the fog writhe
approaching near

I try to run
anyhow, blocks of glasses
arose out of nowhere
I'm inside of a building now
standing before rows of windows

out I look
I see something
someone
an unknown figure
I couldn't make what is it
but my heart knows
I hate it

I got alarmed by my fear
the chills are slithering on my skin
It is coming
a lady in white, all torn up, full of dirt
was it soil?
was it blood?
messy long hair as dark as the night without the moonlight
bloodless pale skin
bloodshot sickly looking eyes

give me mercy
I really don't like this
I must get out of here
I must!

I tripped myself
I fell on my face
I try to get up but I failed
my body feels so heavy
so burdened
there's something above me
it's the woman
I know it's her
she sits on my back
I could feel her eyes
scanning through me
I could feel she
brushes her cold hands on my back
they're on my shoulders now
and then on my neck
to quelch it
she wants to **** me!

I close my eyes as tight as I could
I'm so scared
I'm ******* do
I try to scream
but no voice was out
it could not even pass through my lungs
only dry air escapes
only I could hear my voice
echoed in my own head
my neck got stiffened
I started to get panic

hell no!
I don't need panic attack right now
thanks!
breathe, I tell myself
it's not real
the woman is not real

keep fighting
move your limbs
kick my legs
grab on my mattress
I blink my eyes
forcing them to open
I have to wake up!

the lights from the wall
peeking through my lashes
my muscles had relaxed
my body feels light now
no longer heavy
I sat up
my heart raced

I search through my bag
took my pill
I overthrown my blanket
trying to go back to sleep
reciting prayer in my head
hoping to not encounter
the uninvited visitor
again

I have watched myself slowly decay
It burns inside of me to recognize the hurt
Trying so hard to make it pass a day
And toss the struggles back into the earth
I have tormented myself for years
Wondering why I am the way I am
Some things make sense, others aren't clear
Am I doing the best I can
Some days it isn't that hard
Other days I just want to die
I know when I have taken it too far
And the flames inward explodes my life
I run to quelch the toxicity in my head
But I am the one who has put it there
Moreover, I'll be the one ending up dead
If I no longer care
I must find the power to cultivate my existence
But how do I make it take form
Sometimes life doesn't make sense
It's been that way since I've been born
Heaven knows I haven't done life right
But thank God he doesn't take score
I hope in the sunshine, deny the darkness at night
open up my mind like opening a door
And let the demons out