I dance through snow
like my life is a fairy tale
but there are no glass slippers or castles where I belong
sometimes I'll give my gift and I'll even sing my song
to the ones that touch my soul in their way
but theyll never stay
noone ever stays too long

I trust and fall, I laugh, I give
this is the only way I know to live
but every hand I try to hold
turns to ice, turns so cold

everyone hurts the gypsy girl
they take her light, then leave her world
magic soul, heart too open gentle and wide
always alone
no place to hide

even blood can bruise so deep
i cry in colors when I sleep
i was born to love not to be loved
everyone hurts the gypsy girl

they say I shimmer, say I shine
but only when they want what's mine
a singing voice like wind through ancient trees
but no one hears my silent pleas

So I dance in circles, I sing to the stars
wishing someone could see these scars
but maybe I’m not meant to stay
maybe I was born to drift away

Everyone hurts the gypsy girl
but still she spins, still she twirls
snow beneath and fire above
still believing in a thing called love
even when it breaks her soul
even when it takes its toll
she was born to give her all
even when they watch her fall…

Everyone hurts the gypsy girl…
but shell keep dancing in her gypsy world
she lives in her own fairy tale world
yes she does

I’m afraid of love
because love burned me long ago
My cousin was an angel
soft and dreamy as spring time twilight
her beautiful inner light draped in mystical moonbeams
but it was caught in jealous hands
a dark love twisted and thorned
a poison tainting good hearts behind a cars closed doors
stealing her very breath
before my own wings had a chance to spread

a heartbreak carved deep into my family’s soul
where fathers drowned in bottles
and sorrow moved itself through the air like cigarette smoke
I was just a little girl
in the aftermath.. I became her ghost
walking through a garden of lost roses
where the wind carried the weight of ******
and grief wrapped cold around my skin and heart
and I learned how to take shots in the dark

No lullaby could warm me
no hand could hold back the pain
a child learning too soon
that love can burn like gasoline and drown you like May rain
it can even can **** with a whispered call
and leave you trembling
afraid to ever open your heart at all

but sometimes, when the night falls upon me slow
I hear her voice
a haunting melody of freedom and fire
She says
"Rise, wild heart, don’t let my darkness bind you
you’re a soldier queens flame that my killer can’t ever steal
though love has burned and my shadow has claimed you
there’s a fire inside you so real.. you are free to let go of my tragedy, but I will always be with you still."

Angel of may danced in the dark with a tiny diamond ring in her hand
moon on her shoulder, her feet in the sand
gold in her hair before the sun could even set
the air of 92 never whispered to any of us
that it would hauntingly end

Michele, Michele… I can feel you breathe
your name is the wound underneath the heart on my sleeve
Oh, golden girl
Oh, golden girl
i see you in your soft angel glow…
red rose blood drips down onto the
blossoms where you still grow
i’d give back all of my may stars
just so you would never have had to go

William Rainey aimed at the light and shattered the dawn
three lovers went quiet in the afternoon light, the music was gone
she reached for my hand in the ash of the sky
i wasn’t too late but I wasn’t nearby
time became a  ghost that wouldnt let me sleep
she sings for me in the mirror and cries with me in the deep
the ring that she gave me was stolen and it shoots through my heart colder than bone
because I carry her blood in the cracks of my own

Michele, Michele… I can feel you breathe.
your name is a wound underneath the heart on my sleeve
Oh golden girl in your soft angel glow
red rose blood drips onto the blossoms where you still grow
inside of me
I'd give back all my treasures
just so you would forever feel light as a feather
just so you would have another spring day

Oh golden girl,
you never really died
I took on your spirit, I really took on your life
it was heavy to hold, but I didn't mind
you will always be the angel I captured long ago
but I will never truly find you
therefore the search will never end
your candle light will always burn in my soul
the flame in my heart that time will never rend
I love you Golden girl

If I could go back
i’d find her there in that car
in the twilight of that moment
and pull her from the dark

Golden girl, you took the bullet for me
you’re etched deep into the bones of my soul
a may 12th wind
that ill never let go

carved into my damaged heart, written into my darkened light
your name shines inside the spring stars at night
forevermore, you ride with me
my golden girl, my eternity

Golden girl, your blood
my blood
our blood

It’s tender,

being the closest of friends..
but oh, isn’t it such a dangerous thing?
To hold you with care,
in the space we made,
while promising

I won’t touch a single thing.

