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Terrifying are the attent sleek thrushes on the lawn,
More coiled steel than living - a poised
Dark deadly eye, those delicate legs
Triggered to stirrings beyond sense - with a start, a bounce,
a stab
Overtake the instant and drag out some writhing thing.
No indolent procrastinations and no yawning states,
No sighs or head-scratchings. Nothing but bounce and stab
And a ravening second.

Is it their single-mind-sized skulls, or a trained
Body, or genius, or a nestful of brats
Gives their days this bullet and automatic
Purpose? Mozart's brain had it, and the shark's mouth
That hungers down the blood-smell even to a leak of its own
Side and devouring of itself: efficiency which
Strikes too streamlined for any doubt to pluck at it
Or obstruction deflect.

With a man it is otherwise. Heroisms on horseback,
Outstripping his desk-diary at a broad desk,
Carving at a tiny ivory ornament
For years: his act worships itself - while for him,
Though he bends to be blent in the prayer, how loud and
above what
Furious spaces of fire do the distracting devils
**** and hosannah, under what wilderness
Of black silent waters weep.
Mateuš Conrad Jun 2020
pop culture... yeah... that yawn...
borrowed from the t.v....

   belle delphine... makes a comeback:
                                                       ­    i'm back...

       i must be a real riddle...
                                              though...­

      there i was thinking:
sorry... i was on auto-pilot...
i started to think of...

                harley quinn -
ava max - sweet but a ******...

trouble: i know what a tease
of regret looks like...
i also know what...
a make-shift...
nazgul harem of bulgarian
looks like... too...

        a tease of regret:
a former girlfriend...
striptease of a follow-up
narrative...
very nice... oh oh so nice!

but this one is clearly not beyond:
being a push-over...
belle delphine is no harley quinn:
i.e. ******* seriously sober...
**** your entranced: drunk...
******* sober overtly sober twice...

but... for the bathwater...
and... no...
i am the omega man...
on the list... of... allowed...
men... to *****...
into a genocide tissue
of... banking on genes:
without a ****-up
mother and father sort of
narrative...

         for the drunk:
the sobering whirlwind of reality...
because when rich people
like... should... i... inject...
myself... with some... broown show-gar?!

like i once asked an aesthetician:
i guess in reverse...
i was put under the scalpel and:
the selfless dictum of medicine...
he asked me: what books?
i asked him: quo vadis?

                i thereby managed
to burn the bookmark...
who was sane enough to salvage
the book i was reading?

    clued in on the: beside the brothel
antics...
   this clearly aesthetic girl...
this money making
crazy wheel this buttocks of
supra-roulette...
   when man and death...
the trough... the rhine valley
of trenches and brick-making
tactics for the ***** pederasts
on top...
those cherries those readily...
and thereby... easily...
cusps of iced cream...

                prostitutes speaking...
their gimp and limp-sidekick...
hard-on...       "procrastinations"...
to rhyme to rap...
by the way it looks like:
to rhyme is to rap:
to rap is to rhyme:
  
cookie dough oh oh *******...
and crisp-et... cookie ok: dunking...
slippery and swoon... and sweat...
   boy george fickle...
somehow browning... and none of that...
best dead before:
there was ever a best before date...

and then....
                      MA-GI-C!

playing a game of caesar's thumb:
      versed... in pollice verso?
          how do you play a game of
caesar's thumb?

oh... well... you will require a female maine ****
cat... and some... adamant moth...
the game works... like:
you proving to the beast:
you are not... toying with the moth...
the moth is a lesser creature
to both of you...

how does one play a game of caesar's thumb?
when one only has...
an agitated moth to catch once in a while...
and a maine **** cat:
to give attention to...
with a clenched fist:
with the entombed moth trying
to wriggle its way with
a fluttering of the wings...

   there's also that female
mosquito...
clenched onto by a pinch involving
one of her leg-work limbs...
and being a female...
she pulled and tugged and made
a "dialectic" of the verbs associated
with that limb extension...
a male maine **** cat would
have made a feast of her...
like he would of the cobwebs...

she escaped with 5 legs... to her original 6...
but a month...
i can't disfigure...
too quick for the lassy...
i held the moth in my clenched
fist like a rattle of fluttering
wings teasing...
not enough...
top bored from having
the impossible catch of the night...

the moth always remains: intact...
alive...
either cat catches the moth...
or leaves ones bedroom:
with a blooming gloom
of boredome....

but that's how to keep intact
a "sanity"...
a visit to the brothel...
becomes... a typo-
       for a shop only butchers are only
allowed to... inhabit...
    the sentencing of meat...
the clarity of heaving a life
of a moth in one's clenched fist:
and there's a thirst...
of the fist: to draw that lost samble
of: the begrudged familiarity
of language: and given that...
it's all in 21st century crude / rudimentary...
and rhyme...
            
