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You are my comfort.  
In everything—  
In chaos and calm, in the mess and the peace—  
You are my safe place.

2. You’ve never failed to make me feel loved and appreciated.
Not even once.  
Not even on the days I didn’t feel worthy of it.

3. With you, I never feel alone.
Never ignored.  
Your presence makes me feel seen, heard, and understood.  
You’ve never made me feel invisible—you always made sure I was okay.

4. You always understand my pain.
You feel it before I even say a word.  
Whether I’m sad, happy, scared, excited, or anything in between—  
You match my emotions with your presence.  
Even on the worst and best days, you were there.  
Always.

5. You make everything feel special.  
Even the simplest things—  
Street food dates, thrift store strolls, window shopping at the mall,  
or just sitting together on a park bench—  
with you, it all feels magical.

6. You always listen.
You never make my rants feel like a burden.  
You make me feel heard—  
like what I say matters to you.  
You listen not just with your ears, but with your heart.

7. You make me feel safe.
Always.  
You make sure I get home safe.  
Even during the smallest errands, you’re right there beside me,  
never letting me feel alone or vulnerable.

8. You respect me.  
You never force me to do anything I’m uncomfortable with.  
You always ask, always check in,  
making sure that whatever we do—it’s always with consent and care.

9. You make time.
Rain or shine.  
No ifs, no buts, no excuses.  
If you say you’ll see me, you show up—always.

10. And finally, we are compatible.
You’re like my mirror.  
My twin soul. My better half.  
Being with you feels like meeting the male version of myself.  
It feels right.  
It feels like destiny—  
That someday, it’ll be you I’ll walk toward,  
at the end of the aisle.
Just like the moon, we are both comparable as imperfect—like its phases. Amidst that, you have loved me beyond my imperfections.
178 · Apr 12
32°C
Heat wave— soft launch to hell, is it?
Free trial, so my sister says.
Bring the ice cream out— because we are bound to take things colder.
174 · Jan 2021
Prison of Hell
Eindeinne Moon Jan 2021
Trying to free me from the chains that they cuffed around my neck, feet and hands
Trying to free me from the pain that I could never understand
Here I am imprisoned in the distress of my past
And burning my soul in hell
But how long will the pain last ?
Unless you wish me well.
174 · Apr 23
🧿
Match your energy
with someone that has the same energy as you.

Never force it. You will get tired.
Just let the vibe flow.
If you click, it will.
172 · Mar 7
:(
:(
we keep playing these mind games
whether I should stay or not
I am like a bird in a locked cage
shackled feet, strangled neck
covered mouth
toxic traits, manic behavior
split personality
call the hotline, he is severe
worst of all
I run away from the truth
scared of a little truth or dare
I wanna leave but I can't
been keep on making the same mistakes
no character development
no personal growth
the other one leaves, another one stays
but the first one is the guy I loved not the latter
171 · Aug 2023
Philautia. (11-20-21)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
Strolling all alone in the sidewalks
Been too busy and too tired to talk
Oh, I am taking all the time
All alone but ain’t lonely

Oh, I am alone all the time
But I ain’t lonely
Hey, I was doing really just fine
Yes, I will be fine

I am taking all the self-worth I deserve
Feed me the love I deserve
I am satisfying myself with the self-love I deserve
Yeah, I deserve so much more than what I truly deserve

Been alone in the seaside now
Too many things going around my mind
I have been so busy now
I got to let myself find me

Know what else will be behind me
Know what I got to find
And oh, I have been managing my own time
The way you never reciprocate the time

I want to have
I got to have
I deserve to have
Oh, I am all that I have

Walking by the seaside aisle
Seeing the beach in a different perspective
Let us be lost in our way
And discover the world we live in

You got to give in
Walking that extra mile
Reaching the borderline
Life seems too obstructive

I got to say
I was alone but ain’t lonely
Say that I was lonely before but I was with you
What would be the difference?

I just want to be alone
At least I feel less lonely
There seems to be an occurrence
It was different when I was with you
169 · Dec 2024
Smoke and f*ck
Eindeinne Moon Dec 2024
Dusk to dawn, you keep draining me,
Chug me up till I’m the whiskey you need.  
I don’t smoke, but I crave cigarettes after ***,  
Smoke then ****—what’s coming next? 
 
But darling, keep it just between us—because secrets are sweeter when I don't kiss and tell.
Baby, you know I can't control this feeling, but I just want to keep it to myself instead.

