You say you love me
when you let outrage shower my soul
letting the tears escape
and thoughts grumbling

You say you love me
when you're tired of explaining
confused notions seizing seconds into hours
unwelcome  thoughts conquering my sense

You say you love me
when you offer two words for my essay
disregarding the good points
heeding slipped appalling curses

You say you love me
when I see more lights in your eyes without me
i was once the peek of your existence
wider smiles, forgetting i exist

I am a boke in those glimmering eyes
blurred and easy to forget
I know, I know--
I knew.

I open my mouth to your tongue
and it forces its way in
slurping past my incisors
and licking the crevices between my molars
like a snake about to strike
at a mongoose's *******
oh my god but your halitosis
is enough to make me boke
copiously on my new hush puppies.

I'm swimming,
wading through in my breath,
a sail ship at the back of my throat,
the sails tickling,
making me boke,

the waves, the waves,
they just keep coming,
dirtying me with their salty grit,

creeping creeping,
into my lungs,
hush,
be quiet,
my little one.