The path is littered with slaughtered dreams that didn't bleed.
As time and tide wait for no man shall we find it a tragic scene?
simply erased with the sunsets demise?
No one gets away without a scar and mine speak a road map to chaos
and a found hello to you.
Mine own scars are fingertips
gouged into the sand and faded
but salted by tears of the ocean, inerasable by the tide.
A soul washed up upon the shore, a road map etched delicately into fine bones.
You can trace where I'd been before. All roads lead to your hello.
In broken lines and have uttered phrases and one too many empty night.
Backdrop of chaos does paint in the darkest colors you could ever imagine .
How does it gets so flawed by our own creations and vices my dear?
Does it still ring ever so true?
The bell rings true whispering distant voices
Empty nights are just bottles lined up as dead soldiers
We contemplated our own truths and fell victim to our own vices
The backdrop is black, no colour beneath skin.
Honestly? Where does our downfall begin?
Two ships underneath the nightscape past the spark once understood the flame and nothing more .
In empty alleys, like cats to prowl, we find our moments, and then bury our thoughts to lay for no others to see.
half written papers and half heard conversation the keys of the piano haunt the silence as myself shadows that still remain.
Nothing is but a thought and those are like dead flowers laid to waste a reflection of far better times
The night crawls to meet the day as it has so many times before.
The thought of the minds bottle lay empty upon the table.
A fond farewell is but a sugar coated goodbye.
And I seldom have minced my words to mask their sting.
The page forever bleeds.
Pages that lay scattered on a dirty floor
Bleeding ink into cracks
that will forever more
hide the spirit of our souls.
Helen honestly deserves far more credit than myself on this for her lines in this truly are brilliant.
I give her all the credit in the world cause co writing with me I know is far from easy but this write was truly a pleasure and I look forward to this being the first of many writes with her .