**** my soul the way you lick my body,
Kiss the **** out of me, I miss your fire.  
The smell of your sweater fuels my desire.  
When I wear oversized tees, I feel your trace,  
Like your touch still lingers, leaving its place.  

It is making you cry every time
You give your love to me this way.  
Saying you’d wait for me to stay,  
I know it hurts you, but it tastes like pleasure in pain.  

And I’m kissing you, lying in my room,
Holding you until you fall asleep.  
And it’s just as good as I knew it would be,  
Stay with me—I don’t want you to leave.  

You intoxicated me with your love so true,
I fall deep into the rabbit hole with you.  
I fall upside down, not on my knees,  
But begging silently for moments like these.  

I might like it oversized on me, 
But underneath, it’s your hands I need.  
Come and be my pillow, soft and true,  
You look so tired, let me baby you.  

In this vanilla twilight beneath pale skies,
Drop-dead gorgeous, you ignite my highs.  
So hot, I needed an espresso shot,  
You’re my craving—are you feeling what I’ve got?    

I’ll touch myself, but no, it’s not the same, 
I love when your arms play their claiming game.  
You’re **** in person, but do you miss me too?  
Does my body haunt the best of you?  

Are you happy? Or does longing remain?
I’ll hold you close, let’s burn in this flame.
164 · Apr 28
shg.
when a softhearted girl with an arrhythmia cries a lot— she is hurt.
I was diagnosed with Arrhythmia way back 2023 because of having low potassium and magnesium. My heart skips a beat every 3 seconds and does a flatline for straight 2-5 seconds sometimes. The longest is 5 seconds the shortest is 3 seconds. Then it beats back again.
My heart is also in pain and swollen before, it grows large when I was 9 years old. Due to nonstop crying—so I was advised by my doctor that when you cry, do not keep it inside. Instead, shout. Cry loudly. Do not hurt your heart, it is already in pain when you cry silently. And a lot of people does that.
164 · Sep 2020
Feeling like hell
Eindeinne Moon Sep 2020
He made me realize that I was living in a house filled with demons
Their bad habits are quite common
If you could compare it with anything else
I only want nothing more, nothing less
They are quite cruel
They only wanted to conquer and rule
Conquer and rule the world and own it like it's theirs
But they aren't the heirs.

I have a mother whose like Beelzebub
I have a father whose like Beelzebul
I have a sister-in-law whose like Lucifer
While my siblings were the accuser.

Unfortunately, my cousin, his girlfriend and my aunt were like Leviathan,
Craving for drama and twisted lies, slander and everything they want to put into.
While, their house is the demon's den
As well as, that ***** was soon the devil's snack
My grandmother is ill, but not dying, but feeling righteous and pure.

She forgot who saved her from her latin prayers,
Not us. But the devil, who tricked her.

How I wonder, my home no longer has love in it
How can I feel it?
My heart is already numb
And my mind is super dumb.
How can I call it my home
If I feel hopeless and alone,
Where shall I locate my house?
Well, Hell is already my house.
No wonder, I have been feeling like hell
Every time you try to wish me well.
161 · Mar 4
infested
Maybe even the walls can hear
Too thick or thin to cave in
You get it, I gave in
But we never know
Life is a mystery
Having you is misery
You know know better
**** up or else I blame you
160 · Mar 2021
My Suicide Note
Eindeinne Moon Mar 2021
Prison of Hell
Try to free from the chains,
Cuffed around my neck,
Bound are my feet and hands.
Trying to free myself,
How long will I last?
This indicipherable torture,
Imprisoned by my past.
How long will this pain last?
Burn my soul,
With this addicting ache I lust,
Shackled by the ticking sand–
But how long will I truly last?
Unless you wish me well,
Bound are my feet and hands,
Carpe Diem,
Save me lest I end, by my two hand.
Hindi ko talaga alam kung saan ako magsisimula.
Hindi ko alam kung alin sa mga bumabagabag sa isipan ko ang dapat kong unahin. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako ngayon—kailangan ko itong himayin.

Magsisimula ako sa tanong na:
“Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi?”

Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi ang mag-a-adjust?
Ang utusan sa pamilyang ito?
Kesyo ganito, kesyo ganyan—mga rason na hindi ko na alam kung valid pa ba o hindi. Pero sige na nga, i-aagree ko na lang. Para matapos na ang usapan. Para hindi na humaba pa ang diskusyon.

Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi ang magsasakripisyo para sa pamilya?
Si Ate na lang ba ang mag-iisip kung paano magtitipid, kung anong dapat unahin—hindi ang luho, hindi ang sariling kapakanan—kundi kayo?
Kayo na lang muna. Ako, mamaya na lang.