       no caged beacon of the heavens...
of a lost circumvent...
caged lottery of the rhyme
of being perpetually caged...
       for the loot of **** and cockrel loitering...
like: morn is the cry to whine!

a game of caesar's thumb...
there was once a clenched fist: and a thirst for
blood...
now... a maine **** she, cat...
and a moth... fluttering...
like... an agitated petal-wing-and-rose...
too many "bored"
marihuana junkies stalking these
english streets come twilight...
one almost bumped into...

agitated by my poker facing
the already agitating grey-ish...
by the number...
by the number:
                   what-what of...
if he be not the king george:
having to give up h'america...
then he's no helen mirren...

          a game of caesar's thumb:
any and if all be owned:
that antithesis of a game of chess...
a game of both
kings and paupers...
3D dynamic: and madmen!

"revision": belle delphine...
cold... hearted... capitalist at... brain-sizzle...
but... gravitating toward
two outlets of fiction....
   belle delphine ≠ harley quinn...
a little ******... oh so hot...
hot tender me oh my ***:
posion the daisy...
poison rose should... a rose be all
the more... already... poisoned...

a visit to the brothel:
a visit to the butcher shop:
for the cho- chop and chopping assurances...
the crooked crown on an already
crooked head...
the statue of charles II
in soho sq....
        
              i most certainly paid for much
less than this ****-tenure-of-a-tease....
but then... to have an argument...
you'd need to mingle with a bunch
of thieves... murdering slob-gatherers
of phlegm...

            poisoned red-bunch of
a wholly rosed-up affairs of loiter...
and time: such a prized dead-end of
eventuality...

            the father the god:
the sacrificial lamb...
because... god forbid she was
ever to somehow burden
a deity with a: one first...
once and a daughter...

                  ****** fun-fair for
the riddled ghosts...
       blank shot shrapnel...
                     better suited...
midnight blue of the alias black...
then at least:
best... towing two gaylords
with everyone's bet on
typo and a bullseye!

   but never... the sensibly...
      hetrosexual normative...
goody twice-tied...
shoe-and-shine:
pwetty: that girl and:
you best forget to whine!
that girl and you'd wish...
            her father was a shtalin....
because...
crude and rude...
and all that's ****...
before Lucifer peeks with
a... siamese cranium...
              
      death to all...
who have made it concise...
in making life:
hardly... a... pardon....

  yes... best equipped it making it:
magic! and all the more difficult...
but never difficult enough...
difficult enough...
when... somehow... never... citing...
an... albert fish...
needle in my pelvis...
to... exfoliate... with any...
and more... addition of...
pain as an... ******...

      i guess the plead of the shawshank
sisters drops...
it always drops...
when there's a "conflation"
of evidence...
surrounding... the lower-base...
extremity: the crab genus...
       crustaceans....
    child- this-and-that...
       ****-fiddler...
             but a cannibal to boot?!
you... talk...
or simply... electrocute said:
individual...
since... your... ******* 'ed...
is already fried by the magic
of norm-frequence...
and the already: herd... estasblished...
Norman?
you with me...
sptunik jimmy...
               you with me... cream-soda joe?
you with me...
finding aliens already bigger
than flies... the widow mantis...
blessed joseph josephine?!
*******-numb-wit?!

oh yes! all conession: avowed
to you!
               because...
who isn't...
      in russia... they vowed
to keep these cain canine brood phlegm
of an *******: freely to roam...
siberia... that was the promise...

when they would **** a birth-firvolity
of a: devil and the "by chance"...
when converting man to
the stature of elevating wolf or bear...
and all the better...
rather than... caging the odd-ball
parody of... lacklustre joke and...
moth-ball-rolling...
****-wits the: future!
supposed! narrative!
******'-h'america...
              celebrated feature of culture
most involving... a horror...
      and... bull-wrapping!
               a ******* for a skinning!
Pickled on quixotic tonics
he strives for a polyglot's poise,
balancing plaster peas
at the end of his tippler's tongue.

But the rough-surfaced pearls prickle
his too-ticklish bed of pink,
and gulped down, he administers
only a lessoned indigestion.

