I am a male.
I am straight,
like many males.
But,
I have desires.
I want to be lusted for..
I want to be wanted.
I want to be loved.
I want to feel like someone would die for me at the drop of a hat.
I ask myself.
Is that okay to feel?
Is it okay for me to want people to love me?
Is that selfish?
Because it seems like i do all of these for others,
but they don't for me.
What is it?
What did I do?
Why am I not worth your admiration?
Do I deserve this?
Do I deserve the constant shunning?
Isn't that why I write?
Isn't that why I shall be in silence?
Is it bad to want someone to have a crush on me?
To want to know me.
Or does it show all that i have lived without...

First I said it wrong,
Ending up with such a bad day,
Everything's confusing, weird, never alluring
Love is weird,
Such a bother, it is
Blood spills, not just for life
And not just for death
Dearly it became,
My relative's dismay,
Array, towards yander,
Nothing is never the same,
Feels, Bad, Man.