Si Ate rin ba palagi ang kailangang magpakumbaba at magpatawad?
Ang aako ng responsibilidad, ang gagawa ng gawaing bahay?
Alam ko naman—may mga kapatid ako. Pero ako na lang ba palagi ang kikilos?
Ako na lang ba ang laging may kusa?
Ako na lang ba ang mag-iisip kung anong ulam ang lulutuin?
Maglalaba, maghuhugas ng pinggan, maglilinis ng bahay?

Kabisado ko na lahat ’yan. Hindi niyo na ako kailangang pagsabihan. Hindi ko na kailangan ng utos.
Pero paano kayo?
Paano kung wala na tayong mga magulang?
Paano kung ako na lang ang natira?

Si Ate na lang din ba ang laging magtuturo at magdidisiplina?
Noong ka-edad ko pa lang kayo, namulat na ako sa responsibilidad.
Pero ngayon, anong nangyari?
Halos lamunin na kayo ng cellphone. Wala nang kusa. Wala nang malasakit sa paligid.

Baka nakakalimutan ninyo—tao rin si Ate.
Hindi ako robot. Hindi ako ginawa para lang sumunod sa utos.
Marunong din akong mapagod. Marunong din akong masaktan.
May damdamin din ako.

Sana maintindihan ninyo ’yan. Na may sarili rin akong buhay na kailangang atupagin. Hindi ako utusan na sunod-sunuran lang. Hindi ako kailangan bigyan ng sahod para gawin ang iniutos ninyo, walang barya o walang pahinga ang makakapagbigay sa akin ng pahinga na hinahanap ko.

Pagod? kaya kong tiisin, kaya kong matulog nang ilang oras lang, kaya kong pagsabayin ang trabaho ngunit anong nangyari sa akin? nagkasakit ako in return. Walang halaga ang bawat barya na binibigay ninyo sa akin, kapalit ng nawala kong adrenal gland.

Puyat at pagod, ipagsabay mo. Instant noodles at walang masustansyang pagkain ang makakapatay sa akin. Coke at kape na ginawang tubig. Pagbantay sa lola kong maysakit ang naging libangan.

Hindi sa hindi ako marunong magpasalamat o baka isipin ninyo hindi ako grateful at wala akong utang na loob sa ginawa niyo para sa akin. Ang utang na loob na habangbuhay kong pagbabayaran ay hindi katumbas nang pilak at ginto o salapi, kundi habangbuhay na karangalan at respeto ang ibibigay ko sa inyo sa pagsilang sa akin sa mundong ito at dahil binuhay niyo ako at hindi pinabayaan.

Hindi niyo ako narining na nagrereklamo, hindi niyo ako nakikita na nagmamaktol, hindi niyo ako naririnig na nagpapaliwanag at nagrarason dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na sarado ang isipan at taenga ninyo kung sakali man na ako ay magpapahiwatig nang aking saloobin sa inyo.

Alam ko, naiinitindihan ko na napapagod rin kayo, iba rin ang pagod na nararamdaman ko. Hindi kumpletong tulog, hindi unan at kama ang lunas nito, dahil kung minsan kung ako ay tulog na ay sadyang nag-iingay rin ang aking isip. Ang tanging lunas na gusto ko sa pangungulila ko sa pahinga ay kapayapaan, katahimikan at dalampasigan. Iyon lamang.

Hanggang dito nalang,

Nagmamahal,
                               Ate :)
158 · Apr 17
love
be the love you never received.
be the comfort your loved one needs.
be the light in someone's dark days.
you can be all that. if you want to be like that.
it is tiring but rewarding and fulfilling at the same time.
P.S Be careful when you do—if you keep giving without receiving or resting, you’ll end up burning yourself out -Lostling
157 · Mar 26
free
I have been breaking bad right now,
Bend it over on me, for me.
Lean over, closer—
Your lips tasted like champagne.

Got a fever for this feeling I need to savor,
Salty whitish fluids keep wanting me more.
Dreams of getting intoxicated in the haze,
Feeling too anxious to pop pills, Getting lazy over ecstasy.

Mind flying in the daylight,
***** up my emotions.
***** and whisky over this ******-up life
Smoke ****, inhales pulverized ******* after s*x
Overdosed love, you say, but

If this poem is a free verse,
Can I have my life back without being under the influence?
I just wanna start over, start a new life.

Midnight hits different, when hitting you from behind.
Scream for me, will you?
No matter what pain it is,
It pleasures me within.

