You bid me follow you
to a place of sunshine rainbows
and Pillsbury clouds
where with peacock wings
we could fly forever

'Just hold my hand, ' you said
'and it will be so.'
I in my arrogant stubbornness
I answered 'No'
and watched as your body
like ***-boiled snow
melted away from me

Now in my darkness
I lay drunken in sorrow
Bitter with sadness
Seeking
death as my mistress

No Pillsbury clouds
No peacock wings
No sprinkled sunshine
Where I go

No…,
there won't be any sunshine
or rainbows
where I go

I'd like to believe
we are doing
it again
That another black
is in

I'd like to believe
that 45's ride ends
That when we fight
we win

I'd like to believe
a woman can win
and that weird is not
the thing

I guess I'll wait
till this race ends
and hope I won't
lose faith
again

No tears
Have I
For you

No tears
Have I
To cry

Although
I tried

Leak water
From parched eyes

No tears
Could I cry
For you

When you died…
I died too

I lost
The beauty of
Your smile
The warmth of
Your touch
The smell of
Your perfume
The laughter
In your voice
I lost
My whole world
With the losing
of you

In my ears
I can hear the sound
Of my heartbeat
Constant, Sad, and lonely

Mimicking the way that I feel
Since the loss of you

I live In a world of lies
where free speech
has lost its right to exist

When I speak
my truth, your lies

When you speak
your truth, my lies

This used to be
Because of my color

Now it's my
political beliefs

Now we don't
Speak at all

Hoping this sacrifice
Will keep us together

This lie
This truth
This Truth
This lie
tears us

even farther
apart