Give in to the questions
reply with false answers
not because you lie
but because you try
to become, run and hide
lose your falsifity
to an honest try

Just when my love generator started running rough, I decided to give it a tune-up. It seemed to run better afterwards  but never as good as it did before that last breakup. That was until she came along and created a new spark, with little effort it started right up and ran..... ran real good.

Subconscious spinning wheel dictating the various nerves
to be hit

As you take orders without any doubt causing actions to happen

Physically all over the matt being stretched in different directions

Until finally your mental decisions have your body spent

You hit rock bottom, falling all over yourself and the many colors

LoSt

Born a single side sword
Graduating to a double edge
One side is filled with pain
The other keeps causing it
The tip is extremely sharp
My handle is uncomfortable
Yet others keep swinging it
Not realizing the harm caused
TOXIC

I took a chance 
an unnecessary 
dance 
Thank God 
I made it home 
safely

You receive
what you retrieve

So if you hate
what you relate

Why reach for
the same thing more

You hate the fall
but love the ground

You feel looked down on
but you refuse to stand tall

Quit laying flat
like a welcome-mat

You seek energy
the same energy you
COMPLAIN about
IRONY

You are a result
of bad math

Well only you
can add or
SUBTRACT

Remove the bad
Before it changes you

Slowly taking over
YOURSELF

Otherwise
You might end up

At the point of
NO RETURN

Giving up ..... Nah
Working hard .....Uhuh

Blood dyed brain.... Colored hair.....   The chemicals seep in ......creepin inward..... Steep the thoughts punch-drunk from the new look to come
Head burns chemical reaction motivated by desire to be more attractive, feel better changing the image of who you are......
Who are you ?

UMD
Many out there
Lost souls at sea
To outside eyes
They look normal
No obvious needs
They manage to hide
All the unknowns
Deep inside they know
They are never really alright
Voices in their head
Like they have two minds
False conclusions fed
The difference between
Real, reality and self-made
All blend together to benefit
The justification needed
To love, hate and survive
Not much else exists between
Comfort found in perfection
Life is not perfect, explain
How does this go unnoticed
Mixed baggage all piled up
Years of suppression
Years of depression
Years of wanting to let-go
Suicide known, but refused
Never really been an option
Weeks of normalcy achieved
Days of relapsing and grief
Turning points amidst it all
Promises of good change
Made but never kept
Difficulty maintaing friends
Emotions on and off
Like a light switch
On the straight and narrow
Then back in the ditch
Confident in self and strong
Insecure and weak next up
Proud of self-growth
Disgusted with oneself
UMD: covers it all
Unknown Mental Disease
To each their own
Hidden beneath the flesh
Within the rib-cage
A healthy beating heart
Within the skull
A damaged brain
A shattered mind
A habitat to a disease
Still unknowm
UMD

Life like an onion
Each year another layer
Leaving me in tears

Unaware
absolutely
oblivious
some are

To not know
the choices
they sew
from words
and actions
reaped

To not think
far or close
AHEAD
But rather live
in the moment
*******

Or to think
far to far
AHEAD
and rather fear
in moment
*******

Somewhere between
the two
do just
FINE

Blonde hair
blue eyes

Brown hair
green eyes

Black hair
brown eyes

Red hair
hazel eyes

and every other combination
possible ...... etc

Does it really even matter? Haven’t they all led us to HEARTBREAK

HEARTBREAK
must be : COLORBLIND
NO PREFERENCE

Break a heart 
to 
Make a heart 

Life isnt fair 
care to 
Tell her now?

Shes gonna cry
care to 
Tell me how?

I cant lie 
to 
Lead her on 

My feelings changed 
care to 
Break her heart 

My feelings changed 
care to 
Make her heart 

Make a heart 
to
Break a heart 

Love isnt fair 
care to 
follow your heart? 

I know now 
to 
Let her go 

Break a heart 
to 
Heal a heart 

Right now mine 
is 
Split in two 

Love isnt fair 
care to 
Tell me how? 

Make a heart 
to 
Break a heart

When words can’t express                              
what the heart feels from the pain
just look in my eyes

When bad habits are normal
regular behaviors are horrible
Irregular behavior seems abnormal from discomfort of acting different but I now see the good that comes from being uncomfortable.

There's a tear running down your cheek
but no fear in your eyes
As I peek
I realize the shine from your
beautiful smile
Coming from your warm face
of comfort
I too smile as it cheers me up
to know
There still exist tears of joy,
who knew ?

