Understand
before
JUDGEMENT

Anyone can be born but very few are raised!

Downbeat, leaning down,  appearance insecure, unhealthy heart, mind filled with doubt and 
I'M FEELING BAD

10 days
7:30am to 9pm
120 customers  
12 salespeople
HIGH ENERGY
GO GO GO GO
9pm and it’s quitting time
but the energy present
doesn’t just turn off
Fresh shower
wide awake now
10pm leads to 2am
Oh **** in 5.5 hours
I have to be up again
in order to do it all over again
100 degree days
working on black pavement
The sun never missing a day
8 shades of red from burnt skin
averaging 8 miles a day
In a mall parking lot
trying to move metal
NO NO NO NO
Is all I hear, literally all day
mental warfare
BRAIN DAMAGE
I’m wore out
my body is sore
my skin is like leather
my ears have had enough
my brain ******* hurts
but I finished the job
10 units delivered
$64500.00 in front end
GROSS PROFIT
Averaging $8000 a copy
YEAH I’M A STUD
One week off
then off to Texas
For the start of
a four week run
Waco Texas to
Edinboro Pennsylvania
and back to Texas
for two more weeks
and then a full month off
But for now I must rest,
recover and turn my brain
OFF

Freestyle is fun
keeps you sharp
it’s like a game
no shame in the
CREATIVITY
I’ve yet to be
STUMPED .....

Today is a good day 
today is a bad day 
Today is a fun day
today is a sad day
Today is a __ day 
because i just woke up 
Today is whatever kind 
of day I decide 
FREEDOM

Peace within your mind
         Peace within
   your heart and soul
Peace within your life

Each day is a piece
three-hundred and sixty-five
pieces in total

YEARLY

Every day counts
just as much as the other
so don’t lose any

DAYS

Time, is the one thing
IMPOSSIBLE to get back
so enjoy your life’s

PUZZLE

My heart is now a pin cushion next to her sewing machine, she tore it out when she was done with me, now she punctures it with pins and needles used for thread, oh how I dread ever trusting her with my heart

A journey, a dream
to become better
I desire, regardless
the statistics
or what they say

To be realistic
I was captive
to past patterns
they nurtured
but not me

It wasn’t until
I realized this
that I could ever
be able to see
the difference

Once I did
I felt tricked
I was a slave
to bad luck and
a sinners way

Lost love
the cost of
my heritage
my only inheritance
but that was before

Criss cross
no longer parallel
perpendicular
to their views
I now will remain

They love me
they love me not
I’m no longer bitter
they loved me
the best they could

The bandages
are all gone
the scars have faded
I’m no longer adapted
but rather accepted

A soldier in war
coming back home
cannot be that man
that war made him
or had created

A doctor in surgery
trying dearly
to save a life
that has barely a chance
to be able to survive

That doctor
cannot take that death
to his home, nor be proud
of his failures when he
truly tried his best to be a hero

However he shouldn’t feel
ashamed but giving
the circumstances
how can he feel any different ? welcome to life

A board game that never
promises any winners
regardless the talent
or the efforts, wrong or right
no difference sometimes

I’m no mathematician
but it seems lately
it’s all just numbers
and all the smart ones
keep becoming more wealthy

You, him, her and I
the young , the old
And even the babies
we all are just numbers
they add, subtract. divide and
MULTIPLY

IRRELEVANT, IRRELEVANT
I scream because it doesn’t matter what they do nor what they did , I am who I am and know what it is .... that makes me or takes me to where I need to go

My mind the sky . My brain the star , like a compass to lead my heart just below , the right way , our souls float within our whole environment amidst our shells, this is our gravity to attract other like minds , this is our deterrent too, to the ones that try to dispute what we know is true

Faith
       Soul
         MIND-⭐️
             Soul
                Heart ❤️
​​​​                      Soul

Our energy consumes our world and protects us all , but until the energy is pure the light will never shine bright for the heart to see the star that leads us in life’s night or creates day !
SUN

A BEAUTIFUL GALAXY WE ALL CAN BE AND IF ALL MINDS WERE SKIES AND ALL BRAINS WERE STARs AND ALL HEARTS WERE ABLE TO FOLLOW BRIGHT MINDS
imagine the souls that would fly
IMAGINE YOU, HER, HIM, I , THE YOUNG, OLD AND
EVEN THE BABIES

what a world this would be
what a life we all could live
WHAT A LIFE
For you and I

I'm not perfect, so I claim! Who can say the same thing? Are we making these conclusions based on scars from a damaged brain? Well who caused those scars? Who is to claim what I am, including myself, it's not the sane thing to bring feelings into thoughts and make conclusions.... I'm perfect, maybe I'm not but I refuse to accept either based on my BrAiN damage! Opinions please leave ME the **** Alone!