But sweet love... to be this close
to someone like you..
need I say

what your voice can bring?

Warmth, truth,
supportive hands that tend--
it’s a dream come true
for those who bleed.

But when a deep need is quietly met,
can the heart resist
going full send?

And still—when a need
is met without hands,
without lips,

without sleep lost
   in shared breath...

how long before restraint slips?

This depth.. untouched,
unspoken, unseen..
it burns through the walls
between you and me.

Yes, even with agreements
so lovingly made...
there’s always the risk
in a love so brave;


  that we will  both

             come

      undone.

We went walking on the ocean
it wasn’t even summer yet
a little cold, we were happy, I was seventeen years old
He wrote on a box of shells we found
said "keep this around"

that box is gone now
somewhere between inhumane moves
and people I don’t talk to anymore
but inside of me
it stays
drowning in the dream

I’ve always loved the water
always the first to dip my toes
no matter how cold
and even now, id go wandering in deep waters unknown
barefoot
still
wishing to grow
up
but I'm always drowning
in the dream

I love with all my heart.
until he shows me who he really is
and then I wonder if
my father was the last man
who ever truly loved me

grief sits beneath my eyes
a broken heart is
too heavy to pick up
and fly
and I really try.
god, do I try.
but I always find myself
unable to walk steady
Maybe I'm not
one for the land

I’m always drowning in the dream
lipstick smeared in titanic movie scenes
Pretty words and a golden helping hand
But it all turns to quicksand
cant stay steady for too long
maybe I'm not one for the land

sea gentle and soft, then a storm on the brink
Love in white lace and dads handwriting in black ink
I try to run, I try to stand...
But baby, I may not be
one for the land

Im always drowning in the dream

O fairest Michele, a white rose torn
Ere I had breath, thy soul was mourned
a fragile star in heavens keep
blonde angel lured
into a cold blooded sea

hearts turned dark and secrets would creep
In silent nights
where the angels weep

Upon the twelfth of cruel May
The moon wept tears that veiled the day
He lured the blonde angel, I was fallen
a baby girls wings were clipped
pain became my calling

My father’s heart did break and die...
As the bottle drowned his anguished cry.
If magics hand could stop time
I'd save her
shed still be alive
and so would i

Upon the twelfth of cruel May,
The moon wept tears that veiled the day
He lured the angel, I was fallen
a baby girls wings were clipped
pain became my calling

Michele, I still wear your diamond ring
inside of me, it’s everything.
stolen from my hand, just like you,
Murdered love, an angel true

Blonde Angel in the spring dark, forever mine
a love that bleeds outside of time
The gun has gone off in my heart a thousand times,
cold fire burning through these fragile poetry lines
I was a baby, the pain came too soon
Michele's shadow following me like a dark perfumed room
the gun.. the love that’s gone
I carry it with me, all life long

This poem is for Michele Vitagliano.  It is also for Shanda Sharer.  Two Beautiful angels lost in the burn of a lying loves flame

you came into this world with time pressing on your neck
A child of dark shadows dancing near death
The doctors said you for sure would not stay
But even then, sickness couldnt extinguish your flame

They never saw the boy inside
you were lightning on the blue green sea tide
A misunderstood lullaby
but if you were ever searching for Love
I think you know
you found it
in me, your baby dove

Pain is the only true friend youve known
It got you bad, so now its something that doesn't even make you bleed
You are my beauty
and my beast

the sky turned blue green velvet
just like the way you had told me it would be so
i saw the shimmer of orion's belt, soft and slow
like you still here, but letting go

your eyes once held the ocean deep
now silence is the song you keep
you fade like daylight through the magic night mist
But I still feel you in all of this

the world forgets you, but I hold tight
to your ghost
dancing in the night
you
are
the
northern star

you are the light behind the stars
the whisper in the dark
the candlelight that somehow still remains
even now, just where you are
you are the light behind the stars
though your voice has gone away
your love will always stay

the world forgets you, but I hold tight
to your ghost
dancing in the night
you
are
the
northern star

the world forgets you,
but I know
you are the most
Beautiful
and they don't know