i ******* hate you
why can’t i stop loving you?
you drive me insane

i know you don’t care
but i hoped you did
why do you act like you want be then rip me apart?
does it give you pleasure?
does it make it easier to use me?

i’ve had enough
but i can’t seem to break free

i’ve spiralled down this infinity whirlpool before
it only ends with me hurt and missing you
why can’t you let me see that there is people different to you

why can’t i see what others do
i shouldn’t have come back
treading softly

how did i know you would throw me upon oysters
unleashing the beast
howling down with all your might

there was nothing i could have done to prepare

i am broken
don’t try tell me i’m not
i’m not here for your convenience
you blinded me

i don’t want to just be attractive
i want to be intelligent
i want to be exquisite
tell me i’m perfect with clothes on

don’t even try to strip me of strength
stop restraining me from finding someone who cares
if someone like that exists

no one feels my pain
i’m not good enough
i’m not pretty enough
the thoughts like daggers through my head

i’m stuck in my own prison
inside my head
a space that used to be safe
but now is my personal hell

i can’t escape
trapped but protected by my demons
i deserve to be here