the mood, set by cheap christmas lights,
is somber.
the sun will rise soon, saying goodbye
to another sleepless night filled with
half-hearted attempts at productivity.
words blare into ears through tiny buds and wires.
the darkness, now, feels permanent.
this is the way i like it: dark
and somber.
when the sun rises obligations and responsibilities resume.
apathy consumes me
fills me to the core.
for now, out the window, little dots of light illuminate
few details in the blackness.
only outlines of leafless trees are seen
highlighted by squares of brightness from windows.
i prefer the way the darkness feels
it is not unfriendly as it wraps me up
in its blanket of indigo
lovingly, it caresses me,
holding me tight
as I sit, gazing outside.
the mood, set by cheap christmas lights,
is confused.
what i want is undeterminable.
but, in the dark it does not matter.
daylight comes soon
and with it
all of my nightmares.
