six of the crows
danced for me today
which is strange
I remember
that their were seven
that visited me yesterday
dancing on the roof
that is how it goes
seven crows past
six in the present
I can accept that

float me down the river
tie me in a tree
string me along
it doesn't matter to me

drown me in your depths
put me in a cage
bind me to the earth
I will not fight your rage

I am much to broken
and in to many parts
for you ever to find
the rest of my heart

so please take me with you
wherever you may go
so I never have to question
what I do and do not know

I torture myself daily
with this tantalizing word
my heart screams out
but it is never heard

just leave me here in chains
lay me upon the rocks
and if the waves claim me
they will shatter the locks

we could never dance
for I can barely walk
my heart is closed
my mouth no longer will talk

your eyes are a beautiful window
so much joy they hold
they spark with energy
and rivers of gold

mine are much to dark
with such deep misery
they are slammed doors
they keep me from being free

down the stairs I would run
I am not sound of mind
this humble smile quivers
and breaks all that is divined

I need a good something
to have in my day
but all good somethings
soon fly away

they go south
and run from the cold
the ice in my hands
they do not like to hold

never have I needed
anyone more than now
I try to make you stay
but I know not how

so let me go
I will wander into the waves
sink to the bottom
and die in the caves

I will be a mermaid
in my last hour
and spend my last breath
in the coolness of a spring shower

the fish will eat my fingers
and I will be at rest
for in the world
I know not, good, better or best

I need the noise
I want the blood
The fire must burn
The rapids must rage
And rewrite the story of a forgotten age

The battle must be won
Things that cannot be undone
The trumpets will sound
The call shall be made
To give life for life, a fair trade

The demons will scream
The people will fight
Never knowing what choice is right

The angels will stand watch
A shooting star to catch
A flame to douse
And a sun to rise
Through painful barren golden eyes

the cold fills my veins
as if to drive me insane
just one single drop
it flows as if never to stop
freeze the whole world in a day
nothing, the statues will say
a choice to chose all my own
to make the world as hard as stone
gentle breezes to remind
of the world I left behind
will flow never again
the world of angels and of men
razed to the ground below
the people will never know
a rebuke of infinite nature
never before a choice so major
endless lies and shorter lives
to kiss the past into goodbyes
one last look over the abyss
do you wonder what we'll miss

you stole my heart
and then tried to help me find it

today will be the last day that I breathe
my lungs will shrivel
and I will fade
into the stars I so love

today will be the last day that I dance
my feet will snap
and I will fall
into the earth I so love

today will be the last day that I sing
my heart will break
and I will mutely cry
into the wind I so love

today will be the last day that I dream
my mind will crack
and I will slip
into the night I so love

today will be the last day that I speak
my lips will crumble
and I will drop
into the ocean I so love

today will be last day that I write
my fingers will cramp
and I will let go
into the words I so love

The Liar
He whispers
Through the seams of my pillow
With his rasping voice
Like taught threads

The anxiousness
Beads on my forehead
And prayers
Slip through my teeth
Like water
Through a clenched fist

The Liar
He says to my dreams
That he will be with me
Like a woman
Who lays beside you
While the sun passes
On into tomorrow's light

His whispers
Are crystals
Of salt and sand
It fills my mind
Such as hollow spaces
Are meant to hold
Like a mother her child
In the days of its youth

Clutch as I could
To days that stretch
Into weeks and wonder
Rather than these moments
A fleeting feather
Falling, fallen, lost in fields

My soul a sunflower
Wilted in time
The Liar
He comes to me
Plucks a petal
pick away
He picks again
Dry and husky
Like a voice worn
By years of smoke
And tobacco kisses
Plucking still
Am I a field?

The Liar
He wraps
His hands around my throat
The Liar
He walks
Between worlds
Fingers hooked
In the heel of my shoe
He is my shadow
Though not the same
Petals and promises

The Liar he takes
What cannot be given
Thoughts never spoken
Before they are plucked
From my tongue
Still curled behind my teeth

Life is great, until I take my earbuds out

the curtains were blue
the walls were green
the nights were long
and it is a sad song

You were your own special motion
Putting things in my head, every notion
Every thought I couldn't trust as my own
It was easier though, than thinking alone

Words as deep as and endless ocean
But felt so strong like an explosion
I couldn't tell you why, or the effect
For all the best things happen, while the world slept

Could you catch me in the stars at night?
Would you hold me close until the light?
Every dream woven into intricate moments
So delicate that you are afraid to hold it

The suspense breathtaking in its own beauty
A choice; torn between duty and duty
To love one master and hate another
Like a child will obey it's mother

Words like footprints on an endless shore
A beat in my head, but I don't know what for
You know, even if you don't know how to understand
Do all your words come out the way you planned?

So sharp, yet bitter sweet in my mouth
Like a compass that can only point south
Your eyes a dark shadow on me
Following every fall and flutter, yet still fine

The smoke so thick I could float away
You pulled me to earth and made me stay
Try to go as far away as my broken bones could fly
But I soon saw that this was no sky

Just and illusion of a desperate prisoner
Still struggling, but the key was to be a listener
Small words and tighter breaths out of a loveless lung
Like a bird in the street that has already sung

Would it be enough to have it all, for you?
I could if all up for you, if only you knew
Don't leave any little piece of me behind
Because the littles parts are the hardest to find

I would wish to be kind, but I'd be no longer
Be me, I'd be a shadow, no stronger
I live not to please or be pleased in this life
Only to leave deep impact like a knife

To live in your heart and never be alone
To be still and strong like a stone
To never give up, but never move on
To simply know, it was me all along

A screen stands between us
Thin enough to break
I don't know how much more
My beloved can take

Some is real some is fake
I have to wait, for your sake

A thin veil and a curtain
It hides you from my touch
But the separation
Is to much

Part is wet part is dry
Some is truth the rest is lie

The other side is silent cold and still
This side is frozen by a witches will

You all think mental health is quirky
Until
You cry yourself to sleep every night