First off I am the ****.
I slap ******* in Target
and steal them electric carts
to get away from the popo
I start low speed chases
down sidewalks on three wheeled motorcycles.
I got arrested, but that's a'ite.

I am the ****.
I start bar fights
with pool cues
and hit ****** with beer bottles.
I throw rocks
through car windows.
I got arrested, but that's a'ite.

I am the ****.
I threaten Subway employees
with my ******* gun
while Suge gets mani-pedis.
I get my motherfucckin' sandwich anyway.
I got arrested, but that's a'ite.

I am the ****.
I got fo kids and I keep my guns in a box.
I smoke ****.
It aint a drug.
Its something you smoke when you want to feel good.
I got arrested, but that's a'ite.

Why do you hide in the
Dark?
When there is so much
Light?
Why do stand in the
Shadows?
When you can be in the
Sun?

~Katt

You don't have to prove yourself
To anyone
You don't have to prove yourself
Just to be accepted into a group
Or into what others think
You should be
The Beauty about life is you have your own
You decide what to do with it
You can be whoever you want
You can do whatever you want
But please  don't listen to them
Don't be what they expect
Don't try to make
Yourself fit into their
Box of expectations of who you need to be
Please just be you and not them

~Katt

I don't know how
I don't know why
But ever since I saw you
It was like a small fire
Was lit in my heart.

~Katt

Face it
We all have darkness in us
We all think things that we shouldn't
We all hide in the shadows
The deepest parts,
We never see the light
Once the darkness takes over
Your depressed
You think your unwanted
And you keep letting them take you back
Back into the darkness where we have
All failed and lost something valuable
In bits and pieces at a time
We lost our
Happiness

~Katt

Just think of it this way,
You are stronger now
Beacause of what they did
That made you fall too hard.

~Katt

Please don't  change
Please don't be like them
and leave me hear in the dark
These shadows hunt me now,
They never stop following me
And I don't think the ever will
They sit there trying to pull me down
As I build myself back up,
Everyone leaves me hear in the dark
They just don't  care about anyone
Suffering as long as its not them


~Katt

Listen to me
You no longer  have
To fear
For they are wrong
And you are amazing
They don't know what they are
Talking about
For you are not any of the names
They have called you
You are an amazing person
Don't let them change that
Never be afraid to admit something
For I will never make fun of you
Please don't be afraid

~Katt

Dear me (9 years from now),
You're 25... And I have some questions.. sorry but I want to know..
Do we ever get out of our emo phase
(Please tell me we do)
Are we In college?
Do we succeed in art or are we majoring in something that makes us miserable in order to create a better life for the kids I insist that we won't have?
Are you still waking up every Saturday morning at 4 am to make grilled cheese and watch Disney films until 10 o clock? Or do we grow up?
Did we become who my parents want me to be or did we decide to follow our heart and not care if we like the same gender?
Dear me in nine years, do we still go by Katt instead of Katalyna? I'm sorry but I want to know... Do we get over our obsession with coffee? Do we ever stop craving the weird things like peanut butter and oreos, sour cream and hot fries, or apples and Chile powder?
Dear me in nine years I'm sorry but I want to do we ever stop caring so much about everything or do we have daily anxiety attacks? Do things get better? I'm sorry but I want to know...

I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Just don't know what to do

I let you slip away from me
Hoped that you would be happy
I've watched you struggle for so long
Seen how she has done you wrong
Wish that you could only see
That you need to just be free

And I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Just don't know what to do

Kitty katt I miss you much
Wish that you would keep in touch
Its hard for me to call you friend
When this silence has no end
Years have passed since I've seen you
Wonder what you've been up to
Starting to think that I should quit
Just give up and forget

But I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Still don't know what to do

Why do they keep leaving
Why don't they ever come back
Why is it happening so fast
All at once
They left us here hoping
That we could see them again someday
Wishing they hadn't left us here
It is raining
Pouring even

~Katt

I am afraid
To close my eyes
And go back into
The darkness,
I am not the same anymore,
I fear what others don't,
My dreams
They are the darkest,
Coldest place that I know
That I can never go back  to
But I have to,
I can't keep my eyes open
Forever
Maybe its okay
Maybe tonight
Will be better
Then the last
I might just find my
Happiness
Within the dark.

~Katt

I sit here I think all that I have known
That has made me be myself
Around others
But the way I get repaid
Is by getting yelled at
For just being me
And possibly loosing what has made
Me be myself
Before others just sat there and said
That I was boring because I never talked
Well I do I always have
I am one loud person
don't let what you first see be my personality

~Katt

Don't be afraid  to dissipoint People
The ones that want you to fit in their box
Their idea of beauty is not the same
They can't make you be someone else
just for their own good
Be you
Not who someone else wants you to be
Don't fit in their box
You are beautiful
Be you
Don't be them

~Katt

Everything will heal
You just have to give it time
You are beautiful
Don't let them bring you down
Don't listen to them
They are lying to you
Listen to me
You are beautiful
Never change who you are

~Katt

And I've got this sweet lil katt ~ Who does sweet lil things~
It's like I'm rolling around in sugar, and he's lighten up the world as he sings.

4:00 AM
Kuj yaadan ne terian
Kuj dil wich thoda jeha dard a
Ena sab kuj bhulan de lai
eh choti jahi umar bi ta katt a.

I would love to have a beer with Duncan
And get totally ******
Wobbling all over the fucken floor
Giving every girl a kiss
Being intoxicated is what we do for fun
I would love to have a beer with Duncan
Cause he’s number 1
I would love to have a beer with Patrick
Cause he is a father figure, yeah
He will show me the right way to get drunk
So we don’t have the cops spoiling our ****** fun
He would jump up over me
Ready to fucken spew
I would love to have a beer with Patrick
Cause he’s a cool dude
I would love to have a beer with Barry
When we go to the pub
And then some guy cause him a great big old fogie but nowadays that guy is probably a snob
Barry will buy a packet of the finest chips, oh yeah
I would love to have a beer with Barry
And give him the stare
I would love to have a beer with Paul berenyi
Because he is so cool
He will drink methane like it is going out of fashion, to improve his next life who is driving trucks in the mines
You see whether it is a boy or girl mate he will still do that
I would love to have a beer with Paul berenyi
Cause really he is a cool katt
I would love to have a beer with Christopher
Yes that would be pretty cool
He is succeeding in his job and he is having fun
And yes oh yeah he breaks no rule
You see he provides for his family
Which means a lot
I would love to have a beer with Christopher
Cause he is no silly sod
I would love to have a beer with Alexander
I would love to have a beer with my pop
I would drink with him forever
Right untill the world goes pop
Giving gifts of oysters and two lambs ready to eat
Because if I have a beer with Alexander I will get a good treat
Beer beer ****** good beer
Having a good beer with everyone here
Drinking the worlds finest beer
Fast or slow Duncan is here
I would love to have a beer with Duncan
Yes getting ****** sounds so cool
You see Duncan has proved to us
That by all means he is no fool
Everyone who was mentioned
Having a beer with me
I would like to have a beer with Duncan
Oh yeah that makes me happy
I’m a happy dude and I am a party dude
You are an angry dude
Never ever a happy dude