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248 · Nov 2017
Catch me
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
Mist dances with the trees
As you and I used to
Sifting through one anothers life
Wrapping our love
Against our warm hard bodies

Eventually these clouds disappear
And we're left with such a bite
That only the cold
Can sweep us off our feet
245 · Sep 2017
Fight
Brandon Cotter Sep 2017
Fixate on the light with darkness in mind as spite
Trying to find a way around the wrong to do what’s right
Time to take flight, hurdle from those steps with all of my might
Regaining greatness, it’s me who’s at the top of the fight
Soaring high I will never let that ****** drag me down again
I bested its every skill, its begging me to be a friend again
Too late *****, sorry for leaving you down on the ground where you belong
You taught me to dwell there and why? You said we could get along!
**** that, I’m ripping the darkness away from my heart and soul
It’s **** and old, rotting every second that I rock and roll
So cocky and bold you actually look my way when I’m gone
Sitting there in tears decaying with every word of this song
You were wrong when you said that I had ran out of steam
It’s time to realize that I’m lean, mean and ready for the scene
Let that beam of light shine bright with all its enormity onto me
Now let’s fight for what’s thought to be only capable inside a dream
245 · Jan 2018
Dark
Brandon Cotter Jan 2018
An unlit room more or less
I've lied
More
Much more
Black paint under moonlight
Well
Let's forget the moon
But you see the walls still right?
How about drawing the shades
And now I've disconnected the street lights
And every other light
While we're in a mood to disconnect
There goes the rest of them
Now we're talking
Dark
I mean really dark
But I can still feel light pouring in
Spraying on my skin
Oh of course
The sun
It must go
Ah like that
That's better
Oh my God
The stars
How the absence of ours
Illuminates your beauty beyond words
And yet you must go
One by one
Until we have finally arrived
Dark
As if my eyes have been taken apart
Atom by atom
Each wrapped in vantablack
And individually deleted
Darkness that questions reality
As I float adrift
Searching for a way out of this emptiness
That I have trapped myself in
The more I yell
The less I feel
The less I love
The more I cry
And you
Even in the dark
In a blanket of black
I can still see you
For in the absence of everything
Nothing matters but you
244 · Nov 2017
Bandit
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
My skeleton shaking
Collapsing down on itself
Splattering organs onto the earth
As the organics hold hands
Churning life amongst the dirt
A vibrant red howls
My heart
Stranded above the mess
Watching miracles
Like a jumper Contemplating the end
blood burning rapid
Dripping impurities ubiquitously
Sharing what feelings are left
Before you consume all that I am
All that I was
All that I will be
And my brittle pumping heart
243 · Oct 2017
Non compos mentis
Brandon Cotter Oct 2017
The tea boils
As the food spoils
And my tears
Fall harder each day

I check the time
And again check the time
Because without you
I have lost my way

Mold in the sink
Dishes start to stink
The cats need to be fed
As we starve in the cold

My heart aches in the morning
And again when it's storming
You promised forever
Or atleast until we were old

But go ahead have your fun
While I sit with this gun
And test my luck
On a game of chance

One click two click
The sound makes me sick
As the devil smiles
With his haunting prance
233 · Oct 2018
Hello old friend
Brandon Cotter Oct 2018
Heartbreak shakes my hand again
Mottled with grays and hints of black
In awe of my grimace, it paces
Observing my battered heart
As the crimson flashes from my chest
My light is squandered once again

As the cold embrace tightens my throat
I am speechless to this view on life
Desolate and distraught  
Of the corpse I have shriveled into

I must kneel to the darkness afoot
With tears to choke the last breaths I take
I am left abandoned
Alone
Of all that I have ever loved
And more importantly
All I have ever lost
232 · Feb 2018
Love is
Brandon Cotter Feb 2018
Love is miraculous
It's countless bubbles perched on your shoulder
Surviving our baths journey
your soft skin wrinkles
As tiny toes adapt to the water

It's miracles making eye contact

While the sun sets
Between our gushing hearts

It's the burning down our throats
From the poison we share
Before a long night out

The many seasons of our love
Autumn encased our passion
As the falling leaves
Crunch beneath our feet

Love is the laughter
And our endless touch

If souls exist
Ours are holding hands

The cuts and the bruises
Of painful nights of regret
Love is worth remembering
When all you want to do is forget

It's tasting you after a long day
And the feeling of your heart
Knocking against my chest
If to plunge through the doors
Into my cyclone of desires