Flipping the flop, he prevaricates
himself into the tight-fit corners
of a parallelogram traced
by unsolemn processionals

bedecked in platitudinous finery.
Their porous smirks drip sticky
reminders of a plethora
of previously pernicious exercises

and dampen his fluffy ambition,
prodding procrastinations until
his drunken promise dries out
to become a posthumous wish.
This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 License.
Rickie Louis Jan 2012
It's two am, and here again, I'm lying wide awake.
Procrastinations all to blame, for granted life's at stake.
Like binding chains, that freely hang, nor keeping me tied down.
It's motivation that's not here, it never has been found.
Anxiously I pace around, I chase illusive sleep.
Initiative is all to give, but restlessness I keep.
Repeatedly I ask myself, when will it all change, will I finally shed these chains, to keep me from the same?
I close my eyes and fall to sleep at two am agian, with promises upon myself to find that new begin.
Another midnight revelation shedding light my way, giving me precise direction, lost each waking day.
Drifton A Way Feb 2013
Should I care less or should I care more
Is she a princess or is she a filthy *****
She swears she"s never done this before
As her clothes are spread upon the floor

You need to get your priorities straight and settle on a career
Stare at the wall and sing along as you drink your 98th beer
Continue to stall, it's the same old song again stuck in your ear
Resolutions fall as we all collectively clamor for the next year

Procrastinations penetrate my existence like a freshly sharpened blade
Distractions claim me with persistence as another flight gets delayed
Obligations infiltrate my resistance like an enemy army would invade
Aspirations of rainy day"s assistance to cancel the meaningless parade

Entangled lies leading to this ever complex web that we all weave
What and whys bleeding into the conversational goal to deceive
Wide open eyes shocked into truth on his first real Christmas Eve
Someone dies every .9 seconds yet we still lack the will to believe
lota nwankwo Aug 2014
Who knew, who knew I would end up in pain
Who knew I would lose my way and go insane
My heart beating so many times in fear
I try to cry, I force myself, what do I see - not a tear
I stare at myself in the mirror thinking what could have made me differ
What make me special, I'm I worth less of trillions of dollars or more
I try to make changes and life decisions
I tell myself to think and presume - presumptions
Life can be what you want it to be in the future I guess
Sometimes I look back to the past and think about the rest
Who knew, who knew my first sentence in a poem would be who knew
Maybe I did, who knew my first thought would be regret
I look at my past and now, I think about the changes, decisions, accusations, moments of empathy and sympathy, and procrastinations that I made
Look at me, all you may see in me is darkness deep deep inside but I know there is a light, all you need to do is  find it with a caring heart
For who I am is who I want to be, I can change
And I can be a better person
All you need to do is believe and give me a chance
Have hope and we could have our first dance
Or even our last
John Flanagan Dec 2016
THE ART OF PROCRASTINATION

I have often wondered, and I have often thought,
That I have often delayed without there being any cause.
I often over think and I often codgitate,
Procrastinating over my procrastinations of the day.

Over thinking needlessly, postponed imagined pain.
Second guessing everything. Oh why must I delay?
I know that it's important so why do I delay?
I know that it's my only chance.
Hold on... I'm running away.

And what will happen if I fail?
Oh and what will people think?
And what if I have got it wrong?
... Maybe I'll rethink.

The point of all this pondering, is to try to tell myself
To never let a moment pass without giving me a chance.

"So what!" If people laugh.
"So what!" If I lay dashed.
At least I'll know within myself that I've given me a chance.

For now I'll live on with regret, every day,
And think about those who seem so far away.
What would have happened & where would I be?
Oh if only I'd...

If only indeed.

John Flanagan 21/11/2016
Tired of thinking about the "what ifs"
nico papayiannis Feb 2016
Politics of power politics of greed, politics we don't really need
Words with no meaning, words of war, words to exasperate all the wrongs of before
Men in bowler hats from higher degrees of education, Suffragettes in suits with their posh procrastinations
Radicalised preachers disguised as primary school teachers, morals and values that have no worth, morals and values to discolour our earth
Politicians with a fame fascination, politicians on their own inert instruction
Politics of verbal constipation, designed in a way you will never comprehend, politics of corruption and manipulation,  politics to make your thoughts unlawfully twist and bend
Politics that so easily steal from a dying hand, politics that allows our old to die where they stand
The politicians expense account, this just helps the animosity amount, our money, our stability our very existence, put to one side and dealt with the utmost of contempt if you offer up any form of resistance
Politics of minorities who the majority doesn't want or need and should rightfully and respectfully be abolished, when you look at our world  our people, and how they suffer, the responsibility lays firmly at their feet for with their megalomaniac ways , our world they have tarnished
I personally do not vote, how can I, when all they do is lie, I'm sure in-between, this cataclysmic scene, someone has the heart, the integrity and honour to want to serve the people of their nation, but I guess , like the rest , they'll accept their payout, sign on a dotted line, and never scream, never shout
I W Jun 2013
God
A hand upon my back
Does push, beyond my pace,
Rare thoughts to mind, and race
My soul; body the track.