Title:

One thought
fuels it all

A complete write
filled with words

One spark
is all it takes

To ignite a mind
filled with emotions

A flame from within
to warm others with your
PASSION

To share,
to connect, to expose and
ACCEPT

One solution
for many
PROBLEMS

One answer
for many
QUESTIONS

One write
for others
SUPPORT

All stemming
from one
THOUGHT
WORD
SPARK
IGNITE
WRITE
POEM
and
One love
POETRY

Poetry is everything 
it's the mind, spirit
and body 
Poetry is God 
it's the Father, Son
and Holy-ghost 
Poetry is life 
it's You, Them 
and Me 
Poetry is death 
It's natural, ******
and suicide 
Poetry is everything
It's ever evolving, immortal
and timeless

Poetry is easy
at least for me
This beautiful mind
HA HA that made me
LAUGH
More like
twisted
demented
narcassistic
and
****** up
Has brilliant ideas
no nonsense
But when the dust settles
and the fans fade away
my problems will still
REMAIN
Beauty from Pain
Poetry from insecurities
art from disabilities
sky bound from gravity
OUT OF THIS WORLD
POETRY

.................P
Move      U    and    D
                                 O
                                 W
                              a N d     

Move it all           
   
      d       n
A                   u
       r      o
​​​​​​N

D
          
                                
S~h~A~k~e    

Your hands 
            n
             d        Your feet 

                        ....................
Put one foot !                  !
                       !      IN        !
                       !...................!
and  one foot    OUT 

Then MOVE them all about
   A
     K 
  ONE          Step        RIGHT
                                              H
                                              E
TFEL          PETS               ENO

& Cha Cha real SMOOTH

Life is a Rubik’s cube
keep trying and stay focused
It can be magical
hocus pocus
when you get
all the colors
to line up
SOLVED

The turkey isnt the only thing baked at this Thanksgiving Dinner....

Wealthy need not money
for they have much more
Wealthy need not validation
for they have much more
Wealthy need not popularity
for they have much more
Wealthy need not abuse
for they have much more
In a perfect world
thou shall not abuse it
But we all know
including the wealthy themselves
That's just not the case
otherwise equality would exist

I gave up the baggage, I quit making excuses, I gave up the bottle, I'm hitting motivation full throttle and only seeking answers! 8 months strong I cannot do anything wrong, I'm collecting and erecting titles and deeds, just signed on the closing of the third property, this is who I always was but never who was seen! I'm making big moves and it feels good to have the strength, power and courage to do so! It's all just raw talent but until I lost all from the fall I could never stand tall and fearful, the confidence I have now is what I should've  been instilled with, if I had competent parents but let's not focus on the past because I decided already it wouldn't be the last to decide or hide the real me! Started with nothing in 2021 but a broken heart now it's the beginning of 2022 and I have more things to be proud of than things to not be, free is how I finally feel and the difference is the concept and mindset of: nothing seeming possible to the possibilities seeming endless, they started my life as a crime scene but I'm living it like a prayer answered, there's no limit to my self-growth or ability to become someone that should've never been a survivor but:



"I refused to be a lifelong victim, it's just not in my DNA regardless my bloodline. I refuse to be a justification to a bad statistic regardless how unrealistic that seems. The father in me that was born from teenage pregnancy rather than a man becoming a parent to me decided that its time to " MAN THE **** UP" and provide for the rest of the children to come!"

Born, Raised, Grown, Decide and Die

Yes You Decide
The In-Between
Grown and Die

The Last Two Thirds Of Your Life

Yes Only You

Not Anyone Else

All The Adjectives and Verbs

Lie In Your Mouth and Your Hands

All The Blood Pumping From Your Heart

YOUR EYES THE ONLY WITNESS

Be Observant

*******

SEE, HEAR, SPEAK
THE TRUTH

PAY ATTENTION
CREATE CHANGE

Fix those that seek growth,
break those that fake growth

Fix yourself you pathetic phony, seek with purpose

We're not broken or fixed, it's not a permanent label

Forever it can change within the same days and so on

You want what you want, you don't what you don't

Accept who you are, what you desire and live your life

But whatever you do please, don't waste anymore time

ITS _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.(Poem title)

​​​​​​

A whisper heard but not understood,
MY VOICE.

A touch felt but not
known,
MY HAND.

A sight seen but not
familiar,
MY SOUL.