Different reactions 
to similar situations 
Different pain
from similar heartbreak
Different decisions 
for similar scenarios
Different answers 
for the same exact questions 
Yeah it's safe to say we all are Different in our own unique way, so let's not judge, so let's not compare because the reality is.....
IT'S JUST NOT FAIR

When words just won't do
What is one to consider
what is one to do

Among the many remedies  to fight stress and release anger
I have custom tailored my own cures for my mental-health 

Like tearing through my firebirds 4 speed as I take off like a bat out of hell and watch the rpms climb to redline 

Like hopping in my truck and burning out while cruising down backroads listening to the radio all the way turned up 

Like taking my dog Buster for a hike and watching him enjoy some one on one time with me out in the woods by where we live 

Like writing poetry just as quickly as the words try to weigh heavy on my mind, each line wrote prevents the bottling up 

These are my most popular ones among some more but most importantly require no dependancy on drugs prescribed by a doctor 

Gas, tires, oil changes and dog food is much cheaper than hurt feelings, broken relationships, criminal record or attorney fees 

Plan for the worse, hope for the best and if **** could hit the fan then eventually it probably will....... So have a plan

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      Until one day
it all makes perfect sense
and you realize what:
 REALLY MATTERS

My mind outside gravity's reach, amidst the stars in the sky I seek, my goals shine bright providing guidance I need. My mind outside humans reach, amidst the stars in the sky I seek, my goals shine bright dividing misguidance I don't need.

Well back in the day....
we were mandated to wear 
diapers on our heads

Old Orchard Beach
cold fall day
Couple massages
psychic reading
Elegant dinner
small cabin.....
i miss us

Europe, syrup, sugar free... not always sweet, just ask Ukraine.

USA, days, forever free... not ever free, just ask Germany.

France, dance, freely... not always free, just ask Parliament.

"aren't we all determined by our own governments, to each we willing allow to determine a final growth for anyone man? To whom will go strengths to prevent rather support and tax rather invest in thy growth or wealth! TO EACH THEIR OWN!"

"Hands were made to close in order to grasp and hold.....not to make fists."

Im a tree without any branches, I have nothing to offer, not even shade, how pathetic, no wonder I keep getting cut down, I hate my roots!

Financial crisis... a product of: financial aide.

Help based on lack of income... welfare: results in holding the less fortunate captive.

Tax breaks and deals for the filthy rich meanwhile the working class threatened with liens... the same class that funds the system off their backs! 

Mark of the beast... SSN, Hell's offering basket gets passed every hour you work at a guaranteed 25'/, : will you keep paying in? 

The real question is... have you been bought?

Become what you hate
become what you can’t stand
MAKES YOU SICK
but it doesn’t have to be
YOUR FAULT
so please quit blaming
YOURSELF
You can’t see your BIGGEST fear taking place
within your own
FACE
Disgrace you wear thin
CHANGE
this now before it’s to
….
LATE……
REGULATE THE PAIN
let the abuse stop
and exit with
the noose
that finally
got taken
OFF

FREE

You are the exception
CONSIDER
There are hundreds of thousands each year that aren’t so
LUCKY

Dont victimize your brain
from the pain
the victims
placed on you

CREATING

Hate from their deep rooted flaws of many past generations
of self-inflicted SLAVING

From this the MONSTER is born
As you slowly become
The
CULPRIT

CARRYING
the bloodlines
of evil
FURTHER

STOP
and
LETS CELEBRATE LIFE
LiVe

I'm Biden my nails 
My cuticles are bleeding 
Why did I do that?

No more training wheels
Life is filled with many falls
Always get back up

The worlds biggest
pyramid scheme
The Food Pyramid
courtesy of the USDA

The worlds greatest
deceit of all times
Our countries History Books
courtesy of the United States

Is it safe to say or assume
they feed us knowledge based on their self-benefit and corporate profits

Is it safe to say or assume
we eat from their hands knowing they benefit from their self-truth

They market to us by a service that claims to help us get our day started but in reality we're watching a really long commercial fueled by political  influence more than
our self-benefit

Their job to instill fear within our minds to mold their ideas and opinions into our mindset to get our views to promote their campaigns against us

One nation under God we all claim to be a part of but yet we allow them to divide us as far as the left will go and as far as the right will go until we are backed against ourselves

One man to lead though, that we all are to look up to even though he's not for all or any of us but rather his funders hidden agendas

But hey we all bleed red white and blue as we all know United we stand and divided we fall, if only their was more feeling of emotion to those words portrayed

Within my lifetime it has gone from no personal information should be shared to having to give it all out just to have an email address or Facebook

Big companies pay web developers for our views but yet we pay for the inconvenience every month, cellphone

Who
What
When
Where

All these questions answered with a ping of a tower, since when did we become okay with all of our privacy being stripped away

How ?

