Throughout my life, I came into contact with different females.
Each one with their own unique experience.
Some shape or form, I love each & every one of them.
But looking back now, I realized they were never “the one” for me...

There were some who I could get along with,
Some I get into it with,
A few with good hearted intentions
& others jealous & insecure affections.
One can be protective.
Another manipulative.
This one time, a woman just needed a man like me for comfort.
Yet, thought about her ex as she wish he would come back & put in more effort.

If there was one thing they all had in common, it was telling me-“ you're simply just different.”
I never understood that phase.
I just live life simple & treated them with respect....
Maybe that’s what separates me from the rest...
I don’t know.

I’m sure they wonder if I think about them.
I wonder if they still think about me.
My love I have for them can’t vanish ever, even if I tried.
It’s “love” not “in love”  however; I could never keep it hidden inside.

Have you ever felt this way?

Where do I even begin......I can start off with a prayer.
Lord thank you for your mercy, your grace, your love, & each beautiful race.
Thank you for the opportunity and the message
Thank you for the Angels and blessing

“when are we gonna meet,
why did this happen, am I missing what you’re showing me, how can I handle this situation I don’t know nothing about, is this a life lesson, Am I able to make it too heaven , does the Bible answer all my questions, who’s my future fiancé?”

I ask a lot of questions when I don’t understand your work
Don’t take it the wrong way Father, I’m admiring your worth
Constantly stay in prayer for you as the Devil lurks
The temptation is real , one slip up & you’re hurt
Two battles will collide soon , heaven vs hell , Who has the strongest turf?
The rapture is coming, so it’s almost time to Rehearse

Thinking before & after I choose my decisions
Never a broken being in prison, to focus on the mission
Now that I’m older, I’m driven to become a better Christian
Forgive me Father I need you to listen, each day I’m receiving better wisdom

Childhood days: My uncle tried to convince his nephews that We’re better without a woman
Sharing his knowledge due to his mistakes, half of us bought it....
Mom always told us not to pay attention cause he was fallin
Family is a trip, pray to jesus for his soul, that’s my callin....

2016-My last relationship, she wanted to be in love
Seemed very simple & easy + she was my personal angel from above.
Things were going good with very high promise that a man can dream of
Til the baggage & trust issues came out of her, my spirit told me to “Wake up”.
Beginning & ending of Arguments , fights, along with giving up
I continue to live, yet feeling like I’m the one that messed up.
Greed became a major goal of hers vs just us
But She wanted more & more from me cause it wasn’t enough.
Time pass & Two-Separate paths showed after the break up
I left it alone cause it was too much to overcome.
Both Gemini with almost similar personalities, but listen up
Til this day, I sometimes hold her in my heart as my own beloved.

Nowadays, people talk like they know somethin
Think they know their worth, but they don’t know nothin
Calling each other “The God”, and that’s how they feel
Trying to get a piece of shine, social media, that’s not a meal
This generation wanna have fun, that’s a fun fact
Getting turnt up, but never pays attention to the impact
Or how it may affect their lives for the future
This new wave is strong like a Brain tumor

More then ever it’s time to get myself together
Im ready to start a family, yet I know I have a few more “stay single” moments with whomever
Don’t judge me cause I’m living life to my fullest experience this semester
It’s an adventure that we all go through, won’t last forever

So Every morning I beg God for his mercy.
As he challenge my intelligence on this new journey.
Cause my own mind gets me in trouble, try not to worry.
I’m 24 now & before you know it I’ll be 30.

They hide in the shadows, constantly racing.

Never to be seen, killed, nor destroyed;
However, only heard of in numerous stories

Blinded by the naked eye,
By the lies of hate,
By the jealousy of want,
By the nonsense of love.

Such wickedness in the depth of dark thoughts.

Madness of harsh words spreads
Like wildfire, firecrackers shooting
High into the stratosphere.

Charging at lightning speed
Only to burst out, creating loud
Roars across the sky.

Whenever paths
Cross, it’s a brutal fight!

They are savages and must be stopped…
Nonsense must end…

The gossipers might win the battle
But the truth-tellers will win the war.

All eyes are on you.