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Melanie Melon Mar 2013
It was the time of summer where every kid had silently realized that it was ending,
No longer halfway through, no longer half full
Leaking and spilling out,
like the gas in my twenty two year old car
We couldn’t stop it,
And the moments of high school summertime
The moments that supposedly turn into stories we tell forever
Hadn’t seemed to have happened.

Both of us on the swing lazily swung
Dizzily from side to side.
Climbing forward, falling in reverse
Our combined bodyweight shifting back and forth
Tanned legs kicking up in an attempt at unison on every backwards glide.
Gravity hung us there,
Pulling the swing toward the ground no matter the rotation.

I sat on top.
I wore bleached shorts and bleached hair.
I worried that gravity or more so my value to it
would crush him.


At the same time, I felt unbelievably small.


The air pressed in on me from all angles,
it touched my bare legs
it easily waffled my shirt.

“Mel, if you were squishing me, I would let you know”,
he assured with a cocky tone of his very own that somehow made me feel special.
I couldn’t help but think he was only trying to be tough
Attempting to let sheer willpower overweigh my well earned quads,
My six foot frame.
The awkward body I never quite grew into
Never knew how to masterfully control
Never knew how to fill.
Though I secretly (wanted to) truly believe him

On this humid night I felt like the ball was in my court,
Like I could do anything and everything.
That nothing could go wrong
That the boy that I was sitting on was genuine
And that I could simply drive off to wherever.

(I had a full tank of gas and enough money to get me to Alabama).

I felt small in this,
in this infinity of possibility all around me.
Like a weight was pushing into me
Putting on pressure that couldn’t be ignored
That shrunk me just enough.
I felt powerless to fate
Powerless to this planet
To this grand, glorified hunk of earth which was so much greater than me
(and surely my insignificant weight anxieties).

I felt like the gas was leaking out faster than I could use it.
I felt like my infinity was disappearing as I swung within it.


Just like that, I let the ball drop and the gas leak out.
We just kept swinging.
Laughing,
Wasting,
Talking,

Dying.
She fell asleep on Christmas Eve:
      At length the long-ungranted shade
      Of weary eyelids overweigh’d
The pain nought else might yet relieve.

Our mother, who had lean’d all day
      Over the bed from chime to chime,
      Then rais’d herself for the first time,
And as she sat her down, did pray.

Her little work-table was spread
      With work to finish. For the glare
      Made by her candle, she had care
To work some distance from the bed.

Without, there was a cold moon up,
      Of winter radiance sheer and thin;
      The hollow halo it was in
Was like an icy crystal cup.

Through the small room, with subtle sound
      Of flame, by vents the fireshine drove
      And redden’d. In its dim alcove
The mirror shed a clearness round.

I had been sitting up some nights,
      And my tired mind felt weak and blank;
      Like a sharp strengthening wine it drank
The stillness and the broken lights.

Twelve struck. That sound, by dwindling years
      Heard in each hour, crept off; and then
      The ruffled silence spread again,
Like water that a pebble stirs.

Our mother rose from where she sat:
      Her needles, as she laid them down,
      Met lightly, and her silken gown
Settled: no other noise than that.

“Glory unto the Newly Born!”
      So, as said angels, she did say;
      Because we were in Christmas Day,
Though it would still be long till morn.

Just then in the room over us
      There was a pushing back of chairs,
      As some who had sat unawares
So late, now heard the hour, and rose.

With anxious softly-stepping haste
      Our mother went where Margaret lay,
      Fearing the sounds o’erhead—should they
Have broken her long watch’d-for rest!

She stoop’d an instant, calm, and turn’d;
      But suddenly turn’d back again;
      And all her features seem’d in pain
With woe, and her eyes gaz’d and yearn’d.

For my part, I but hid my face,
      And held my breath, and spoke no word:
      There was none spoken; but I heard
The silence for a little space.

Our mother bow’d herself and wept:
      And both my arms fell, and I said,
      “God knows I knew that she was dead.”
And there, all white, my sister slept.