Love is the songs we sing
And the movies we watch
Altogether
It's the memories we have
And not knowing the last time
We'll get the chance to make more

To be honest
Love ****** me up
Not caring if I failed
Or made a mistake
Love would catch me

Love is the last time we kissed
The last time I held your hand so tight
But now that you're gone

Love is something cold
A cadaver drained of a soul
A pile of mass to dissect
Love is cutting yourself
Just to see if you heal

In all the madness
Love is
And will always be
A curse of the ******
Yet plush to the touch of wonders
225 · Sep 2018
Suicide
Brandon Cotter Sep 2018
Falling in love is so ******* dangerous,
If they don't catch you, it's practically
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224 · Dec 2018
Amour
Brandon Cotter Dec 2018
I carry your heart in my breast pocket
So close to mine
As the beating of our love
Has become inseparable

Creating lives spread so vast
Yet they rumble as one
Like howls drifting though the sky
Of a midnights praise of harmony

Our hands cast in a shell
Healing together
As if we had broken all that we could
Yet anticipating anew
For what beauty
Awaits to discover

A single kiss
Calms that tingle along the spine
Planting our seeds for blossom
As we delve through one another
To grow into something greater
Something new

And we'll bathe under the sun
In endless laughter
Until our bones hug the sand
And our souls may dance with each other
With the same fire we had
When our love first crashed into existence
211 · Nov 2017
Reverie
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
I've been waiting.... to wake up
           From a Ďream
Or from real i t y
                                    Or somewHere       In be
tween
               As              a shade
Cascading further into the darkness
Where   structure               Has.    no meaning
Colors no light
             And my    Life
                                           No resolve           for
      the restlesš
211 · Nov 2017
Falling
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
How do I move past these holes in my life
The missing texts
Empty photo albums
Old receipts
The last shirt I found of yours
The messages
Old perfumes
Earrings
The last box of your favorite mac and cheese
So many holes to leap over
And I'm afraid my only option is
Falling
203 · Oct 2018
Fall
Brandon Cotter Oct 2018
In   the eyes of a wandering love
A   shadow cast upon you with just a
Glimpse   of the magic I fall for you
Of   all the moments shared together
Time   cannot grant me enough
So   I will carry your brittle heart
Small,   yet a miracle of beautiful grandeur
We   overlap as dark purples on the canvas
Fall   into one anothers arms at will
In   such a small world, we found love
Love   in the deepest sense of all that is
201 · Nov 2017
Embrace
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
Whispers in the silence
Like tears amongst the violence
I trusted you with my life
And you went and unleashed the tyrants

Spewing lies to my face
Like morbid acid and mace
You gutted me with your knife
And spread me open for deaths embrace

And now here I am alone
Wishing you'd just pick up the phone
Even if we quarrel and strife
I'd take the latter if it wern' t for the stone

Encased around my dreams
The ones where nothing is as it seems
Where we're husband and wife
Yet I burst awake in the screams

Just wishing you were here to hold
Until we both grow pale and old
Even if disease should run rife
We'll keep eachother warm in the cold
198 · Nov 2017
Sightless wander
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
Mindless sparks of your pheromone
Erupt emotions hidden deep and dark
Of my hollow graves
As if my thoughts wonder about
Leashed to a core
Wandering eons in search
Of the more
Or less
Growing upon these limbs
Of a dying tree
We grow to a future of the unknown
As clades of mankind's debacle
Fighting for a single chance
Just to love
Or be loved
In this dreary frightening world
We call home
197 · Nov 2017
A piece of you
Brandon Cotter Nov 2017
Like pulling bark from a tree
You tug at my mind
Separating eventually
From the tall aging oak
Standing here alone
With a piece of you
That I know will eventually die
191 · Oct 2020
Rae
Brandon Cotter Oct 2020
Rae
Along the moss covered stone we walk
In harmonious clatter of the hills
As stark chills sweep our way
Our skin is like fog along the roaring river
Gently skimming on our clammy existence
Simply clumps of flesh wandering
Enveloped by these jagged hills we roam
As the salty meat of an oyster
Surrounded and encased by the hardness