A willing set of ears to listen but not capable,
MY FLAW.

A comforting smell but not
lasting,
MY SCENT.

A beautiful mind but not home to a healthy brain,
MY TRUTH.

Doctors prescribe what pharma sells, I rather prescribe myself

Apply pressure 
Release pressure 
Applied pressure 
Released pressure 
Present pressure 
Past pressure 
Voluntary pressure
Involuntary pressure 
Solid pressure 
Weak pressure 
Whatever the measure 
Life is full of it 
Whatever the treasure 
it comes with it 
Whatever the relationship
it creates a form of it 
Whatever the friendship 
It will be subject to 
PRESSURE 
Life is all about learning how 
to handle its various forms 
While maintaining to be calm 
"Pressure pushing down
on you"
"Pressure pushing down on me"
So dont bottle it up
I will confess
it will eventually  explode 
Making a mess 
of what couldve been 
better finessed 
Passing Life's Test 
knowing their will be 
MORE TO COME 
So put less on yourself 
and others you may know 
There's already enough 
PRESSURE IN THE WORLD

Beneath the surface 
well who cares 

Anyone who digs that deep
just uses it against me 
anyhow 

Beneath the surface 
UnKnOwN

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.............!       Idea        !
.............!      💡 ⤵️       !__
➡️ Thought⤴️⬇️       Poem ➡️
------------!           💥↗️ !--------------
              !    Concept  !
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Thought: Cold🧊
     🧊  Idea: Write poem
 Concept: Heartbreak /Haiku
     Poem: Ice cold🧊
     🧊 💙   frozen heart 
    all my feelings numb
          and touch ​​​​​🧊💙
               Bitter I remain 

💙🧊 Titled: Frostbitter 🧊💙

The highest probability of getting the outcome desired is following the process

Or so they say in every morning sales meeting before we get started

I listen and take their advice with a grain of salt knowing my closing percent

In an industry where 1 in 10 conversion is considered extremely good

I average 1 deal for every 5 customers I speak to, with above average grosses

I don't sell cars or follow a script based process like a computer programmed robot

I connect with my customers by building from a foundation of common ground

I don't sell cars but rather sell emotions, once the bond is made the sale follows shortly after  

My boss reminds me regularly I defy gravity and  break all rules but he enjoys the profit

He reminds me hard work will always outshine raw talent but I know what he's doing

He's merely trying to sell me on working harder knowing we both would benefit larger

I remind him I dont do this job because I have to but rather because I'm a people person

99'/, of sales is a transfer of enthusiasm and energy so I cannot fake it or pretend

When you invest that much effort into your work it requires a lot more energy
than a robot

Puppet Master”
I consume you
own you
it’s all you know
I lift you up
raise you high
for all to see
my love for you
is so toxic
without me
you cannot breathe
I consume you
move you
left to right
tell you how to feel
place you on
a pedestal
just to tease you
release you
from the sky
I consume you
drag you
across the floor
disregard your feelings
leave you with scars
tell you I love you
only to break your heart
I consume you
your every action
at the mercy of my hands
I’m your puppet master
your body drives me mad
I consume you
Hide you
put you away
only I decide
when you come out to play
I own you
that will never change
I’m your puppet master
it’s me
that pulls these strings
I consume you
without me
you wouldn’t exist
your very existence
quenched between
the palms of my fists
thank God
I love you
regardless the
lifeless limbs
with no voice
you possess
for I’ll control you
you can trust me
I’ll always
have your back
I consume you
use you
like a host
my hands hosting
your motions
I breathe life through you
don’t you ever forget
I’m the master
your my puppet

To devote my life
to my son
To gaurantee
he will get
A COLLEGE DEGREE
and end this
Lifetime of pain
So for
future generations
to come
Possible future
Grandaughters
and
Grandsons
You will not suffer
at the hands
Of the ones
that love you the most
Because i decided
your Dad was the man
for the job
Because i decided
to choose love
Because the pain
I was dealt
Hurt me enough
to not give up
But to gaurantee
my loved ones
Will never
have to measure
to the pain
I WAS DEALT
THE PAIN I FELT
I WANT CONSTANT CHANGE
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION
TO BREAK THE CHAINS
OF THIS LIFE' S DEVIL
TO GIVE MY FAMILY
A FIGHTING CHANCE
let me live that long
let me sing that song
Let me achieve that goal
Let me save my future
SOULS
Forget my plans
forget me as a man
But please let me gain
A life without strain
A life with future brains
of being PURE

Created to create

Start your day with goals
remind youself of purpose
be prepared to win

Time ticks away
life ticks away
Until it all
comes to an
END

Neither seem
to bother me
Until i fall
back in love
AGAIN

PuRpOsE

I grasped life firmly,
but what is left to live for?
She destroyed my heart!

