"stuckness" poems
My room, the suite, seemed too small.
I felt like I’d been in my room forever.
I’d developed a scratchy sense of stuckness
and a fresh, itchy awareness of dust particles
floating in the stifling, still air that made me
want to stop breathing in so much.
But I didn’t, categorically, have the energy
to get up and focusing seemed like a lot of effort.
I had a big midterm test, first thing this morning
and it laid me to waste, mentally. I think I did well
but it was a feat. Whenever I feel lifeless and weak,
I start to fear I’m coming down with something.
But then, everyone’s tired. The suite seems unnaturally
quiet, as if no one even has the energy to command
our ever-listening AI to play a playlist, so silence
ruled by exhausted default. It’s as if a low-pressure area had
descended to hold off a brush of refreshing ozone and rain.
Could I rouse my posse of symbiotic sort-of siblings
for an outing somewhere - like Toad’s bar - just across the street?
My door was open, so I called out, rather weakly, “Let’s go out!”
Someone, (Lisa sprawled out on the red corduroy couch?)
groaned listlessly from the common area. “My treat!” I updogged.
Five minutes later, it was showers all around. I love a good shower.
A shower’s where I ponder over the big questions, because
answers seem to come quickly there. I imagine I’d be wise
beyond words if I had a house with a waterfall running through it,
like one of those amazing, Frank Loid Wright masterpieces.
.
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Songs for this:
The Duke Is Gone by Chuck Senrick
Cannock Chase by Labi Siffre
Oct 26, 2024
Oct 26, 2024 at 11:27 PM UTC
Weaving a web—yet fragile,
entrapment unseen, a delight.
Mystic dots connect the void,
a shadowed feminine archetype.
So, dark, entangled in
instincts and desire, it walks
through living illusions,
performing the ritual.
A silk gift of flies,
a vibrating dance, the abdomen’s pulse
but what she truly wants?
It's you!
The beloved offering!
The black widow presence,
a thirst that devours itself.
No web remains to protect
only the surreal subconscious,
the stuckness of web-death.
Fatal union: to consume—or be consumed.
Sep 27, 2025
Sep 27, 2025 at 3:39 AM UTC
Sometimes the weight of waiting
Overwhelms me down to despair
When the world is moving so fast
My waiting feels like wasting time
When the winter season lingers long
When dry, decay, death dance dread
My soul becomes weary wanting out
When questions remain unanswered
Inviting more pain, doubt, desolations
Waiting feels like a slow stuckness
When I turn my eyes toward my heart
I notice the yeast rising in the darkness
Slowly, unhurried, directed by stillness
Time is transformed becoming a midwife
No longer the hurried fast train conductor
I settle slowly into an unfamiliar rhythm
Into a divine soul adjusted time
Inviting me to come in step by step
Deeper deeper into the dark night
Only when I surrender to waiting
Only then I see the distant light
Sep 17, 2020
Sep 17, 2020 at 7:50 AM UTC
Float me away
On a pile of flying leaches
Dissolve my edges
With acid made of clouds
The stuckness of my heart
Pulls on my veins
Pumping black tar around my bones
The crickets in my ears
Never shut up
Static attacks my cells
Happiness is just a game.
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 10:05 PM UTC