I just wanna overdose in pleasure and lust,
Not in some kind of drugs
Not in some kind of intoxicated smokes
I just wanna be drunk in love, not in alcoholic drinks.

When pain is traded for pleasure,
Just know that I will always be here for you.
I believe what we had is real, I know it
When pain already weighs pleasure now,
I beg you—don't stop, continue until you pass out
155 · Feb 27
I do
Mahiwaga ma'y aking nadarama, dahil alam kong ikaw ang pipiliin ko sa araw-araw
154 · Jul 13
WH questions
What type of answer would you expect me to give you?— The kind of answer you would like to hear or not.

Why would I give you my name when you are not even interested to know— It was like telling a story you are not ready to hear or an alibi you do not wanna listen to.
154 · Jun 26
murder
I
killed so
many versions
of myself...

Just to make you happy
Just to change myself for you to love
and accept me,
Hence, I was wrong.

How do I get away of ******? by not killing so many versions of myself just to feel loved and accepted.
But I was wrong again

we **** our old self, bury the hatchet, oblivious, they say
to love and be loved, is what I longed for
but never to force a reckoning connection,
never spark a dull moment in your life that you would ever think twice
not knowing when that love will come or it shall pass
life's uncertainties are things we cannot control of,
for so long, I was never a love fan
but I am not desperate for a love that was never mine,
then, certainly will, **** like a bubble, they are gone.

so again, how not to get away with ******? is never to start a ******.
God removes the bad people in your life because they heard things about you that you never will, and He’s protecting you from their hidden intentions.
147 · Mar 14
fckbddy
I love the way you torture me—
Told you before, I never moan this loud.
But with you?
I can't keep my hands to myself,
Can't shut the **** up.
You love it when I lose control,
When our bodies move—loud as applause.
You left me wanting for more—Don't make me beg, please
I know you want it too.
145 · Mar 29
bng jdgd
You know my name? Congratulations.
But did you ever truly know me? I think not.

You never scared the hell out of me—not once.
Do you even know my weaknesses? Doubt it.
Maybe I’d let you think you do, just for fun.

Let me spell it out for you.

At birth, my lungs were weak—yet I survived.
I had asthma, a weak heart—I pushed through.
Dengue hit me hard, yet I never stepped foot in a hospital. Immortal, maybe.

I kicked a glass once—six stitches later, I still felt the needle pierce my skin.
I fainted, got injured, had surgeries—three times.
Ear, gums, adrenal gland—cut me open, I still came back.

Death doesn’t scare me.
You? Even less.

And judgment? That’s not yours to give.
Not theirs either. Only God can judge me, and He does so once—upon my death.

So listen, mere mortal.
Quit the act. Stop pretending you’re perfect—because you’re not.
144 · Apr 6
=)
=)
Save some money for yourself, so when things get rough, it will be easier for you to leave in a situation you don't want
143 · Mar 2021
tired.
Eindeinne Moon Mar 2021
Loving someone who has no time for you? Wow. How incredible.
143 · Apr 11
stronger
Smirk to the left side of my face,
                                                            Smir­k to the right side of my face.
                                        Now, it's symmetrical.
                      Grin some more.
                            You thought pain breaks me, no.
                                                      You thought that would **** me, nah.
                                             It only makes me stronger.

Laughing my *** off for your assuming talent. Believe me I tried, but when I heard it, it sounded out quite hilarious.

Harder =)
Better ;)
Faster :)
Stronger • • •
141 · Apr 17
🤭
Don't mix pleasure with pain, it might **** you wanting to be alive inside him.
141 · Aug 2023
Better (04-02-22)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
Baby, you deserve a love that stays
Deserve a girl that stays
Not that kind of love that comes back
That makes you distract

You deserve a love that remains
A love that gives inner peace but not hurt and pain
You deserve a love that never leaves
And a heart and mind that never deceives

Baby you deserve better
I don’t want to see you with someone better
That’s why I wanna be better
Better, better, better for you
Oh, better, better, better for you

Baby, come here
I will kiss it better
I just want to be with you forever
I want us to be together

I just wanna be better
Better, better, better for you
Oh, Promise I’ll be better
Better, better, better for you

You deserve to be loved
You are more than enough
You deserve a love that lasts a lifetime
Babe, you are the best thing that has ever been mine

No wonder why everyone leaves you
I don’t know what’s their problem
But let me stay here with you
Until we will make it an official

This love is not artificial
This love is like an emblem
I just wanna treasure you forever
I will give up everything so we could be together

Cause baby, you deserve a love that stays
You deserve a love that never goes away
No ghosting, no clout chasing

Just love, pure love
No pressure, not a leisure
No need to rush, if this feeling is just a crush
You deserve a love that remains

A love that stays and never goes away
A love that never demands pain
A love that is not forced usually

It is not a fleeting feeling
This feeling made me feel like I’m on the ceiling
This love made me feel crazy
I’m going crazy, I want to be your lady
139 · Apr 9
rawR.
I want to rip your clothes apart—exposing in front of me the one I desire to see
Bathed in golden hue sunset sky
Until the vanilla twilight, I die.