I grasped life firmly,
but what is left to live for?
She destroyed my heart!

Only one option
read or write, cannot be both.
Which one would you choose?

“Two heads are better than one“
“The more the merrier”

Are two heart halves better than one? Because I felt happier when it was one.

Mrs. Right well she’s gone

WRONG

Ms. right now
she’s here now

Right ?

I DON’T ******* KNOW

Who does ?

PLEASE TELL ME NOW

They both love me
but I’m at a loss one is ten years older, the other is much younger, one has no children! While the other has many that hate me! Who the **** deserves me ? Who the ****  do I ? Who the **** knows , I’m happy with her but I miss my lost love ! But she has kids that hate me ! I still mis her but is that SUSTAINABLE? I ask myself ?

Mrs. Right well she’s gone

WRONG

Ms. right now
she’s here now

Right ?

I DON’T ******* KNOW

Who does ?

PLEASE TELL ME NOW

They both love me
but I’m at a loss one is ten years older, the other is much younger, one has no children! While the other has many that hate me! Who the **** deserves me ? Who the ****  do I ? Who the **** knows , I’m happy with her but I miss my lost love ! But she has kids that hate me ! I still mis her but is that SUSTAINABLE? I ask myself ?

Permanent images inside my head
Permanent images outside my
skin
Permanent scars inside my
head
Permanent scars outside my skin  
Permanent issues inside my head
Permanent issues outside my
skin
Well that’s what they expect you to think
Well that’s what they expect you to see
Nothing in life inside or outside is ever permanent
Nothing in life inside or outside
can never be fixed
Permanent is permanently a lie amidst many words
Permanent is permanently an attempt to hold you back
Constantly keep growing and loving yourself
Constantly keep questioning
words with no hope
Such as : Permanent

Now you see it
now you don’t
ALCOHOL

The pain was there too
but now it’s not
DRUNK

But once the BUZZ wears OFF
the ALCOHOL IS GONE
but the PAIN is
STILL THERE
TRUTH

To rationalize
Or not
That is the question
When logic is lost
The cost
Normally
Paid in full
With regret
From threats
of you
It’s hard to always be
Right down the middle
All the time
When you live and love
Strictly off passion
It can become hard to be
RATIONAL
It’s not just
a mathematical term
Although you would see
How less quickly
Problems add up
When you can become one
With a rational mind
Now just like in math
Or just like life
Love included also
There is always times
That call for more
Than a simple recourse
Of a rational action
But those are
For sure
Few and far in between
The most important part
To ever remember
Is if you feel this way
To know it’ll be okay
As long as you don’t act
Or respond back
Irrationally
But rather rationalize
With the person or feelings of
Mention with the least amount of tension and without a doubt you will get further and a better result .......Rational

Weak people say perception is reality !

Strong people know reality is their perception !

Don’t follow me
I’m not a leader
my weaknesses feed into
ATTENTION
So please don’t feed
my insecurities with
your knowledge or past
EXPERIENCES
It’s just delaying
my ability to heal
and become myself
HEALTHY

Born a book with empty pages

Nurtured into loveless chapters

Raised into a book of terror

Escaped the book before the ending

Regardless what I do, I just can’t erase the summary of that story from before I became an adult

It’s a part of me that I can’t live without but rather have to accept in order to write on

So this new book will be filled with all my chosen words except for the intro

Because that’s who I was before
becoming the author of my life moving forward

TRANSFORMATION

You say I'm angry
But that's just not the case dear
You get what you give

You, one of many
You, only feel this way dear
They get what they give

"Put the same amount of time into life as you do the thoughts you write then call yourself a REAL LIFE POET!"(RG)

Words to seeds
as
mind to ground

green mouth - green thumb

Spoken to planted
as
they both are injected

Behavior to sunlight
as
actions to rain

Both become nurtured

Now sit back
and
watch them grow

insecurities or strength
healthy or unhealthy

Only the gardeners
know
what they planted

Spokane Washington
an ounce of **** from the dispensary $98

Grand Rapids Michigan
an ounce of **** from the dispensary $225

BOTH EQUAL THC LEVELS
LOCATION, LOCATION
LOCATION

What do YOU have
against ME
It only could be
WORDS
or lack of
My poetry is BOLD
I will not APOLOGIZE
for I SPEAK
from MY HEART
I could careless
if YOU follow ME
or not
But please dont
PRETEND TO BE
interested
LAME