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3.7k · May 2018
Anxiety
Taylor May 2018
You were so comforting in my mind
You were the arms that kept me safe
Took away the fears I held inside
I felt so alive in your wake

I find myself running back to you
You’re always there to hold my hand
You were my everlasting muse
‘Cause you were the only one to understand

You’re the only one who understands

Anxiety, oh, anxiety
Won’t you ever let me be?
Anxiety, my sweet anxiety
Don’t wanna face reality

‘Cause if the truth sets me free
Then I’m afraid of what’s in front of me
Oh, anxiety
It’s a tragedy

You were the calm before my storm
You seemed to keep me out of harm’s way
When I worried for a little too long
You met me with an open embrace

I always find myself running back to you
Are we holding on a bit too tight?
Don’t think I can move on without you
Why won’t I say goodbye?

Will I ever say goodbye?

Anxiety, oh, anxiety
Won’t you ever let me be?
Anxiety, my sweet anxiety
Don’t wanna face reality

‘Cause if the truth sets me free
Then I’m afraid of what’s in front of me
Oh, anxiety
It’s a tragedy

If you ever decide to walk away
Then I can’t let you go so easily
But we both know that we can’t let this last

My dear anxiety
You sure are a tragedy
I think I’ve fallen way too deep
Please let me be
my personal take on my anxiety. this is my first poem ever for this site. ♥️
1.8k · Jun 2018
Chewing Gum
Taylor Jun 2018
I've got everything you want and more
Got all these flavors you'd want to explore
I'm ready to fulfill your crave, ready to be adored
I wanna be the only taste when you walk out the door

Baby, don't I have everything you need?
From lemon drop to berries and cream
So why does it always feel like something's missing?
I'm silently begging for you to never leave

I love all the pretty words you say
I love it when you call me your babe
Every minute, every hour, so much time to waste
I swear I could be with you all day

Devour me up until I ache
I'm your sugar to your sour lemonade
Wanna stick to you till I go numb
As long as you don't spit me out like I'm chewing gum

I'm sitting here awaiting your arrival
You're right on time and it's so **** vital
'Cause I'm so elated when I'm made into a bubble
But then I'm deflated and I'm left there to crumble

Baby, don't I have everything you need?
From peppermint to peaches and cream
Why does it always seem like something's missing?
I'm begging you, darling, don't you ever leave

I love all the pretty words you say
I love it when you call me your babe
Every minute, every hour, so much time to waste
I swear I could be with you all day

Devour me up until I ache
I'm your sugar to your sour lemonade
Wanna stick to you till I go numb
As long as you don't spit me out like I'm chewing gum

Chewing gum, chewing gum
Don't spit me out like I'm old chewing gum
Feels like I'm being used, I'm left in lumps
But I'm so infatuated, look what you've done

'Cause I love all the pretty words you say
And I love it when you call me your babe
Every minute, every hour, all the time we'd waste
I swear I could be with you always

Devour me up until I ache
I'll never grow tired of your sour taste
Wanna stick to you till I go numb
As long as you don't spit me out like I'm chewing gum
♥️.
562 · Nov 2018
I Think I'm Selfish.
Taylor Nov 2018
What is it like to hear their voice in your ear?
What is it like to have them far or near?
What is it like having those late night calls?
What is it like to finally fall?

All I see are red and pink hearts around me
So-called couples kissing up on the TV
Dates and soulmates, cheesy lines that I hate
‘Cause I know I’ll never, ever relate

What is it like having them butterflies?
What is it like to have them kiss you goodbye?
Is it like the love songs you hear on the radio?
What is it like to actually know?