Hold me close darling
As we forage this cold world together
Besides the monumentous red wood
Sharing hands with the earth we skip
Like pepples across the water
Yearning for somewhere new to grow
New to learn and love
May we dance in the foliage
Of the forests of our hapiness
And spend eternity like the open meadow
We both sprouted from long ago
191 · May 2021
Whimsical Whisper
Brandon Cotter May 2021
Why is it I feel you on the coldest days
As the sun cowards behind the clouds
La de da da
Ballads of rain shower the earth
And scars swell at the thought of healing
La de da da
As the darkness dances around me
You sing at the sight of my falters
La de da da
Breaking me down for the last time
As I struggle for a grasp on what's left
La de da da
My only hope is to someday recover
And survive long enough to forget you
183 · Mar 2019
Farewell
Brandon Cotter Mar 2019
When the stars undying light reaches you
I hope it scathes and scratches the skin
Tearing you down to your soul
And if our cold moon crashes to earth
May it shatter what feeling you have left
If any is left to consume

Beyond your existence
I wish nothing more of you to come
And this prancing version of you
In my head
To die along with my dreams
For your being sickens me to suicide
And I might just do it
To say goodbye to you once and for all
180 · Feb 2021
Gone
Brandon Cotter Feb 2021
I act as though I'm tough as nails
Forget what words the ignorant wails
How I know you gave things your best
Much more then I got from the rest
I just hope you can forgive my mistakes
Really, any sort of look my way is all it takes
Needed you so bad I would stay up and cry
You were my everything, an excuse not to die
173 · Jan 2022
Peeling
Brandon Cotter Jan 2022
Self mutilation at simmering dawn
With no remorse for what tomorrow brings
Now you lay there
Gutted in the middle of your life
Wondering how the ******* got here
With that shovel still in hand
It's easy to blame those who watch
So take your eyes from your sockets
Catch a glimpse of the blood
As it pours from your existence
Maybe now you can learn to cherish
This fragile slimey brain of yours
And stop smearing it on pavement
I hate you
For you lack of compassion for me
And unforgiving choices
Please kindly let go of the steering wheel
So I can verge away from the median
Into this whimsical bubble bath called life
165 · May 2022
RED
Brandon Cotter May 2022
RED
It dawned on me the other day
Your fingers swept my palm
I knew what I wanted to say
And I tried to stay calm
Your left dimple sprung alive
As we carelessly got in the car
Is was supposed to be a quick drive
And now your melted to the tar
I should have said no to the beer
And noticed the roads were wet
Now my reality is my worst fear
And my cherished love is just a regret
156 · Jan 2020
Of dusk and eternity
Brandon Cotter Jan 2020
Hello my love
My ember nestled beneath the sand
Of a brisk hollow night
As billions of stars pierce our gaze
Temping us of the heat we may never bathe in
A ploy gesture to continue on
Waiting on this frozen beach
With a spectacle of sand made of glass

You began to pulsate
Radiating your waves of warmth towards me
And like the ***** of a knife I noticed you
Of the seas of blue sadness
You frothed crimson from your veins
Spewing with rage from every pore
Of every tiny sliver of existence
You called my name

Through my watering eyes of fear
Your fire burned through every hope of escape
My vision blurred red as if my eyes began bleeding
Being dragged towards you
Like a vile corpse to the grave

Of all my strength I take one last look at the stars
A turquoise velvet blanket covered in gems
Shimmer to the fate of my existence
And that of my cold brittle heart

Merely at hands grasp and I could feel you
Every croaking notch of burning fire
Your slithering magma oozed for my heart
I awaited the agony promised of Gods
And the end of my minuscule miserable existence

A moment had passed
That of which I could still feel the breeze
And droplets of blue given to me by the sea
As yet another moment passes
As confusion emanates with your warmth

Your hands of burning coal melt my frozen heart
Running a river of warmth to my soul
As cascades overflow my emotions
I lay adrift Not in blood
But of love

Every stroke of your burning passion heals me
Soothing wounds I never thought could be closed
I lust of every splendor you grant me
Your barrage of molten touch has lifted me from the depths
Of the darkest of deepest of oceans
Have me now and forever So that I may die blistering
Alongside you
And your everlasting inferno of love
126 · Jul 2020
Go
Brandon Cotter Jul 2020
Go
my left hand quivers as the right extends
reaching out for you knowing its the end
brushed aside by your cold slap
I reach again but am met with a slap
my face felt the pain but my heart aches
like fissures gouging cracks in lakes
I stand stunned yet want to hold you
as you walk away and say that we're through
you get no more than ten feet from me
I hope you feel safe because now I'm comfy
pointing my gun at your back
all that's heard is the crack
as you fall dead into the soft leaves
and I blow my brains to smithereens

— The End —