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TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
How is it that a girl who had never sung
a note through high school, but played the
drums as well, or better, than the best drummers
in the world, started singing, and almost
instantly became what Paul McCartney called
the most beautiful voice on Earth? It is a
miracle and a mystery.

Karen Carpenter was this girl. A drummer,
and one of the best drummers in the world?
And then, seemingly when she opened her
mouth, instantly to have the most beautiful
voice on Earth? But it's all true. Ask Paul
McCartney if you don't believe me.

And anorexia nervosa, which killed her
when she was barely in her early 30s?
When I think of Karen and her early death,
I see a meteor in the night sky flying by
for just a few seconds, wondrous, breath-
taking, then gone. But I have this glorious
streak on videos and watch and listen to
them over and over and over again.

Where did she come from and where did
she go, so fleetingly, so dazzlingly? I shall
never know the answers to these questions,
nor, I'm afraid, will anyone else.
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
WE ALL ARE HERE FOR A SHORT WHILE

We all are here for a short while.

We spend roughly the first 20 years
growing up. Then we spend the next
40 years or so living basically the core
of our adult life:  marriage, kids, family,
career. The last 20, 30 years we go
fishing, read a lot of books, maybe
play poker Thursday nights. Then we
die:  cancer, heart attack, dementia,
whatever.

Life is a lot like grocery shopping, finding
a place to park, getting a shopping cart
whose wheels work, going up and down
the aisles, hoping to find the things we
want, getting in a long line to check out,
hoping we brought the coupons so we could
save a little money. If we’re lucky, we get
a high-school boy to help carry our sacks
out to the car.

We all are here for a short while.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
PLACES IN THE HEART

I believe in royalty.

So one thinks of King, Queen,
Prince, Princess, Duke, Duchess,
Marquess, Marchioness, Earl,
Countess, Viscount, Viscountess,
Baron, Baroness.

But none of the above is
royalty I would ever bow to.
In fact, all, by their titles, are
charlatans.

I believe every member of the
human race is royalty. Royalty
has nothing to do with blood
lines and crowns.

Places in the heart that every
human being has, not palaces,
are the provenance of royalty. I
bow only to the regal, all my fellow
human beings on Earth.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
THE BUS TO SATURDAY MORNINGS

Nannie and I would grab our empty “TV”  milk
cartons and run to the bus stop up the hill.
Soon the bus would get there and we would
get on. We would sit up front. Not many were
on the bus Saturday morning. We were on
our way downtown to see a Tom Mix movie.
If you had an empty “TV” milk carton, you
could get in free. Often, but not always, we
had the same bus driver. He was an old man
who, for some reason, knew that Nannie and
I were the children of Rae Antoinette Tod, the
granddaughter of W. J. Tod, the rich and fa-
mous founder of the Tod Ranch, the famous
cattle ranch just outside Maple Hill, Kansas,
about 18 miles west of Topeka where Nannie
and I grew up. Maple Hill essentially was where
the lush, rolling Flint Hills began, some, if not
the best, cattle-raising country in the world.
Nannie and I would chat with this old bus
driver as we made our way downtown. This
old man would tell us of the days when he
had worked as a young cattle hand on the
Tod Ranch. He would always talk about W. J.,
our great-grandfather. He would always tell
us what a great, kind man he was to everybody
who worked for him on his ranch. But never
once did the old bus driver mention how rich
and famous W. J. had been. He never men-
tioned that W. J. had become president of
The National Livestock Association, for ex-
ample. The old bus driver talked only about
how W. J. treated all who worked on the Tod
Ranch, even the cowhands, who the old bus
driver was once one of. I have never forgot-
ten what the old bus driver repeatedly had
told us about our great-grandfather, and
even as a boy, I realized then that I wanted
to be like my great-grandfather had been,
not rich and famous, but much, much more
importantly, kind and respectful to all.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
Love is my religion. Miracles don't matter.
Life itself is a miracle. The whole universe
is a miracle, and every creation in it is, too.
Jesus didn't tell those who gathered round
him how to get rich. He told them to love
one another. One can only give what one
has received. When one has been loved by
another, that is a miracle. And when the
one who has been loved loves another,
that is another miracle. This is the spiritual
concatenation we need now. There is only
one Supreme Being of the infinite universe,
even though different groups of human
beings around the world call the same
Supreme Being a different name. Don't
you get it? Don't you see the big picture?
We all are creations of the same Supreme
Being. Get it?! We, all creations through-
out the infinite universe, are in this to-
gether. And yet we **** each other. We
even are killing Earth where all of us
live, the only home we have. Love is
our only hope. Love is our only salva-
tion. Every creation is connected to all
others. Get it? Geopolitics among over
200 nations is not the answer, is not the
solution. Love is not only my religion:
It is our only solution for the survival
of all living creations on Earth.  

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
THE BEGINNING AND THE END

How do we know the beginning
from the end?  How do we de-
marcate one from the other? Are
they not, in fact, a continuum?
Is it possible there is no beginning
and there is no end? Is it not true
that the end is often also the begin-
ning? Is not the differentiation we
make between the two often arbitrary,
capricious? When do we begin and
and when do we end? What is the
most propitious moment and mark
to do one or the other, or both? Is
it better to ascertain what we deem
to be the middle ground and hold
that position, or are all points illusory?
How do we ever know for sure
where the beginning begins and
the end ends? Maybe it is simply
better, in the beginning and in the
end, just to be.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia  College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate for his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
TOD HOWARD HAWKS Jan 2020
WE ARE LIKE TREES

We are like trees. When a seed
of an oak tree is placed in earth
and given water, then light, the
life of that oak tree begins. When
a ***** enters an ****, the life
of a human being begins;  all
other arguments are specious.
Both need special care. Given
that care, the oak seed will sprout
from the earth and continue to
grow. The human embryo needs
nine months in the womb before
it will be put into a nursery. The oak
sprout will, most likely, need to
be in a nursery from its conception.
If cared for, both the tiny, tiny tree
and the tiny, tiny human being
will grow bigger. The key is care,
and the caring is love. Over years,
decades, both will grow larger and
stronger. Both will face illnesses,
and in the vast majority of cases,
will survive them. Trees will show
leaves, grow bark, provide shade
and beauty, even as they grow
their own seeds. Human beings
will learn more and more as they
grow older and older. Trees will
let robins and squirrels make
their homes in them. Human
beings will grow compassionate
and wise;  many will shepherd in
new life to care for. Both will grow
old, but before they die, they will
look back on their lives and remem-
ber the love they themselves en-
joyed and shared with each other.

Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He recently finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.
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