ac - Hello Poetry

ac Aug 9

so tell me, where shall i go?
to the left, where nothing’s right?
or to the right, where there’s nothing left?

ac Aug 9

i’ve been telling myself that ive been good for months
i think just pushed it all down
six feet in the ground
and it’s digging itself up right now
i keep staring into the abyss
wondering what im even doing with my life
i sleep to much or not at all
school started monday and im already behind
i wake up, do my make up, and im already exhausted
i say hi to the girlfriend of the guy that im in love with
the same guy i get “reminders” of
i’m torn because he’s not C
but C is everything to me
perfectly
but right now i kinda want to be lonely
what is happening?

read my poem “reminders” and you’ll get the reference
idk what’s happening rn bro
but smth ain’t right

#confused #confusion #struggle #strugglebus

ac Aug 8

loving hate

my therapist said to love the things that are wrong with me
but why should i love starving myself
or having so much rage
cuz one day i will crash out
loving all these horrible things?
it reminds me of loving M
i want to name drop him
expose him
but that’s dangerous
but i have to love the way that i hate that i loved you
and love the things about me you hated
that i grew to hate too
but now i have C
and he’s teaching me that i have every right to hate you
so with that i say
“I HATE YOU!”
much better

C is treating me so much differently than M and it’s so clear that M treated me horribly.
Hate may be a strong word but i’m stronger

#c #m #hate #love #freedom

ac Aug 7

C

he put stars in my heart
and it lit up the dark

#crush #churchcrush #c

ac Aug 6

new kid

there’s a new girl at school today
i don’t know her name
i said i loved her hair
i hope it made her day