From whence does force conjure
Such rude audacity
To ***** and **** at me
With sprigs sharp, long, nasty?

These procrastinations
Do haunt my mortal life,
Like fresh lacerations
From madman wielding knife.

Face pale and drawn, eye's dull,
I give it up and lean
Into that blade in hand
Of god who's eyes do glean,
with thirst and reprimand.
Michael Parish Nov 2018
Joey defrancesco  
Jazzes up  the house flyes
Just "in that order".

Spoons of coffee grounds
Slam my  procrastinations
Some dark thoughts are lost

A "mellow mood" ripens
"Just in that order". Is a jazz chart by Joey defrancesco

Mellow mood" Dr. Lonnie Smith
gus Jan 2019
You
You are brilliant! Amazing!
And so is everyone around you!
People can be a bit”insular”with a personal space,
But at the end of the day what's new?

The world is beautiful, beyond compare,
to the broadest of imaginations,
and a world of light, and love, yes love!
Despite its procrastinations.

Of change I speak, where we all go wow!
All or nothing, double or quits! Clear the air.
We’ve so much to worry about, just as it is?
A dilutive duty to care, yeah.

But we'll crack on regardless you and I,
a penny for a thought in our jar!
Because I thought I'd take the time to remind you,
of just how brilliant and amazing you are.
Mateuš Conrad Aug 2017
you know what a cigarette wound looks likes?
me niether, well, no, i do:
but then again i was talking
to a ghost, today, today, via
a note:
          via suburbia -
so much life & yet so little
potential: so little guaratee:
to be had let alone shared as once
it could be claimed  to have
happened:  the son of
a secondary beggar: i.e. dreamer...
i can't watch you people
commit yourself to an en masse
suicide...
              it's ******* disturbing!
i can't watch your pedantry via
the rule of censor invoked!
   you are disturbing procrastinations!
you're evil, i might as well
call you equal to the *******
terrorists!
                 get away from me,
your army of useful idiots
                    and genuine retards!
you bunch of ****-tards step
a foot into my land...
    i swear to god i'll skin
and then decapitate those insolent
wankers who make an attempt...

            right now?
you're only testing my
patience,
               wait until
the patience runs out...
                   i have you know,
i'm building up gravity to
ensure a pamplona charge...
   oh **** me am i rigid,
oh **** me am i frigid...
    first come the shock-absorbers...
then come the executioners...
you're breeding these monsters to
come!
        i'd love to be among them,
to be honest...
      you are breeding
what christianity bred foremost,
i.e. the nazis...
                    you are breeding
these people,
   gas chambers will feel like
humanitarian aid chambers,
recluse-spots of benevolent justification
for the original travesty...
             thank you, islam,
for breeding, and giving birth
to these northern monkey cannibals;
and if my warning is fake...
         i'll be dead before
the fruition of these words make an
echo, resembled by the cinema
                     match it up with.
gus Jan 2019
Sadistication and its emulation,without mastication
will equal multiplication!  
This frustration without contemplation will have variation
  on devastation!    

A harsh abbreviation yet no dispensation can be given
after creation of devastation!
A simple collation.  

Without diversification of sadistication,
which requires administration.
The vocation of sadistication without animation
may be cause for consternation!

Although the occupation of sadistication
doesn’t mean emulation!

Relation of vocation doesn’t mean cultivation of sadistication for any duration or location for elevation of this abomination!!

But all configurations of populations to avoid
annihilation should suffer declaration of negation.
NO procrastinations!
Sadistications further elevations and diversifications
of annihilations, in all nations!!  All nations!!!
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2018
i once used to frequent museums and galleries... but then i came across forests and graveyards... ancient yard of arts... and then i found the hands of a 2nd sculpture: the nearest i've been to god in terms of seeing a visage... i've already heard what i need to hear: a choir descending in church... give this works a second pair of hands: and call them less weathered: but more moulded by a second attempt: more than a mountain might need a tornado, or the deserts be resurrected into mountain ranges by time! i know, necro-sculptures are certainly not Elgin marbles... but at least when adoring these statues i am not bound to listen to ******* lawsuits about ownership: the dead own them... nor am i sick from the stuffy air of incense of a museum imitating church practices... just the common sickly sweet rot of autumn infuses them... and i know: even if they were made from marble: i'd rather watch them being "revised" in the immediate sense, than have to ascribe a human topor to them, being left so mutilated, without those slight diversions they have kept intact.

