Is diving through the ocean
One can only grasp in her dreams
Yet I find it within your eyes

I would close my eyes everytime,
So you didn't get to read between the line,
of how I turned into a broken vessel.

There are moment I just miss you,
Like then, like now, right here,
Where your presence is forever hidden,
I just miss you

Divided by oceans,
Separated by Heaven,
Your face hidden forever,
I just miss you

I loved you when you visited,
I loved you when you packed and left,
Even when you broke my heart,
I loved you

No! Wait,
How can love ever be in the past tense,
When it reside in the heart till forever?

I love you, I love you,
And endlessly, I love you
And if forever is a long time,
That's how I'll continue to love you,
With no expiry date.

Her veil were divided in between,
while she hid behind the curtain of shame,
walking through the street of frustrations,
while her eyes spoke volume of agony.

If only you learned to love me through my imperfections,
The affair of our hearts would have been perfected.

All I ever wanted
Was to love
And to be loved in return
Yet my wish was never granted

All I ever desired
Was to be a resident
In thy heart
Just as thou were in mine
Yet I became homeless

Every tears I shed
That needed thy comfort
Instead of a cloth you threw in my face
To wipe those salty water escaping
Yet you found it ****

Every hug I longed for
That you threw me a pillow
As if it can give me the warmth
I felt in thy chest
Yet you persuaded

Every kiss thy lips ached for
Just to take away the emptiness
I felt in thy presence
Even if it was just a touch and go
Yet I was denied

Every touch I yearned for
That you left unattended
As you closed that door
And handed down the note
Written " Be out of my apartment by 11h00"
Yet I waited for an apology

I lost myself in the process
While being treated as an option
Yet you continued to progress
Still I loved you yet I hated you

Love finally found me at ease,
Just the way I fall asleep,
When I close my eyes in a minute,
And find myself in the fantasy train within the next.

Perfect numbers, they say,
A symbol of divine life purpose
Came in with a thick breath of harmony,
As though everything is anew,
Yet the ocean within her eyes
Is still as deep as her yesterday thoughts,
Of becoming more richer, magical,
More kinder than she were last season.

He chose her
Before she was born
And placed the ink
In the finger tip of her hand

Inside Mama's womb
He commended thy hands open
And handed down a scroll
Which carried a pen

Thy words cometh out of thy heart
Shall pierce like a sharp sword He said
And In the palm of His hand
She was kept safely hidden
While her words blast like a pointed arrow

When she's happy,
she writes
When she's sad,
she writes
When she's hurt,
she writes
When she misses,
she writes
When there is no wink of sleep in the middle of the night,
she still get in touch with her ink and a paper

She has found her hiding palace,
in the hands of her beautiful black diary
She has found comfort,
in the fascinating creation of her pen
That exquisite glance she get everytime she get in touch with her writings,
gives her a new breeze out of nature
The feeling of having to express her feeling without judgement,
gives her new outlook on life
Words are her chariots
Inks are her swords
Writting is the stain in her veins

I looked upon the sunset meeting the moon
As I sat there on the other side of the road
Lost in a train of flashbacks that kept moving
For a decade and century without reaching a destination
And all I had was this pocket-sized mirror before I
With a reflection of myself and I upon it
But all she saw was a broken piece not braced for reconstruction

I'm gonna shut the world,
And just be on my own,
At times

Don't take it otherwise,
You are not at wrong,
It is all me

An introvert,
Who need to recharge,
Away from anyone

It is the radiant glow
We get when we grow
From the head to the toe
Like the sun set afterglow

To dwell on laments,
Which corrupt the mind,
Ingest the soul,
And effectuate aperture to the heart?

Laments that only breed,
lividity,
Anxiety,
Even trepidation?

Initiating self-condemnation,
While free holding probability to Rise beyond
                                                          ­   Move past
                                                            ­ And letting go?

I waited for you on the roadside
Under the umbrella shadow you made
And I lingered till the sun fade
Yet you never appeared

Yet nothing happened today

Either battles nor victories,
Compliment neither condemnation,
Not phone calls neither emails,
Of satisfactory news either unlawful,
Nothing of sadness either of happiness

Yet nothing happened today,
Hope whispered.

Till our eyes were ocean deep in the red sea
God knows we prayed
Till our bodies could no longer race against our heartbeat
God knows we prayed
Stood in the gap for the life of an amicable soul
As if we had the supernaturals to stop the universe
But still you said, "her day is done"

In the middle of the night
You strolled down the garden of Eden
With the angels singing holy holy
And picked up the most blossoming lilly
Of all the roses that were fading
Hand in hand shining like a piece of diamond
"Well done, well done" He said,
As He took her home, her eternal home