Then kneeling, upon Christmas morn
      A little after twelve o’clock
      We said, ere the first quarter struck,
  “Christ’s blessing on the newly born!”
Lunar Jun 2021
When the pressure rises and the questioning blares
When the assumptions fly and the fear of being ostracised glares
When the fear of loneliness comes into play
Or the possibility of failure that comes to stay
The risk of not being able to blame anyone but you
The guilt and ‘told you so’ that will ensue
Will it overweigh your desire to be free
And overwhelm your desire to be a wolf among sheep
Will it crush your dreams of being unique
I wonder which path will you seek
David Lessard Oct 2014
I think I can't see evil anymore,
not that it's not there I know
I turn my heart from evidence
of it's ugly show
I look for goodness in the heart
from where the sunshine glows.

The good should always
overweigh the bad
happiness should always
eliminate the sad
memories that contain the good
should be the only ones we ever had.

Smiles should never bow to frowns
no matter how your life is upside down
depression just kills the angry soul
and without, we can be whole
there's more to life than
just one role.

Be content and show your love
be a friend to all that really need
we are our brother's watchman
and for his assistance
we all must heed
if we do not
then all of us will bleed.
Isla Winters Feb 2020
Dad
You wouldn't listen if I told you,
You wouldn't react if you saw,
Red scratches look like smears,
With those lenses of yours.

You wouldn't replace them,
No matter how tinted,
Convince me it was normal,
"It's just what family does."
It was normal for family,
To look at me through the holes.

I hear a certain voice,
Or a certain laugh or certain story,
My heart still stops as it rattles my being,
My mind goes a distance, falling,
Writing this now I feel bile in my throat,
Because Dad he is 5001 miles away,
But why does he seem close?

You wouldn't let me explain,
Mum could not defend,
Your fear of finding out the truth,
Can't overweigh desire for its end.

You wouldn't listen Dad,
Your habit is to blame,
But would I want you to do anything?
That would be nothing for your gain.
It will be his as he knows,
He's won,
For that reason alone.
Warning: infers s*xual abuse
xmxrgxncy Oct 2016
I've been pushing this piano
up this steeping hill
with no thoughts of taking breaks, no,
or of pushing harder still.

I've been dragged by this piano
down this slowly sloping ridge,
for music makes a heavy soul
that'd overweigh a bridge.

I've struggled with this piano
to traverse the gravel ground,
but there's no easier way to go
than down, just markedly down.

I'll pull up at this piano
with the fervor of a few
that will help me even though
it's getting harder to pull through.

So away I'll fly with this piano
though the heaviness is grey;
for the music that I do know
could well save me someday.
So much pain; I 'm stain with the dirt of the rain
If I keep doing my things like this' I 'll miss that **** that I 'm suppose to gain
But if I don't do this rap again; I 'll probably go insane
I just want to spit what's in my ******* brain
Like a pregnant woman that's relieved from a labor pain
just wanted to do my things outside my neighbour lane; and I think that that's the main
So you can keep your fame' I just want my pics out that ******* frame
You trynna poison my mood like you did to my hood' and you make me take the blame
I hate dwarf gees with a glowing chain' with a cat in their ampit and a rag kit with a poking cane
If yall ****** wanna stop growing tail; you better stop smoking hurricane
My skill will overweigh your scale; coz I 've been a veteran before you came
I put your whole hood in chaotic shame' immediately you hear my name
I gat beats that 'll destroy your ear-drum; so louder than a paired gun
You 'll be a dumb-dumb; coz this will surely lead to death' Seldom!
My action is unsecured like 2010 waec
Too much sparkling' that I have to put on my spec
So I lock the aim inside the brain with 86 words password
A chapter in a textbook titled the anchor sword' a book wrote with a dragon blood
I kept those bars inside till it starts leaking
I rewinded the sands of time' n tell the clock' stop ticking!
I 'm gon keep hurting your tongue till you stop speaking
And make you rush it like its hot' I mean' *** picking
You trynna trick me into **** like it's peter pan
Just to see you to the end; I 'll do the best I can
You just a dismantled being
I gat some raw back-up on my recycle-bin
I 'm really leaving this devilish sphere; there ain't no specialist here
I gat my aliens brother waiting at the planet's border; I 'll live the rest of my life on solomon's chair
It is my town now; and I run the street here
I 'll leave your *** paralyze on a wheel chair
That's how I 'll ****** your career before it starts
Coz in this jungle; I 'm the Jaguar to all you cats

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