wątpliwości obdarują człowieka myślą: wert ein zweite eisenvorhang: früher immunität zu die schwarzplage.

  that is my single most important observation:
did these people, my supposed past
really concern themselves with perfecting
sanitation? the map of the black plague looks:
mighty odd!
      there's that "bit in the middle"
where it's akin to me buying take-away food
  one half a year from the local turk
selling the "speciality" of fish & chips:
i feel ill, i fill gloated, bloated...
    no offense to the turk selling me the food:
i like the idea that turns into a practice
of actually like washing my hands like
a surgeon before cooking the food
i am about to eat: prior giving thanks
to a father about putting saliva than
apples on a table before me...
            it really makes more sense being
able to cook your own food
than taking a short-cut...
     i ******* hate take-away food:
i will bloated like i just ate a puffer-fish
alive...
      i woudln't eat from a restaurant...
and thanks to somone like
Paris Hilton: i'm pretty sure i would
be fine having eaten her pooch munch;
hand on my heart + scout's honour:
i'm sorry...
            i rather cook my own food than
take it easy and visit a restaurant...
       i might ******* in the meantime,
  i might pick-my-nose...
    but at least know that i would be most
likely to wash my hands with bleach...
    i know i will wash my hands
my my proper way...
                 maybe it's the deep-fried staple
of all the good food being in need
of an oil bath:
     but i'll scrub down proper and
have to answer for:
    did i see it proper?
   if it wasn't cooked 4 x 4:
     i guess i can only assert but one
vector, eye, in a menu of paid
compliments.

     - the following extract ought
to be filed under: almost 2 months ago
it made: sense perfecto! -

- there are two strands of thinking,
one by immersion and the other by
"digression" (trans-metaphor,
id est snowball effect that can't be stopped,
colloquial: lack of a better word,
post scriptum bloom spontaneity;
verb-verb complex), the former immerses
itself in quantifiable rigor,
god the non quantifiable, s-
-elf-reductionist inertia of one,
**** qua deus est chimera, alt. **** insapiens.

Prefix proxy, all hyphen additions pre/post;
ars poetica shames itself with rubric & rigour;
poetry as the resurrection of chaos
via versus IKEA poets: who think poetry
requires an academic manual, art (per se)
as the "relaxation" tool of semi-autistic doctors,
hindering 7 pillars a near infinite supply of hues;

science makes the incremental judgement
and yet so many nouns are missing.
Revisionist: the "big" Q (?) - bang, ****,
what's the difference: non vox in vanus.

Modern "philosophers", if not mere spinster
hide behind word-pillars, using if not "refining"
words on their primitive 1st derivative,
one dimensional formality, absolute,
whereby words become crutches, rather than pillars.

Hence the bombast and lack of fineze.
Yet ask the etymological question as to
why a word's zenith must be kept unchallenged,
hence the stressors (in italics) and
hence the subsequent abyss.

Every word can unravel and heed toward
its own history of non-cause,
but a champagne-happenstance.
Look into grammatical complex akin
to verb-verb dichotomy within the nouns *****,
subsequently Madonna.

With a cctv crow perched on my shoulder,
glued to the mono-lingual Arab of
the Riyadh greenhouse perks and demise,
black gold gluttony,
would be muhammedan avatars of the forgotten
celibacy abiding by merely adhan sustenance.
The Arab, jinn or dajjal, or he with one eye
or he with one tongue?

The greatest display of art is geological,
in that eternal marrow of once moulded by hand,
thus given into Eloise (god of wind),
twice the sermon of mourning upon
the weathered faces and rigid genuflex limbs,
penitent gargoyles and saints akin;
not sheltered in museum of last upheaval
cherished by gluttonous suitors
and postcard frozen envy;
grave watchmen of mortality's final dynamo:
procrastinating in idle mourning,
sepia exiled as the currency franca,
moulding by day, harvesting moss by night,
yet still perpetually lullabying a teasing
chance of crux signum of unfolding hands
to butterfly flutter risen; eventually the instilled:
not yet.

Yet they do not belong neither in shadow
or bubblegum paralysis to seize a chance at
grimace before the epileptic paparazzi seizure;
weathered stone, time, scythe in hand,
pads from a master anonymous to a Rodin and then,
rather time & the Chinese five winds,
moulded repentant galore slowly itching away,
pinch by pinch by the irritable constancy
toward a crab gravity:

   what do you call a man who earns a living
from young women? Alfons.
   - and what do you call a man who earns
a living  from old women? Rydzyk.

I take it must be a healthy observation,
for are not graveyards the other,
less pomp and yet more grandiose exemplars
of the kept artefacts?

