things have been different lately
and here i am hoping
for things to go back the way they were
all i've been doing is wait for you
and wonder what you're up to

i try to understand you
with your excuses and all
you say i'm over thinkning
but i think it's just too much

you were never like that
and things seem to be going downhill
sometimes i think this will pass
but i also think this wouldn't last

im tired of feeling lonely
even with your presence
conversations seem so dead
which upsets me the most

i dont know if this is still right
but i still love you wholeheartedly
our spark that once was there
is now slowly fading away

all u had to do was say something all i had to do wastell you something but in the end we both knew where this was leading the lonely path of someone aint easy to do or take. when i see a post or hear some one say "forever alone" all i think is no no your not forever alone you have falmily friends and someone to go to and talk to but for those that dont have the luxury or have that feeling to go to someone is like the pericing your heart and making a hole in it so that it could get bigger and bigger and bigger and when it get to big you keep all inside and than one thing would happen you go with people that you may considers that are friends or amily that you could trust but in the end you cant and you do something that was so reckless and was like wow why did i do that i wasnt thinkning and for doing that it makes that hole get bigger and bigger  and suddenly its so big that you cant even control it and that it you just think that s it all over and you just give up and you may have alot of people to talk to and people to sit by with but in the end theyyre is no one but your self like you in a room or better yet at a party and you come with people but when you enter you dont even know anyone and the people that you came with that you thought you knew was totaaly false and you never knew them what so ever and now your just there staring blanky at them andthey staring back at you and all you do is say nothing and they tell you nothing so what the point of all this time staring you over there and me over here and not making an effort to do so what it all about really ...