I wish that things didn’t have to be
So complicated between you and me
You love another so I stand there waiting at your door
You feed me scraps and I never ask for more
My head’s always overcomplicating
Every little flaw that I see is another reason you should stay away from me
And it’s sickening to know that I’ll have to live with always being on my own
But for now, you’re my ticket out of all the mess I have to deal with eventually
Not right now, not when you’re here with me

Loving you is like chasing the moon
What seems so close is still coming soon
Part of me knows this is pointless but my body’s moving on it’s own
And before I knew it, I’m relearning everything I’ve ever known

It’s such a simple thing to do, walk away from you
Just turn my head and make sure to avoid looking back
And yet I find myself stuck looking into your eyes
Hoping you’re also looking into mine and seeing what I’ve seen for months now
Deep down I know I’ll end up heartbroken
But you’re just too perfect, you could never break my heart the way others do
Probably the reason why I’m stuck with you

Swore not to fall too hard into something knowing I can’t get up
Call it what you will, call it what you must
Do I just like you or am I in love?
I can’t decide, but what I do know for sure
Is that I wouldn’t mind seeing you behind my door
We could laugh on my porch, freeze this moment in time
That’s when I can guarantee I’ll be feeling fine

Loving you is like chasing the moon
What seems so close will never come anytime soon
And I know this is pointless but all I can do is run
Hoping I’ll eventually catch up to a new someone

I’ve never experienced snow
I’ve always wanted to, though
I’d like to feel it falling all around me
while I’m wearing warm clothing
I don’t know much about it,
but I can always learn
I do know that for you it’s snowing now
or at least, that’s what I’ve heard
It used to be summer
when you first became mine
But it’s snowing now,
and we continue to be intertwined
It’s not snowing here
but I hope you feel me anyway
When you’re under the moonlight,
or you hear a joke you know I’d say
As the snow falls,
so do I
What a divine gift it is
to be able to call you mine

i want to bottle up this happiness
keep it somewhere on my shelf
so that whenever i'm stressed
i'll always have it as a reminder to myself
that eternal sunshine is possible
no matter what storms the world brings
that even when my worries feel plausible
they'll eventually dissipate into nothing
i want to hold it, tight and close
when i'm feeling down, it'll be there when i need it most

Unwanted feelings, I push them away
Most of the time they don’t even bother to stay
But everything changed when I met you that day
It felt like a dream but I was wide awake
And now my heart skips a beat when I hear your name

Oh, someone help me out of the dilemma I’m in
I want so desperately to end this before it begins
But when I catch your glimpses at me, I can feel my head spin
That’s when I realized that with love I just can’t win

The thought of you periodically plagues my mind
You enter so unapologetically and without an invite
If I told you it meant nothing, you’d know it was a lie
There’s a lot hidden in the fact that I can’t look you in the eye
Maybe I shouldn’t try to deny this time

If only I stayed at home
Now I anticipate your name on my phone
Would’ve done great on my own
Now my favorite scent’s your cologne
Feelings I once postponed have overthrown

should i be upset or happy?
it's been so long since i was proud of me
guess i won't know, and it's definitely not the first time
i've let myself down again, but i promise i did try
this feeling eats me up all the way inside
i don't know what will become of me, or if i'll make it out alive

i guess that's how it is now
my feet used to soar above ground
but my wings don't work the same anymore
i guess there's nothing else i can do
but drown my sorrows alone in my bedroom
hoping for a miracle to walk through the door

and i know i should accept it, but i don't want to
if they can do it, doesn't that mean i can too?
unless there's something wrong with me
maybe this isn't where i'm meant to be
i've come so far, isn't it too late to back out?
is this my turning point or the part where i break down?
is this just for today, or is it the rest of my life?
if it is, isn't there something i can do to survive?

they don't know that i feel like dying
they don't know about the nights i spent crying
and if one day, i'm actually gone
take this as a lesson to learn from

That familiar stinging feeling
The kind that makes it hard to breathe
Something must be wrong with me
'Cause it comes back like every week
I write my feelings down, then rip the paper out
Nothing makes sense, everything's misaligned
Maybe I should stop saying things out loud
So I can stop beating myself up at night

I'm a glass vessel
Empty and fragile
I only exist to be displayed
Biding my time, waiting til I break
We both know I will one day
On the day I do, will you stay?
Would you glue me back together or throw me away?
I guess it doesn't matter 'cause I won't know anyway

Maybe I should break my own heart
So I can see what the fuss is about
You say hurting me is so hard
But that didn't stop you, did it now?