How few are know in the latter as fabled scribes,
procrastinations of life among dry quills?
No these statues belong here, in the museum of air,
wind and rain, with the hands of the elemental
artist's work ad continuum ex ****.

**** in analogue, home ex analogue contra populis
(while watching pigeons squadron - "x" -
against the stiffening of limbs against ale cold);
with only a pair of eyes to travel, man, alone,
perpetually seeking an alternative avenue:
that perpetual en masse cul de sac tsunami
of all mortal venture: reason vested in the motto:
not asked for: enigma in **, enigma non ex ****
(complexes, systems, traffic);
enigma diem est non carpe
(an enigmatic day is not worth seizing,
since what is best unlived,
is best translated into what ought to be written);

note to don Juan:
had I lived such a bountiful life,
I wouldn't have bothered writing a book,
laying a brick stacked in puzzle upon
a wall would have sufficed;
boorish clausure, inevetible glass of mud,
a riddle Hardy upon Liszt divulged
with feminine weakness:
I'll adore a peacock' s feather in a hat,
prior to and forever through.

believe me when i say:
     i will always trust the turk the barber...
   i will actually trust no other ethnicity
of a man to call himself a *barber

if he isn't the latest ottoman fashion from
Istambul...
      because?
    please! show me the forest for me
to aspire to lumber-jacking hacking
     that imaginary forest into a british library!

i did ask for Königratte: and they sold me:
the soul can never be sold unless in the priesthood...
in defence of Thespians:
             or those who sells their shadows...
i don't know what is worse...
eh: why not face it:
    a polish girl will always prefer
Adam Mickiewicz...
   while the ex pat immigrant polish boy
will always rather cite Julian Tuwim...
   or as the ancient saying goes:

siała baba mak, nie wiedziała jak,
       a tu chłop powiedział: i to było tak...

ihr menschen, wirklich würdig sein
  ein zweite eisenvorhang...

     if i din't know: i wouldn't be asking
you to reply in german for
          me using english grammar...

ł: remains of the trinitarian formula -
on a basis of a t -
      bottom up or bottom down?
      it's becoming a case for inspector clouseau
looking for handwritting
  in such examples.
Mateuš Conrad Aug 2020
i have to most deserverdly like
a frederick seidel poem
when i read it -
        but not... when he reads it...

    some ancient grimmace
of h'america:
   those north eastern states...
mostly maine
and new hampshire...

      because: it's a hidden history
because the vikings came
prior to christopher...
   and the saxon soul will elevate
itself in secret to
this fact than...

          lend itself to follow
from the south with the conquistadors...
robert lowell et al.

         pristine h'america
as if bewildering never a displaced
european...

     i wish there could be something
impossible about a frederick seigel
poem...
  but i don't mind the "privileged" part
when i "know" of his father's
hard grinding knuckles
of owning a coalmine (etc.)

unlike novels and dogma...
a milan kundera essay about either
franz kafka or flaubert...
again proust, who i hope to read
someday...

          here in poetry: the next voice
without a dogmatic clarity
a novel like a tide
    a novel like a sunrise or sunset...
a poem like:
a disemboweled view
of a seaweed comparison...  

          to have children is to find
a new way to be startled...
        to have children is to...
   settle eternal affairs for future and
this... gall bleeding dry into
a frictive **** with pride...
  
  perhaps the pyramids can compete
with a kilimanjaro...
         speke or meru...
           of those long bones fathomed
with crosses and chalices
made from riddled jaws and teeth
like gems...
        
           at some point words cannot
be trusted...
   how many times have i teased
a misnomer - robert pinsky:
big... beeeeeeeeg on misnomers...
   a voice so tender it could
compete with gregory corso's lisp...
but of the latter: with youth! with paris!
anything goes!

unlike a novel: nothing is being
accomplished...
a breath if a lemon could breathe...
it's not the money that bothers me:
with or without it...
the words serve their own delights
and... procrastinations...
and...
        once upon a time: words
at the dentist...

  a woman will visit a tattoo artist
sooner than visit a hair-stylists...
she's sooner buy a wig...
since most women are dis-satisfied with
styling of the hair...
2+ years of "reprieve" from seeing
a barber...

             and then...
     turn around puritan, i.e.:
i never visited a brothel...
         i decided to claim... *** and cleaning
the bathroom...
  an exercise in dead-weight...
but what a comparison...
to emerge: liberty signalling -
   who's who and the abuse did not
extend into KINK...
          so... the barber replaced
the brothel as:                  neuhöhen...

oh if there was some pride
beside the otherwise lazy...
strict... nunnery of rejection and binging
on gym membership and bulimia...
the roman etiquette slim...