From dusk to dawn, spare me my endurance
Abstinence no more. But I want more.

I like it raw. It penetrates my skin from the inside.
[SPG]
139 · Apr 18
it ends with me
when trust is broken
your sorry means nothing.
but I forgave you,
when you were dying
you asked for my forgiveness
and I did forgive you.

but that does not mean you were forgiven,
It was never bound to be forgotten.
your bruises and wounds of me
were my battle scars
proof for everyone to see
that when I was a child
innocent to the world
I was forced to grow up
trust no one
and be cruel.

how many times did I called your attention
to stop the whips,
to stop me from beating up
to stop me from following your orders
listening to your ****** up rules
but it all ended me, in one blow.
when you plead me for mercy,
It was not mercy that came to my mind at first
It was never forgiveness, sought or not
but it was hatred and bitterness
I will let you taste it.
I will make sure that your life is a living hell
as long as you breathe and
as long as I breathe.

I made your blood boil.
It itches your skin
to not hurt me
punch me
skin me alive
burn me
what else have you got?
stake me through my heart?
put the gun in my ******* head
pull the trigger
make me drink the poison you made
It made you crazy seeing me breathe
maybe you forgot,
I was your offspring
from you, I came from
you are my kind
yet you denied me
despised me,
denied me.

be cruel to me, father
at all costs
whatever you did,
it was never buried with you in the first place
in your deathbed, you lie
pleading for forgiveness
enough is enough
because it ends with me.
journal of a physically abused man.
138 · Mar 30
eudaimonia
What we really want is not necessarily what we need— Sometimes, we easily get distracted by the things we want just to heal our inner child. Since it feeds and heals our soul,

Don’t get me wrong, we attain physical satisfaction, But is it really what our spirituality seeks to desire? Did we live a good life outside of comfort? Or did we fight a good life in the midst of survival?

We chose to choose life—by all means, to live comfortably, not fashionably.

We chose to live a good life because this is the kind of battle we chose to face. Henceforth, this was the kind of war we must fight, obstacles we must hurdle— Inner peace and personal satisfaction—not of material things,

But of good deeds, forgiveness, and abstinence.

Sin is temporary in life; we forgive, confess, and forget, Starting a new life as a forgiven person.

For it does not guarantee lifetime happiness, But rather, a temporary one.
137 · Sep 2020
feeling sick
Eindeinne Moon Sep 2020
Water alone cannot suffice my hunger
Food alone cannot withstand my thirst
I was drowning in fear and running for my life
I feel like lying in deathbed all my life
137 · Aug 2023
21.24 (11-13-21)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
Age does not matter
Inner beauty does matter
Outer beauty does not
Personality matters most

I love the way you touch my hand
I know it is your command
Love me more than I deserve
Cause I will love you more than what you deserve.
137 · Mar 8
i dunno what to do
Maybe we’re trying too hard  
to mend what was never meant to be whole,  
forcing ourselves to fix it anyway.  
But am I truly ready to walk away,  
or was the timing never ours to begin with—  
or are we just too torn apart to feel this empty?  

We used to speak with love,  
now every word feels like a war,  
shouted, sharpened, meant to wound.  

Maybe it’s because I changed,  
or was it that I simply fell out of love with you?
134 · Apr 19
est. 2000
one time, I remember
out of curiosity,
out of poverty,
soy sauce, oil and vinegar,
dried fish,
fried rice with egg,
cracklings,
instant noodles
were our viands
with rice, as the queen of every meal.

just to get by in life,
just to survive from hunger and thirst.
just to be alive for another day
and experience it once again
just like clockwork.