Do you really get chills when they touch you there?
Having them hold you with so much care
Y’all talking fondly about each other for days
And I will never, ever relate

I try not to let these thoughts get to me
But I can’t stand seeing all these things I see
‘Cause deep down it’s something I envy
It honestly drives me ******* crazy

I almost want someone to take advantage of me
Don’t care ‘bout the consequences, just fill up my senses
Want nothing but their body heat, tell me that I’m pretty
Feeding off anything they say to make these tears go away

I wanna breathe the air they breathe if it means they’ll never leave
I wanna hold ‘em so tight, talk nonsense all through the night
I’m down for any lies if it’ll stop my cries
Don on a whole masquerade, I just want to relate

‘Cause all I want is happiness
Surrounded by sparks and hearts, meanwhile I’m loveless
I yearn for the feeling
I yearn for the feeling

Been waiting patiently, but I’m not getting any younger
If I wait any longer, I may lose my mind
What is it like? I need to know so badly

…I think I’m selfish.
Wrote this three months ago.
526 · May 2018
Pink Pill
Taylor May 2018
Her eyes are welling up with angry tears
She drowns in them with all her lonely fears
Save her please before the red milk spills
1, 2, 3, time to pop a pink pill

She's on her own 'cause no one seems to understand
She's all alone with the bottle in her hand
Relieve her, darling, I know you will
1, 2, 3, downs another pink pill

Her weak heart strains within her chest
It's all worn out from being ripped to shreds
And she tries laughing so loudly through the pain
But every day ends up being the same

She walks through life, a plastic smile on her face
She doesn't wanna be here in the first place
And as time flows by, so does her eyes
Telling the world that she's fine, but it's all lies

Of course no one'll realize she's reliving her past
Her mama never coming home as she wonders who's her dad
Guys ignore her, while girls are torture
Going through the motions, slowly overdosing

Her eyes are welling up with angry tears
She drowns in them with all her lonely fears
Save her please before the red milk spills
1, 2, 3, time to pop a pink pill

She's on her own 'cause no one seems to understand
She's all alone with the bottle in her hand
Relieve her, darling, I know you will
1, 2, 3, downs another pink pill

Little by little, one by one
She doesn't have to explain to anyone
Two, three, four, just a little bit more
She thinks, "What's the point? What am I even here for?"

With a lump in her throat as she lies in bed
She closes her eyes and rests her head
The tears begin to stream, all she wanna do is scream
Overwhelmed with emotions, she keeps on overdosing

Her eyes are welling up with angry tears
She drowns in them with all her lonely fears
Save her please before the red milk spills
1, 2, 3, time to pop a pink pill

She's on her own 'cause no one seems to understand
She's all alone with the bottle in her hand
Relieve her, darling, I know you will
1, 2, 3, downs another pink pill

Make the pain go away, make it disappear
I wish someone had stayed, wish someone were here
Uh oh, but now it's too late
I am letting myself fade

Fade away, fade away
Now I guess everything'll be okay

Her eyes were welled up with lonely tears
She drowned in them with all of her fears
Free this little angel, we hope you will
As she leaves behind her pretty pink pills
♥️.
308 · May 2018
Ignore
Taylor May 2018
I’m standing here alone
Wondering where you’ve gone
Why won’t you call anymore?
Did I do something wrong?

You seem so far away now
Feel like we’re evaporating now
Is there any way, somehow
That we can go back to where we were

Can you please tell me why?
You ignore me when I walk by
You avoid and you deny
Why do I even try?

Is it ‘cause I’m not like your other so-called friends?
Is it ‘cause I’m a little too different?
I thought you’d understand
Guess I’ve been fooled yet again

I thought you weren’t like the rest
Thought you were better than this
I stayed by your side since forever
Now you’ve changed, but for the worst

I really hate what you doing
I really hoped we could get through it
Tried to let time simmer, tried to let it go
But I can’t, and I won’t

So now that you wanna be like that
I just wanna ignore you right back
Want you to feel what I’m feeling
Wanna do what you’ve done to me

I just wanna ignore you right back
You gon’ be the one I bypass
I’ll neglect, I’ll disregard
Good luck coming back, stay where you are
a poem I wrote three years ago about a former friend.
257 · May 2018
Sweet Nothings
Taylor May 2018
Cookies and cream, why you always so mean?
Let me be in between, let me make a scene
Blueberry pie, why do I even try?
All I want is to get high on this thing you deny

You claim it’s too much, but why can’t we get enough?
Said I think I’m in love, so rub-a-dub me up

No more basking in fake remedies
Don’t make no promises that you can’t keep
We’re only here to make some memories
Continued nights of infidelity

And that’s what you keep telling me
No, I can’t get all in my feelings
But I’m sure that you’re all I need
All I need, my baby

