When my chest feels heavy, my heart surrounded by sorrow.
I wish to feel nothing, I don’t want to see tomorrow.
I search for the answer, wondering when this will end.
The question itself wonders, I choose death to be my lonely friend.

Now I am at my decision,  I recall every feeling.
Guilt covers my vision,  regret loses its meaning.
I don’t think I can come back, I don’t even try.
Who sees what this head has, when I was left alone to cry.

When you arrive at my ending, I will remain silent that day.
When you wonder what I was hiding, why I chose this pathway.
The mystery covers your mind, so does the heaviness of maybes.
I wish you to keep me in your good sight, that’s the last wish you can grant me.

Now I am not breathing, but I feel so relieved.
The sorrow is at its ending, I am stepping into my land of dreams.
It offers me numbness, what I was eagerly wanting.
I am immune to emotions ; finally, the heaviness has ended.

The way I’ve hurt,
I think nobody deserves at all.
But I think of those hungry people,
Those helpless people,
Those aimless people.
Oh my lovely people,
Why did they pay the price
That I was investing?
Why did they let their dream die
Instead of following the life as the ending?
Why did I make them fight?
Why did I make them choose the thing I thought was right?
Why didn’t they listen to them?
Or maybe I made them choose this life aim.

I don’t know how many apologies I should owe
That the beautiful world you want to show
To your kids, to your belongings,
To your family happily singing.

Forgive me, my soldier, I let your dream die.
I let you fight against your brother
When you wanted to live a peaceful life.

I taught you to leave your soul dream,
So I could use your skin.
I am so guilty now,
Please forgive me, my dear soldier.
I want to wash my sin.