I could never demand before,
for how hard life is.
but now, with every privilege given to us
like a chance we could get,
every opportunity slipping by
we hastily chase over them.

for once in my life,
I could buy what I needed and wanted to
without asking for my parents' money
I earned my own and I hustle to provide

not knowing the history of how I made it this far
God only knows what I went through
which were so easier for others to conclude
too quick to judge
I hope you know what you were talking about
I hope you are not making a wrong impression
or wrong words to say, just to make your theories sound
plausible for audiences to hear

everything I went through,
every experience I had gone through
every face of unfamiliar people I met,
kind or not, trusted or not
ally or not
went behind my back to judge and backstab me
I thought that who I was to judge you
who I was to do revenge?
I am unworthy, in fact.
134 · May 5
dual fate
I kept my mouth shut
since it was never my story to tell
but when I got mad,
I told everyone, since you trigger me
I paid respect for a respect,
never respect for rudeness
If you cannot respect my time,
then ask yourself, how can I respect your time, then?
131 · Apr 7
🌊
You have the waves of the sea writ on your skin—stretch marks.
I honestly don’t know where to start.
I don’t know which of the many thoughts troubling my mind I should talk about first. But there’s one thing I’m sure of—I need to lay this all out.

Let me begin with a question:
“Is it always going to be Ate?”

Is it always going to be Ate who has to adjust?
The one who’s always given the chores in this family?
This and that—reasons I no longer know if they’re even valid. But sure, fine, I’ll agree. Just to end the conversation. So we don’t have to drag it out any longer.

Is it always going to be Ate who sacrifices for the family?
Is Ate the only one who thinks of how to save money, how to prioritize what’s important—not luxuries, not personal wants, but you?
You first. I’ll be the last.

Is it always Ate who has to be the one to forgive and humble herself?
The one who takes on the responsibility, who does all the housework?
I know—I have siblings. But why does it always have to be me who moves first?
Why am I the only one who will take the initiative?
The one who thinks of what to cook?
Who does the laundry, washes the dishes, cleans the house?

I know it all by heart. You don’t even need to remind me. I don’t need to be told.
But what about you?
What happens if one day, our parents are no longer here?
What if we, siblings, were the only one left?

Will Ate still be the one who teaches and disciplines you?
Back when I was your age, I was already aware of my responsibilities.
But now, what’s happened?
It’s like you’re being swallowed whole by your screens. There’s no initiative. No concern for your surroundings.

Maybe you’ve forgotten—Ate is human, too.
I’m not a robot. I wasn’t made just to follow orders.
I get tired. I get hurt.
I have feelings, too.

I hope you understand that.
That I also have my own life to attend to.
I’m not a servant who exists to follow commands.
I don’t need to be paid to do what you ask, because no amount of coins or rest will ever truly give me the break I’ve been longing for.

Tired? I can endure that. I can survive with only a few hours of sleep. I can juggle work. But what did I get in return? I got sick. I lost an adrenal gland, and no amount of money you hand to me can make up for that.

Exhaustion and sleep deprivation? I had to deal with both. Instant noodles and barely any nutritious food—that’s what nearly killed me. Coke and coffee replaced my water. Watching over our sick grandmother became my daily routine.

It’s not that I don’t know how to be thankful.
It’s not that I’m ungrateful or that I don’t have a sense of debt for what you’ve done for me.
The debt I carry in my heart for a lifetime can’t be repaid with silver, gold, or money—
But with lifelong honor and respect, for bringing me into this world and for raising me. For never abandoning me.

You never heard me complain.
You never saw me throw a tantrum.
You never heard me explain or reason out—because deep down, I know your minds and ears are closed if ever I try to express how I feel.

I understand. I know you get tired too.
But my exhaustion is different.
No amount of sleep, pillows, or beds can fix this.
Because sometimes, even in sleep, my mind is still noisy.
The only cure I long for in my aching solitude is peace, silence, and the shore. That’s all I want.

That’s all for now.

With love,
Ate :)
131 · Aug 2023
Adrian. (11-9-21)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
I think he already knows
Because I told him so
He just took what I said for granted
I thought I was all that he wanted

Ooh, I lost myself
Chasing after you
I lost myself
Looking for you

But then, you just ignored me
Yet you just seem uninterested in me
Oh, you wanted me to be
I never wanted to be

But I never lose you
You lost me
I never lost you
Cause you just let me

Go, oh, let me go
Oh, Adrian
You just let me go
Oh, Adrian
130 · Mar 17
God
God
Praise the one who set me free—from everything that cages and shackles me.
It is God, who loved me and crowned me with flowers despite his crown of thorns
130 · Apr 16
nonsense
An unheard explanation waiting to be heard is enough for an amount of silence traded for peace of mind.
Do we really need to know everything at all costs?
What costs us when we heard unspoken truth unfolding right before our very eyes,
heard by what our ears supposedly should not hear,
gives us pain and suffering in return.

