water won't hold
all my sorrow
salty tears
all my grief

I really just don't like alot of things
I don't even like myself

Slicing deep
Cutting down
To the bone
To a heart all alone
Softer than rock
Colder than stone
A painful death to atone

No accident
Its on purpose
I need the pain to distract
I don't want to look back

for though you my dearest friend
speak in riddles of ages long past
and talk in the tongues of angels
I do understand your ways

you my closest companion
have lived with me in my heart
through all these years and journeys
so many uncounted days

ever we dance under the sun
like branches we humbly bow
before the thrones of the stars
to please the moon, in her waking

a hushed whisper of wind
breathes into our very souls
a fire lighting a candle
a beautiful spirit in it's making

we don't need wings to fly
just feet to dance the earth
where it ever to shrivel up
become a husk and fade away

we would still dance
it's memory into the cosmos
set it in stone forever
never to crack or chip like clay

I could never be better
and always be worse
I just want to dance with you
with you until I die

to be your waltz
and the beat in your heart
the melody you play
when you start to cry

when you long for amnesia
because you can't stand
can't stand to remember
I will be the love in your eyes

the dead, the sweetest stars
inside of your broken mind
don't worry my friend
I will sing you back alive

streets aren't made for everybody
that's why they built sidewalks
you don't have to like it
just move to the right

this isn't world is for everybody
but don't you dare leave
if you don't like it
just cry through the night

what inspired me in the beginning
what were you words?
I didn't have to hear them
they just had to be felt

it's not how you talk
or what you chose to wear
it's what you have inside
no matter how it's spelt

what matters will last
no matter what the cost
days and nights you know
but this life is to fast

we live for today
you dance in the present
it' about us, in the now
not about the past

the half of you on the inside
trying to break out
break out of the bars
without the keys

sustainable on your love
always enough, just keep me high
on your level I stay there
never on my knees

though I pray as I dance
and take every chance
to know you more
please let me in

though we fight many battles
and win many wars
don't question the past
of where I've been

I live in my casket
and I died on your lips
but I would dance the world
for just one kiss

I lose all that I hold most dear
So I dare not even touch you

Drugged by smoke
Blinded my light
Frozen in silence through the night
Wreathed in shadows
Coated in blood
Hiding the secrets
Serving the dark one

when you cry yourself to sleep
because you don't know what else to do
when you cry yourself to sleep
just to make it through

when tears are your rocks
and cheeks your cliff
and you run over the edge
into the abyss

when you cry yourself to sleep
in the dark of night
when you cry yourself to sleep
with not a soul in sight

when dreams are your ship
and your body an anchor
lost in the water
drowning in danger

Sometimes I am on capable of knowing one thing
And that is enough to sustain me
I cling to the fact of love
And the abundance I have for you
My heart shall contain no other
For to you it shall belong
As deep as the dark of the night
And as bright as the light of the sun
As lengthy as desires of my heart
Will I continue to love you
And only you
Darling

I'm sick and lonely
I need your love
I'm tired and cold
I need your touch
I want more
I need more
Its you darling I adore

I wait
to be discovered
like the sun
chases the horizon


I breathe
in the morning air
and the crispness
of its kiss

I let go
of the night
and its darkness
and rise into today

My mind had gone to death
And soon the rest of me shall follow

there is truth in all things
even lies
the truth is not the lie
it is in the lie
if you look for it

I am pretty like one drop of pure water
in an ocean of salt water

I am different, but you can't see me
amongst so many parched souls

Self care is a gift
To your future self

the depth of the chasm is deep, put the perception is not yet wide

I just want everything to be okay

I tell myself I am
Such things are so
And others naught
We dream up dreams
Dream up lies
Such and so, are we caught
Fiendish thoughts
To guide friendly hands
Intentions lacking intuition
Thoughts that scream
Out of finger and hand
Pushed into remission

I hear them now
I know the call
Of the Ones who wish me to fall
I stand up tall
I stand up proud
I call back to them, voice raised loud
I believe in something
I know it is real
But they don't know anything they don't even feel
I voices in my head
I know they will answer
But will I choose to listen to them
I don't know what will happen next
I just want my own destiny
A chance to believe
And a chance to be free