what sad times...
    this having to find everything beside
***: liberated from procreation...
the epitome surreal godhead-****-it-all
tentacle extension / plagiarism...
    bring me the brute and the asinine wonder
of the tongue...
i'll hope to turn my ego
into a chisel and retain:
an oyster shell from
a hoarded weathering of:
beginning with "random"...
                         this rock that will
become a replica of shell...
or muscle... or thereby an ingenuity...
of bone;
               a crown from treating
rock into this... hollow bell -
                      the soul an uvula...
the soul a fading / a dying out strobe
epilepsy: PARTY BIG'OH jiggles!

     parking lot delight... who had a son...
and oh the obviousness of
this tired: not -
      
          satan weaver...
                      blue blooded cuts of beef...
for there is no sentiment
concerning pork...
   why oysters are a speciality for the upper-classes
i will never know
given that the pickwick papers made
it sensibly plain: oysters were once...
what you'd make of tender-bits
these days...
   the nuggets of flesh...
god... a pork liver with onions...
a decent semi-broth of poultry hearts
with barley groats... and gherkins...
or poultry stomachs likewise...
                           esp. with barley groats...

i can't imagine why...
muscle is the go to piece of the animal...
the heavily protein skim reading
of the best of: excuses to not be a vegetarian...
the liver... the hearts... the stomachs...
mein gott! pork lungs!

even the feel of the raw product...
for the sauce... a hand filled with
about a dozen chicken hearts...
there is a compensating image...
when you could still feed pigeons
in trafalgar sq.

                 some might say: who...
once upon a time... did...
  good to know... a part of me is still loitering
around a culminating prospect
of... living without extreme!
Mateuš Conrad Jun 2022
the idea that i wasn't going to MILK IT... i.e. the subject
matter is unimaginable:
of course i was!
esp. after inheriting a past where:
a poet's life was more interesting than his outpourings?
who? who not beside Ted Hughes?!
            **** sake's... even John Berryman was having
some proper action...
    like Charles Olson lived through... it was a car crash,
wasn't it?
   at work i was asked what else i do?
oh... i write poetry... ha ha... so you must have it
good with the ladies?
seriously?! does this look like the 20th century?
       yeah... last one tried to accuse me of being drunk
on the job... she tried to undermine my good reputation:
and it was her first shift...
sure... i fancied her... i "*****" myself into her house...
blah blah... ****** way of showing someone you like
them... by... undermining their work-ethos...

no wonder i prefer the clarity of transactions...
                      why bother buying dinner... buying coffee...
buying a cinema ticket, buying an art gallery ticket?
buying into a MAYBE...
**** me... but the certainty... go to an art gallery alone...
given that the girls that do go to art galleries
are too ******* Victorian prune anyway...
they might as well be wearing a ******* NIQAB...

oh well, oh well well well...
i wouldn't prescribe a Christian monotheism on anyone,
maybe that's why i succumb to the pagan
poets more and more and ever more...
maybe monogamy is truly alien to me...
maybe i should own a harem...
            i'm testing the waters... unlike those:
hard-believers in the promises of Islam...
you blow yourself up... you get 72 virgins...
i was always of the persuasion:
either give me 72 prostitutes or 72 rottweilers...
there's no in between...
       i abhor the idea of 72 virgins...
i mean: ever ****** a ******?
    it's like a jaw that non-mandible...
it's like ******* a mannequin...
     it's horrible... ******* a ****** is a bit like
hugging a tree...
     it's horrid... it's un-spec-ta-cu-lar...

            the ******* i just had? it wasn't by my own
design... one of the girls had a...
ugh... i hate American-English... the stress for
acronyms, stemming from U.S.A. -
more like... F.S.A. - federal states of america...
united my ***... united as a cultural export...
the states aren't united... there's a federal gloom
hanging over them...

but this one ***** was having a F.O.M.O.:
fear of missing out...
       i realised it when she was gagging me to ****
her... and i got a limp ****...
because the one i chose had these endearing eyes
like: there's an extra that i don't want to be
present... i smoked a cigarette and i immediately
returned to a pulsating arousal while
i snuggled up to her while she was giving
me a hand-job... having realised:
yes... you need to pull that ******* back...
i don't need to be circumcised...
just pull it back... oil your hand and do your
"magic"... i snuggled up to her...
while the party pooper was left with massaging
my ***** and giving up her ******* for
a makeshift ****** into which i would
*******...

how do i know? the party pooper took a shower...
i took a shower afterwards, too...
and as i was dressing back into my attire of
black trousers, black shoes, white shirt...
black clip-on tie... the girl i really wanted...
the girl i was whispering Enigma war crimes with
stood behind me... invisible behind my body...
massaging my back...
        
