The sun sets yet another day,
I watch all the colours fade into one dark veil
infecting the sky
and with the sky goes my mind.

Another night alone with my thoughts,
the same thoughts that eat me alive,
numbing me until i feel nothing.
I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared.

I hold myself as I drown in my sorrows.
I'm scared of what i cannot control
and what i cannot control
lives deep inside me.

I know I could end this all
it's so simple, yet i cannot do it.
It is a strange type of sadness,
one that i cannot even feel

yet is there all the time,
haunting me every night.
I hear the dark sky,
begging me to join him,

tempting me more and more
with promises of serenity
and open arms,
ready to finally hold me.

BY SIDRA ALRIFAI

Sometimes I feel like I'm being held underwater,
I open my mouth and scream for help,
I kick and push, desperate
to escape her clutch.

I want someone to help me,
I want someone to hear me
and pull me out of this
bottomless sea of sorrows.

She violently floods me,
I feel the water cascade through me.
I feel it crush me inside,
drowning me slowly.

I begin to realise that
no one will ever hear me,
when my head is this deep
under the sea.

Eventually I get tired.
I'm tired of the kicking
I'm tired of the screaming.
I am ready to succumb.

I close my eyes
and feel as my head finally goes silent.
I find comfort
at the bottom of the sea.

I feel her current
as she caresses me softly,
handling me with the utmost care.
I feel safe.

She wraps me in her warm embrace,
closing in on me,
suffocating me gently.
I inhale once more

finally free.

BY SIDRA ALRIFAI