If we all could see eye to eye and realize the third eye that is fogging the mirrors then maybe we could stand united and agree it's not the left or the right but rather us all against them,  the government

They divided us to conquer us, they persistently create distractions to numb us knowing together we outnumber their forces thousands to one

But let's keep hating one another, lets stay divided and wonder why things never get better, lets keep allowing our taxes to fund political wars, let's keep allowing our information to be shared with the world, let's pretend we don't care about any of this

The yellow lines on the roads symbolic for the whole entire country being a crime scene, we are all victims to them:
Taking
Making
Forcing
Creating
Dividing
Obtaining
Denying
Etc

God Bless America
Home of the brave
Land of the free

2.5 hours from home
just a one horse town
All the lights turn off
just about at 10pm
Except for two places
a Waffle House and a Walmart
So it’s very easy
to stay out of trouble
One of the best accounts
I have worked this year
I think the town suffers from boredom
So I got my suitcase, all my work attire is loaded along with some much needed EXCITEMENT
Here I come Wapakoneta Ohio
round two is just around the corner

Our bodies the sky 
the various constellations 
unique to our personal history
Mapped out precisely 
identified by scars 
laid out unintentionaly 
Amidst all memories 
the good, bad and ugly 
happy to horrorscopes 
Bound by gravity
as we walk this earth 
for all to be exposed 
24/7 we see these wonders 
wether day or night 
unlike the stars that shine 
Only noticeable to ourselves 
or the ones we trust to share
our story with, our bodies 
Heaven and Hell 
our scars beauty and pain 
on our bodies like stars 
IN THE SKY

Trapped in the middle
                     of wrong and right,          
black and white
          My whole world is grey

         I will be okay
    or so I say to myself
                   but I’m really not

   I must overcome            
          I cannot paint
                 here anymore
​​     I’M TO GOOD FOR THIS

Get your point across 
We all know you always do 
but we still love you

Confused
Abused
Infused
With
Some
Really
Bad
****
Hint
I'm
******
Up
But
Regardless
The
Darkness
But
Regardless
The pain
Regardless
The numbers
Or
Regardless
The
Strain
I'm
A
Survivor
And
I
Wouldn't
Rather
Be
Anything
Else
Because
I'm
Walking
Talking
Living
Proof
Of
A
Life
Not
Becoming
Victim
To
A
Hopeless
Birth

Kick rocks
it’s water
under the bridge
sling mud
drag my name
in dirt
it’s all
salt
in my wounds
bleed
point fingers
label drunk
I’ll listen
I’ll watch
with sand
between my
toes
I’ll remain
a
BEACH ***
Unconcerned
about
your thoughts
so
****-off
FREEDOM

What is
NORMAL

What is
RIGHT

What is
ABNORMAL

What is
WRONG

WHAT IS
what is

*******
it is

GO WITH YOUR
HEART

*****
EVERYTHING ELSE

If only I could be
as free as my imagination
If only I could be
as free as my spirit
If only I could be
then so could you
Imagine that
FREEDOM
I did
and now I
SEEK IT

Happy thoughts are to sunshine as teardrops are to rain, someone better tell Noah to build another ark, before my world gets flooded