Watermelon, let’s have some fun
Since I’m the only one that can get you undone
Vanilla whip cream, no one knows you’re with me
I’m bare on your sheets, you get off what you see

I tell you I want more, but I’m rushed out the door
And it’s all like before, no sweetness endorsed

No more basking in fake remedies
Don’t make no promises that you can’t keep
We’re only here to make some memories
Continued nights of infidelity

And that’s what you keep telling me
No, I can’t get all in my feelings
But I’m sure that you’re all I need
All I need, all I need

Am I going crazy?
Is it so wrong to care for you?
And I’m aware that if you knew
Then it’d all be over

So can I stay a little longer?
Can I be worth your time?
With your lips on mine
Let’s have another meaningless night

No more basking in fake remedies
Don’t make no promises that you can’t keep
We’re only here to make some memories
Continued nights of infidelity

And you keep on telling me
Don’t get all in your feelings
But I’m so sure you’re all I need
All I need, all I need

And that’s what you keep telling me
No, I can’t get all in my feelings
But you are what I need
What I need, all I need, my baby
tried to be clever with the title. hopefully it was. :D
252 · Nov 2018
Embedded
Taylor Nov 2018
Hold me down, hold me down, the bells are ringing
Spinning ‘round, spinning ‘round, my mind is tangent
All you boys with your toys, your games and your ploys
Can’t seem to cope with all this noise

You have me now, have me now going insane
Your tone and your scowl is always the same
Put me in a mood, boy, you’re so crude
Got me in a loop when it comes to you

So you can go ahead in your smug manner
Push me over the edge like I don’t even matter
‘Cause when everything’s said and done, you know you’ve already won
Me and my heart is racing after you

Oh, you can say whatever you wanna say
You suggest and I’ll copy and paste
‘Cause I know that’s all I’m good for, I don’t wanna be ignored
I’ve been subdued, I’m embedded to you

It’s too loud, it’s too loud, get out of my head
Swear all I can hear now is your voice in threads
It’s so vapid, rapidly falling into your cold abyss
Rushed in too deep and it seems endless

You have me now, have me now going crazy
Started from the day you had called me baby
Sold by your lines that you improvised
And now I’m stuck, can’t ever run or hide

So you can go ahead in your smug manner
Push me over the edge like I don’t even matter
‘Cause when everything’s said and done, you know you’ve already won
Me and my heart is racing after you

Oh, you can say whatever you wanna say
You suggest and I’ll copy and paste
‘Cause I know that’s all I’m good for, I don’t wanna be ignored
I’ve been subdued, I’m embedded to you

Deep down I know you’re no good for me
But I’m too attached for you to leave me lonely
I just want someone here
Need someone near

I’m afraid to be alone
Too involved to let you go
I’m weak by you
You win, I lose

So you can go ahead in your smug manner
Push me over the edge like I don’t even matter
‘Cause when everything’s said and done, you know you’ve already won
Me and my heart is racing after you

Oh, you can say whatever you wanna say
You suggest and I’ll copy and paste
‘Cause I know that’s all I’m good for, I don’t wanna be ignored
I’ve been subdued, I’m embedded to you

I’ve been subdued, I’m embedded to you
I’m subdued, I’m embedded to you
Recently wrote this so I hope it's alright.
252 · May 2018
Hide and Seek
Taylor May 2018
Come out, come out wherever you are
I just wanna play a little game with you
Slow down, slow down, you’re going too far
Underground is where I wanna stay with you

C’mon, my baby, I’ll take you for a ride
Please, my darling, no need to run and hide
‘Cause no matter where you are, no matter what you do
I’m already coming for you

Your shallow breathing is music to my ears
Is your heart still beating, I can’t tell
‘Cause your eyes get wide as I grow near
The bright eyes I knew oh so well

You’re running through the halls, cutting the corners
I know you’re hoping that I’d go away
But it’s not my fault, you should’ve loved me better
Mend my bleeding heart that you have made

Come out, come out wherever you are
I just wanna play a little game with you
Slow down, slow down, you’re going too far
Underground is where I wanna stay with you

C’mon, my baby, I’ll take you for a ride
Please, my darling, no need to run and hide
‘Cause no matter where you are, no matter what you do
I’m already coming for you

