am i too loud
perhaps too annoying
or maybe im just too ugly to fit societal standards

i always feel like i'm not good enough,
somehow less than others
no matter what i do
what i say
ill never be enough will i?

at this point, i don't know what to do
i just feel like i'm constantly floating
on the verge of drowning
a constant state of melancholy

i tell myself it'll get better as time passes
but is it really true?
or am i just feeding myself lies
just so that i can maybe make it through

day after day
i feel my soul being eaten away
by this monster i've been trying to find
but alas its been me all along

if only i could **** the monster that's been hurting me
but that would meen killling myself too
and maybe thats not so bad after all.

with the simplest touch
my body comes alive
as if im on fire
i cry tears of joy
as you asked me to prom
the way i love you is beyond words

with the simplest touch
my bodys on fire again
tears fall but not from joy
blood drips from my lips
the mark will be there for days
but no matter what
my love for you is beyond words

just as the month started, it had already come to an end
for once i felt happy and content
the scars on my wrists began to fade
i could actually sleep 8 hours a day
everything was going well

just as the happiness started, it had already come to an end
its back.
worse this time
funny how a little nudge could push me over the edge
no amount of drugs or alcohol could help
im falling again