HAVING FAITH ISN'T
DOING EVERYTHING
IN YOUR POWER
TO LIVE LONGER
IS IT?
IF YOU TRUST
THE LORD
THEN WHY NOT
HIS SCHEDULE?
THE SAME
GOVERNMENT
THAT WONT
ALLOW KIDS TO SAY
"ONE NATION UNDER GOD"
DURING THE
PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE
IS THE SAME GOVERNMENT
THAT IS MANDATING VACCINATIONS.......
THE SAME GOVERNMENT
CONTINUOUSLY TRYING
TO SEPERATE
CHURCH FROM STATE!
IM NOT
A RELIGIOUS PERSON
BUT I DO BELIEVE IN
AN IMMUNE SYSTEM
FOR THOSE THAT ARE RELIGIOUS....IT WAS GOD GIVEN AND CREATED!!!!
I SENSE CONTRADICTION
SOMEWHERE......
MASKS PREVENT US FROM BECOMING IN CONTACT WITH COVID-19, BUT GOD CREATED US MASKLESS KNOWING WE WOULD COME INTO CONTACT WITH ILLNESS AND FORM A TOLERANCE THROUGH THE SICKNESS BY COMING INTO CONTACT.....HUH?
WHAT'S THE MISSING VARIABLE TO PREVENT THIS FROM MAKING SENSE.....
LINING THE BIG PHARM COMPANIES AND GOVERNMENTS POCKETS!
I DO BELIEVE IN FREEDOM AND RIGHTS! FOR THOSE THAT BELIEVE THE DEATH TOLLS ARE THE CAUSE FOR THE MANDATES, KEEP IN MIND MORE DEATHS ARE CAUSED BY OTHER ISSUES THAT ARE CURABLE WITHOUT MEDICINE BEING INVOLVED .......
PLEASE GET IN LINE AND HELP LINE THE POCKETS OF THE ONES THAT ARE CONTINUOSLY TRYING
TO SEPERATE YOUR CHURCH FROM STATE!
IS YOUR FAITH IN SCIENCE OR IN GOD? SCIENCE HAS CREATED WEATHER CHANGING TECHNOLOGY, CLONING ABILITIES, IM SURE THOSE CORRESPOND WITH RELIGION AMONG MANY OTHER TOPICS......
​​​​WWJD?

Raised to be someone else,
forced to focus on everyone else.

Now you're finally free from everybody, but who are you?

You must find yourself first, to become who it is YOU ARE!

A life spent pretending to be someone you aren't, isn't a life. 

You must find happiness within your true-self, to find inner peace 


      "The bitterness from the past will.   continously cloud all future sunshine,
      until you make a new forecast."

Who am I right now ?
I don’t resemble myself
I told her I changed

She may believe me
but what does it matter now
right now I’m lonely

That’s who I am now
a better and bitter guy
I told her I changed

Quit second guessing
trust and believe in yourself
if you don’t, who will ?

Is it you?
The one that is gone 
the one that lost life 
For you are no longer here
disappeared from this earth 
A true place of sin 
Hell on earth especially now 
Are you the victim?
for the inevitable took place 
You are no longer here 
you are heavily missed 
Are you the victim?
Or is it all of us ?
We are still here 
we still have life 
We havent disappeared 
from this sin filled earth 
We lost you and we are forced alone, without you 
Are we the victim ?
Or are we just being selfish?
We know you are in a better place , regardless ones faith, we know it cant be worse than here 
You no longer have pain, you no longer have fears, you no longer are living in a sin filled world 
Are you the victim ?
Or is it us ?
Can you still see me, wherever you are? If so can you believe me, when i say " when i lost you, i lost who i was" and if so, does it **** you, like the loss of you did my spirits and if so is my reaction causing you to be the victim from the sorrow you see in my eyes? 
Are you the victim? 
Or is it us, the ones that love you and hate that you're gone?

Poetry has no
ability to judge me
so I open up

Our love so lite
captive to the wind
where it’s gone now
only Mother Nature knows

Vanished within air
gone without a care
separated from us
alone we both are left

Maybe that’s why
I sincerely hate the wind
for it’s the reason
our love went adrift

She didn’t seem to mind
her eyes have no regret
as she lifted our guarded love
for all to see against the wind

She knew the threat
her eyes saw the tree branches
violently passing left to right
as the wind chimes screamed

She felt her hair being pulled
away from her head firmly
as it danced the same direction
with the powerful breeze

Was it on purpose? Was it to hurt me or maybe , just maybe she wanted us both to be free

From a love so lite that not even it could go up against a summer breeze without losing might

For she knew we both desired a love in strength capable of taking on the biggest of storms

Dad: son let’s sit by the fire tonight and have some father son time

Son: dad let’s sit in front of the tv tonight and play video games and bond

Extension cord ran
from the garage
Folding table grabbed
from the storage shed
Camping chairs gathered
from the cars trunk
Television moved
from the spare bedroom
And together we
set it all up
in front of
THE FIRE-PIT
WIN WIN

I desire affection 
I crave insecurities 
I want her attention 
I need solidarity 
I, need...... her,
next to me.
Please 
right
now