maybe it is better to let it be.
known or unknown.
heard or not
seen or not
tangible or intangible.
does it matter? or does it not?

questions are quite tricky that was stuck in the corner of my mind
is it worth it or is it not?
to be or not to be? that is the question.
maybe Shakespeare seems to be offended of me for stealing Hamlet's dialogue
just like this poem, I intended to write it
to let my mind wander free here on Hello Poetry

sometimes, I consider myself as a cloud.
I am quite emotional. I cry a lot.
I am softhearted and sensitive.
I hate it. I go soft for things that are sincere.
I hate petty things to be fought over.
I love music, I love poems and songs
in short, I love literature.

it feels like I am stuck in a wrong era, in a wrong world
in a wrong generation, in a wrong century
everything in my life feels so wrong.
130 · Apr 12
Phew 🔫
I go bullet for bullet, blow by blow
But it doesn't have to end that way—
I want katana to katana, arrow to arrow
But never mind.

Let's be civil about it.
I intend to be more composed than react about it.
Waste my strength for a nonsense person over a nonsense, petty matter.
I never know. We never did.

Did you see me ******* stutter? or joke around?
Nah, I don't think so.
129 · Mar 27
realization
Why do people overthink a lot during midnight? —Everything hits different at midnight.

To answer that, Yes.
If I am one to overthink during midnight,
I tend to ask myself with what ifs and whys...

What if this is not the right path for me to take?
What if I am not pretty enough for him?
What if he will fell out of love from me?
What if I am not enough for him?
What if he was waiting for someone to arrive?
But at first, I was the was the easy one so that made him stay.
Why was I feeling like I am never going to be good enough for him?
Why is he like that?

I tend to overthink a lot before,
I slept late and woke up early.
Yes, I still exist up until today.
Yes, I am still alive and breathing until today.
But not anymore.

That old habit of mine died,
the day I met my partner.
All of my whys and what ifs were already answered now.

Because he gave me a lot reassurances that I am enough for him alone.
And that is much better.
127 · Aug 2023
AC <3 AD (10-15-21)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
I like it when you smile
I get so happy
When you talk to me
Even just for a while

You remember little details of me
Your Mom was so much closer to me
I wonder how you would feel
That this feeling I feel is real

I have prayed so hard to God
That You would come along my way
I knew it was the will of God
For me to hear you say

Just stay, stay here with me
Even just for today
I want you to see
That you're the only one for me

Your eyes were like stars
Look how they shine so bright
When you look at me
When you stare at me

Your voice is like an angel I long to hear
Right now, I wish you were here
Who knows what I fear?
To slip you away, my dear

It was like my whole world's already in front of me
It was like my answered prayers' already in front of me
You are like a distant star
Look how you shine so bright

Save me, save me from drowning
I'm slowly falling
Falling deep into you
Falling deep into an ocean of love

And I am deeply in love
Deeply in love with you

I'm afraid to lose you
Even though you're not even mine
But I'll be fine
It's just that I am missing you

Every love song reminds me of you
Loving you was like breathing
But never interested enough to stop breathing
Cause every beat of my heart is calling you
125 · Jun 30
God is the G.O.A.T
one thing I was trained for
was to not be scared of the devil.
it mimics. it scares. it feeds from your fear.
be it a demon or a person.

one thing I will always be scared of,
GOD.
He is the Sovereign One. The Triune God.
I am a God-fearing servant of God.
124 · May 4
can't
Nice try, you can't hurt me
With a single blow, once or twice
I've done that, experienced that
A couple of hundred times
I ain't coming from the wake & bake family
I need no cannabis to smoke,
I breathe the smoke they puff in
I breathe it in like an air freshener
I breathe it out like a toxic waste
You know me don't you?
Only by my name, not the real me.
124 · Oct 2020
Blessing in disguise
Eindeinne Moon Oct 2020
One-sided love, he ain't my first love
I'm the devilish one, he's the angelic one
We're different yet the same
Every time he calls out my name.

It must be bad karma
What I did to every one,
That's why I'm all alone
But I ain't lonely,
I'm super happy
I guess this is good karma,
I bet he's my blessing in disguise
And maybe he's the angel in the skies.

I've got no horns
I ain't crowned with thorns
I've got no halo
Maybe I'll just say hello

I've got no wooden staff
I ain't worshipping a golden calf
I had no wings for me to fly
But I'm pretty sure I'm happy enough to cry

I can't part the sea
I can't reach the shore
I can't cross the ocean and walk on the water
I can't perform miracles.

