this is not poetry
but my god, i wish it was
poetry is easy
it's crisp, it's clean
it makes me feel better after i write it
it fits into this box
i shut it and set it on a shelf
my feelings go away
and i just don't think about it.
this definitely isn't poetry
it isn't romanticized
or overly depressing
or absolutely elated
i get it that not everyone's poetry is any of those
but mine is.
and you,
are definitely not poetry.
you are not  easy.
you don't make sense
i can't just not think about you
you make me feel confused
and livid and loving and terrified.
sometimes, you make me feel nothing at all
and sometimes, i feel everything at once.
i can't write you down
and box you up
and put you away.
you're not poetry
but my god, i wish you were