"whati" poems
deephate
lossand anguish
it all mixesinto onelargemess
somewords dont eventouch thisfeeling
myeyes areallout of tears and hanghalfclosed
or is it halfopen to you whofeel
myheart—does itevenbeat
hard totell
youcant know
whati befeeling
howcan you foolsunderstand
youwant tohelp then LEAVEMEALONE
theresnothing youcando
tosave mefromthis
pit
of
des-
pair
ilike theblack
ofthis smallroom
iusedto likepink
iwanted
tobe
apretty princess
andlive inacastle witha
kingso kind
butdreams dont
cometrue
learnthisnow
youfools
dreams
are
like
pa-
per
burningin
theFLAMES
OFHELL
just
like
me
.
.
.
.
do
not
give up
myChild
I still loveyou
myChild
youvegone farther
than
rockbottom
butlisten
to
Me
listen
listenlisten
toMe
.
.
.
.
I
THOUGHT
I GOTRIDOF
YOU
HOWDARE YOU
COMEINTO
THIS
SOULOFMINE
LEAVEHER
ALONE
you are
so
alone
myfriend
cantyousee
noonecares about
you
theylie
when theysay
dothose fools
listentomee
tome
listen
to
me
.
.
.
.
thischaos
inside
icannotcontrol
itatall
iwantto
SCREAMAND
SHOUTbut
icant
i wantto
crybut icant
letgo
of
me
setme
FREE
p
l
e
a
s
e
.
.
.
.
up
uplook
upMy
Child
iamnot faraway
letyourheart
beat
beat
beat
again
takemy hand
myChild
iwill
neverleave
younor forsake
you myChild
istill
love
you
.
.
.
.
is
that
alight
itsbeenso
dark for solong
imnot evensure what
lightlooks like
do i dareto hope
dare tolook
up
up
up
.
.
.
.
YOU
FOOL
thereis nolight
light doesnot exist
ithought youwould have
LEARNEDTHIS BY NOW
theonly waytogo is
down
down
down
.
.
.
.
here
iam
myChild
here i am
take my
hand
please dontlook
down
dontlook
down
i
still
loveyou
myChild
ido
i
do
.
.
.
.
i
cant
lookdown
doi darelook up
amieven worthit
thelight
is
faint
butican
see
it
clear
as day
.
.
.
.
NO
YOUFOOL
you arenot worthy
you cannot hope
donteven try
hope
is
frail
youcant
trust
hope
.
.
.
.
i
surprise
myself
istill
look up
ithink maybe
there is a littlehope
maybethere
is a little
hope
.
.
.
.
yes
myChild
there is hope
still look up and see
the light gets
bigger
warmer
see me here
I still love
you
myChild
I still love you
.
.
.
.
NO YOU FOOL
no you fool
no
you
fool
.
.
.
.
the
light
is warm
the light is
bright
i
like
the light
i like
the
light
.
.
.
.
no
dont leaveme
here alone
listen to me
one last
time
.
.
.
.
LEAVE
MYCHILD ALONE
myChild
you are
safe
here in
the
light
you are safe
here in the light
i still love you.
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 11:01 AM UTC
Starting to focus.
Using another's strength.
Converting a wrinkle's shadow into presence.
I'm noticed.
More so as working watches.
This familiar city closes my eyes.
Time is now kinder and kinder.
Close your eyes beautiful.
You've read every page.
Skipping whatI read most.
I swim in your sleep.
Waking with flushed skin.
Warm and with night's air included.
You ask if I'm dreaming.
With silence, your day begins.
Eyeshadow saved for these soiled days.
The darkness above your eyes, convincing that I am the thief in your purse.
Awake listening to all.
Those before me, coming and going.
And it feels to me, to be the correct way for this.
I am told you have two hearts.
One from before and one in your bed.
Saved for later.
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 9:30 AM UTC
its been along time but all i have is watching your life crumble like a building with pretty marble.
what do you want me to say. if i don't have any thing to say to your face at all.
these walls fill the room with big glising shadows that just leave a perment scare on the wall.
what do you want me to say to you if all you are nothing but lies to the world.
are you calling me insane or crazy?
cause thats whati have to say to people and all of yu.
Dec 10, 2015
Dec 10, 2015 at 8:10 AM UTC
Starting to focus. Using my mother's strength.
Converting a wrinkle's shadow into presence.
I'm noticed.
More important than working watches.
New York City closes my eyes.
Time is now kinder and kinder.
Close your eyes beautiful.
You've read every page.
Skipping whatI read most.
I swim in your sleep.
Waking with flushed skin.
Warm and with night's air included.
You ask if I'm dreaming.
With silence, your day begins.
Eyeshadow saved for these soiled days.
The darkness above your eyes, convincing that I am the thief in your purse.
Awake listening to all.
Those before me, coming and going.
And it feels to me, to be the correct way for this.
I am told you have two hearts.
One from before and one in your bed.
Saved for later.
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 6:30 AM UTC