threesomes are a load of *******...
the 2nd girl wasn't really invited...
she only ***** an invite... i can't concentrate on
being ****** off while suckling on *******...
i would rather watch someone having a *******
than having a *******...
but i guess you have to have had one
to know the difference...

who's Jonathan?
oh... this black guy i started talking to after i left
the brothel... he was being dried-out from money
by these two white girls
who... became stranded in Goodmayes even though
they lived in... ******* Thurrock...
which is north-east of Upminster...
well... neither of us were going to give them a break...
some Pakistani **** gangs were probably going
to swallow them up...

thanks... for being rejected this many times...
i gave Jonathan some of my brandy:
since he asked... and we... chatted about life...
on the bus... he asked for my number,
i gave it to him... let's meet up for drinks... sure...
i did check the girls out...
i walked back to Jonathan:
**** me... #metoo... just waiting, apparent...
they say they're 18... yeah... ha ha...
and i was willing to house them in my bed...
while i might sleep on the floor...
but... then again: the good Samaritan died in me
a long time ago...
i thought it was obvious... the general
idea of ****** favours for... say...
why wouldn't you get a free roof over your head
and a breakfast for "free"?

     right... the march of the Salvation army... yeah yeah...
*******!
i'm shredding...
  i wasn't... so why should you?!
eye for an eye...
              i abhor Christianity...
it's ******* femininity...
                                  i have nothing to defend!
nothing!
             what i do have is siding with the ****'ite Muslims...
or... spearheading a 2nd Islamic schism
with the Turks... the Sunnis are ******...
******! always side with the minority faction!
cousin *******, perhaps, hopefully: twice-removed...
nonetheless: cousin-*******...
it's almost as if they were eating pork in secret...
eh... cousin-******* confuses them...
they think eating pork is bad...
but... abominations in Darwinism is, hey! ******* o.k,!
PORK = BAD... INBREEDING = GOOD...
o.k.
so we're basically dealing with: RETARDS...
emotionally damaged goods...
retards... god makes dinosaurs... bad...
god the meteor blah blah...
god makes pigs... also bad...
but ******* your cousins?! good... because...
"hurt emotions"... emotions like emojis...

to hell with it... i'm lining up... i'll even **** on the crucifix
prior... get it soaking wet... like a Muslim girl's ******
after she's been told that she doesn't have
to **** her uncle...
      the tremors of the cult of death?
come come... come... i'm grizzly in clenching my
teeth with anticipation... come come!

there is an Islam i truly respect...
it's ****'ite orientated...
it's Persian in nature... it's Turkish in its
cosmopolitanism...
the other crap?
like Protestants undermining the sexuality
of Catholics... or rather...
being jealous of the hypocrisy of the ***
of Catholics...
                          i don't need to respect camel jockey
procrastinations...
       spine-bending antics of prayer...
who said?
                 come come...
i have a death-wish... you tell that to anyone...
wow... oddly enough they retract all their
arguments... their upheaval of emotions...
you tell someone... calmly:
    i have a death-wish...
                         they cower like little *******
and never return to make your life
more / less entertaining.
samriddhi upreti Sep 2020
The one who tries never fails.
It does not matter how many times you tried.
It does not matter how much time it takes.
It does not matter what will be the repercussions.
But it really matters how you make up with the situation.
How you handle your emotions.
The power of hard work never fails.
The diligent person never fails.
Hard times teach you how to survive.
You are preparing more and more.
Each passing day you acknowledge more and it adds to your dictionary.
So without winding up your heart and mind.
Open your heart and ready for the procrastinations.
Believe in your instincts.
Follow your aim without thinking twice.
And endeavor more and more.
You never know, when you cut the mustard.
And raise your head with more satisfaction and contentment.
Enathi Mbanga Nov 2018
I find myself staring at you,
I find myself wondering aimlessly from window to water thinking that I won’t see shades of blue,
I guess what they say is true; “out with the old and in with the new”,
but I truly dislike the new because it doesn’t feel like you,
but lately I sense you realizing that too.
I miss my old reflection

You have these deep shallow notions that plague your mind,
wondering if every little thing you see is god giving you some sort of divine sign,
yet you drown yourself with countless forms of procrastinations in order to get that one moment where your mind will tell you its time. You need to realize that you’re near the finish line.
I fear my new way of thought.

Do you suffer from lust or gluttony?
Do you swerve from lane to lane like a drunk driver rushing to the final destination carelessly?
Do you stare at the bottom of a bottle and wonder if this is could be my last?
Or do you drift through this ocean of life aimlessly?
I question my life

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