Pitter patter, pitter patter on the floor
You seem to be running out of options
I feel so alive waiting patiently for
The right time so your death can begin

Your breath is picking up, begging for mercy
I know you’re wishing that I’d refuse
I’m laughing so hard, the tears are slipping
If you think I care, then I pity you

Come out, come out wherever you are
I just wanna play a little game with you
Slow down, slow down, you’re going too far
Underground is where I wanna stay with you

C’mon, my baby, I’ll take you for a ride
Please, my darling, no need to run and hide
‘Cause no matter where you are, no matter what you do
I’m already coming for you

You’re shivering, my dear, and now I’m here
This is your last moment of life, I fear
You know what’s next, it’s pretty clear
So be prepared to go down, down, down

‘Cause I have found you, yes, I have found you
Now all you gotta do is stay and play
Forever in this gloomy world with me

La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
kind of creepy, but I hope it's enjoyable. ♥
251 · Jun 2018
Mr. Haughty
Taylor Jun 2018
Hey, Mr. Haughty with that proud smile
Could you knock it off for a little while?
Your boasted energy is making me weak
Can barely keep up on my own two feet

Chasing after you is like a hurricane
You bring anyone down that's in your way
Nothing ever seems to overcome your pride
Guess this is where my hopeless heart lies

Cocky, arrogant, think everyone's irrelevant
Tumbling what I've built up just for the hell of it
Ooh, you're so full of it, I'm here feeling foolish
'Cause I can't get enough of it

Your drive, your pride, you're everything I derive
Can't get this to subside no matter how much I try
Think you're so cool as I'm the one being fooled
But I can't get enough of it

Hey, Mr. Haughty with daring eyes
Would you ever let me rationalize?
'Cause I never get past your massive ego
Could you spare some of your heart for me, though?

Chasing after you is a never-ending game
You outplay whoever crosses your lane
Seems like you can never be unscathed
I'm hoping I can put you in your rightful place

Cocky, arrogant, think everyone's irrelevant
Tumbling what I've built up just for the hell of it
Ooh, you're so full of it, I'm here feeling foolish
'Cause I can't get enough of it

Your drive, your pride, you're everything I derive
Can't get this to subside no matter how much I try
Think you're so cool as I'm the one being fooled
But I can't get enough of it

I can't get enough of it
No, I can't get enough of it
I'm blinded, so blinded
Will we recognize our own weakness?

'Cause we both are in the same boat

Cocky, arrogant, think everyone's irrelevant
Tumbling what I've built up just for the hell of it
Ooh, you're so full of it, I'm here feeling foolish
'Cause I can't get enough of it

Your drive, your pride, you're everything I derive
Can't get this to subside no matter how much I try
Think you're so cool as I'm the one being fooled
But I can't get enough of it

Can't get enough of you
a certain ship in the My Hero Academia fandom inspired me to write this. ♥️
233 · May 2018
I Think
Taylor May 2018
Baby, I think I’m losing my mind over you
‘Cause I’m infatuated with so many things that you do
And I don’t even know if you want me in this way too
But I swear that I’m losing my mind over you

My judgments have been clouded by your presence alone
Your voice is like a lullaby that makes me feel like home
And when I’m on my own, my heart is brooding
‘Cause if you’re not here, I feel convoluted

There’s no dusk without dawn, there’s no rise without fall
Darling, I’m right here to embrace all of your flaws
Got all this time to spare, it ain’t going nowhere
I’m drawn to your heart and it’s too much to bear

Baby, I think I’m losing my mind over you
‘Cause I’m infatuated with so many things that you do
And I don’t even know if you want me in this way too
But I swear that I’m losing my mind over you

My defenses have finally been defeated
Your kindness fills up my once deserted feelings
Is it strange to admit that you make me weak?
Is it weird that whenever you’re near, I can barely breathe?

There’s no dusk without dawn, there’s no rise without fall
Darling, I’m right here to embrace all of your flaws
Got all this time to share, not going anywhere
I’m drawn to your heart, but it’s too much to bear

I’m drawn to your heart and it’s too much to bear
We’re enveloped within each other’s arms as our wounds repair
Sometimes I’m left wondering if this is too good to be true
Baby, I think I’m losing my mind over you
I remember writing this on a rainy day.

— The End —