I hope you would see
That I ain't like this before
I drifted like the wind after
It was then told in the oracle.
124 · Apr 29
mistakes
When you made a mistake, others will have the right to define some meaning behind that mistake?

If yes, that is what my family always did to me.

I cheated once with my partner, although I made a bad reason to breakup with him
And the guy I cheated with, has a girlfriend
He betrayed me into telling my mother about what happened to us,
He spread rumors about me, which also made my mom angry at me at the same time

After that, she scolded me. Told me I was a flirt for flirting on other boys and cheating on my ex-boyfriend.
My ex-boyfriend cheated on me, I didn't know who or when it happened,
It just happens that I didn't know about that incident and he never got caught.
A friend of mine told me that since they were classmates, she saw my ex out with someone new after a week of breaking up with him.

My life was so ****** up.
Someone wise once said, "mistakes do not define you"
We really have no right to define them badly about their mistakes
We did not know what happened. Who are we really to judge that person when we do not even walk in the same shoes as his or hers.
We have no right to be rude about them.
Their mistakes defined them as imperfect people. We all are imperfect people but remember that God loved us so much, he sees through us and our imperfections but he never judged us.
123 · Apr 16
Holy Week reflections...
Our debts have been paid by Jesus, and our sins are forgiven.

So, who are we to withhold forgiveness from those who have wronged us? As Jesus taught, we should forgive not just seven times, but seventy-seven times—a testament to the boundless nature of grace and mercy.

We forgive even if forgiveness is never sought. We don’t forgive for redemption—we forgive because we, too, are sinners, imperfect human beings. Forgiveness is not something we do because it’s commanded of us; we forgive out of our own will, for our peace of mind.

Time doesn’t truly heal wounds—they remain, just as memories do, including the painful ones. Time doesn’t let us forget, but forgiveness allows us to find peace within ourselves. If others cannot forgive us, let it be. What matters is that, within our capacity and without expecting anything in return, we chose to forgive.

During Holy Week, fasting goes beyond physical discipline; it's a time to nourish the soul. Feed your spirit with calm and peace, with uplifting thoughts and moments of relaxation. Abstain from distractions, and devote yourself to prayer, seeking God’s guidance and protection.

By doing so, you strengthen your heart against the devil’s trickery and deception, ensuring you remain steadfast in faith and truth. It’s not just a period of sacrifice, but a meaningful journey of spiritual growth and renewal.
123 · Aug 2023
My moon (7-28-23)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
The sky is breathtakin’
I feel like stargazin’
Capturing moments of you
Observing every move of you

Looking at your smile
While relaxing in the isle
I got this kind of healthy love
No one could ever get enough

When tough times arise
Like waves they fall or rise
Just know that I will always be here for you
I will always love you in all shades of you

I still want you
I still love you even if you hurt me
I still want you even if you are mean to me
Nobody’s perfect and we aren’t perfect, love
122 · Aug 2023
Anecito (7-28-2023)
Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023
You met me at a perfect time
But we both fed up in such a worst crime
Sadly, there is no more words to rhyme
Losing you is much better than losing myself for a lifetime

Been bruised, been scarred for life
Got pointed with a gun and knife
Thank God, I barely made it out alive
Barely kicking just to survive

I thought there seems to be no life after you
Seeing myself miserable over you
For a long time, I hated you
Forgetting everything about you

When it seems that life is just a ride or die
You can’t even look me in the eye
How come you always lie
Everything is already said and done, goodbye

Stop trying so hard for things to work out for me
For the both of us, for you and me
You said you loved me
But time never lead you back to me

Two hearts still beat on with different rhythms
Collated on the different sides of every prism
Like the fragments of my broken heart
Everything fell apart

I hope we should let it go now
Letting go of all the hurts and pains now
I poured my whole heart out for you
But you hated yourself for letting me go

You gave me only a 3-month trial
Hopeful enough we would reconcile
Time was never on our side
Hope you float on it, life is a tide

Love seems too splendid
Then, like a call you left me unattended
But I don’t mind
Time alone cannot erase the memory you left behind

Hour glasses and stopwatches are all useless
Hoping for you ‘fess up, I’m breathless
Asking myself why’d you run away?
Runaway far away from today

Maybe you changed your mind approaching me
Instead, you chased and approached other girls
Why would I bother force you to stay with me?
I know my worth is weighed in gold and pearls

But you played me like a doll
Bounced me back like a ball
Guessed me like a mind game
Whispered in your name
122 · Mar 7
life
If life weighs you down
Bring yourself up once again;
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