on this night again i shed many tears.......after that i drank one too many beers
i guess its because of the feelings i still feel for you.....and you know you are the only one this i know to be true  
the pain inside it still hurts so much......the weakness i feel right now is too much to handle.....my heart it is ready for dismantle
for now i am sure that my arms are ready to hold you tight once more.......my head would be held so high i think my feet would never again touch the floor

i guess there is a moral to this story.....that my love for you it will never die......not even when i am gone and my spirit it does fly.

As I look deeply into your beautiful eyes....all I see is the gorgeous moonlit skies
When I touch your silky smooth skin......it leaves me breathless with a childish grin
Late at night when I close them tight and slip off into dreamland..........all I see is you and I walking through the garden of  Eden hand and hand
When I wake the smile that it left is still on my face........and the hurt and the pain has disappeared without a trace.

I am your superman .......and my love for you is like kryptonite......try to get away but the pull is to strong.....it makes me weak in the knees and it lights up my life so why should I fight
You will always be my Lois lane.......it matters not that I am left in so much pain

The sun again will shine it's light on me....because of this the greatest of love will return to thee
The darkness will never cover me again.....forever this light will be the brightest as it has ever been.

I love you so much I can't even sleep.....it comes from within my heart so deep
The pain I feel it is just too much.....it hurts so bad because it is your skin I want to touch
When I think of you the tears start to fall.....the pain is so deep I stumble then crawl
The warmth of your body close to mine.......when we were together the sun would always shine
I love and I miss you oh so much.....never in my life have I had feelings like such
You are in my head and in my dreams.....forever and ever so it seems
There is so much that I miss about you ......a love like this I could never forget I know it will last a lifetime this much is true

In my head life is beautiful and there is no end......there are no wars and there are no bills to send
In my head it is just you and I .....beautiful weather as we walk hand and hand as we walk through the sand under the moonlit sky
In my head we are so in love .......but when I snap out of it and open my eyes ....and I see there is no you I would rather be dead.

The words to that song it pulls on my heartstrings.........the lyrics and the beat and I love the joy it brings
It plays over in my head the perfect words and sweetest melodies......just one word and I will be yours to please
Just choose wisely my princess.....this was made just us and it's with our love that's why it's a big success
So when you hear it play look to the stars and I will be there......our love makes the world spin and with it you will never have to fear.

you think i forgot you this is not true......you think i can't still love you but i definitly do
missing you more with each passing day.......time cannot change the way i feel that's what i needed to say
the way that i feel i will not hide........i hold my head high when i think of you inside
do you remember how we felt together.......as we said we would stay forever
your blood forever flows in my veins.......it is not being beside you is why my heart it pains

The hand of God has come down and taken another one from me....my dear brother your time had come you were tired and in need to be free
Now you are in paradise with Dad and Mom and our dear sister.....rest well Oh brother of mine your soul will still be here and no more pain or fear
I will be there with you guys when my time comes....but right now the world needs me ...strength inside I must bring to all that needs so the light they will see

I spend the holidays with tears in my eyes.....this year it is under blood red skies
You know I walk this path all alone.......I don't know how I can deal with all this pain on my own
This constant feeling is like a knife piercing my heart......and it all has my life falling apart
On the outside I look like I am doing just fine.....but on the inside it's like the pain is breaking my spine
The light at the end of the tunnel it must be out there somewhere
I was not meant to walk this earth alone......there is no woman that shall stand  beside me....except her....this is all that i prefer
the life i live is my own ........for without her hand i shall stand alone.

The door I had a chance of reaching.....the lessons that she was teaching
It has all settled in my head....it makes sense with all that was said
The love that I had and still do is standing strong.....it is time I show that I do belong...for the silence can be no more .....this is my stand and I am sure...for this love will never fade....forever this is  my will and the last  vows I have made.

The rain it falls but somehow I am dry....thoughts in my head as I wonder why
It was tears from my eyes that made it rain it was not water from the sky
The pain inside is why I do......even when the skies are blue.

In her eyes is a beautiful sunrise.....in her heart the angels spirit flies
For her beauty not only is it on the outside .......but does flourish from deep within.....it took my blindness much to long to see.....for in my heart she is the only one who holds the key.

The feel of her skin the sweetness of her lips......the feeling of my hands on her hips.....being without her i just can't come to grips
She was my life and she still is.....always in my heart she still lives
A song played just the other day......and it all came back to me in a big way
The love I have for her there is no compare....and the way I feel is crystal clear
My life and love I will never give up on her .....to have her back it will always be on my mind.....never in my life a greater love will I find.

The more I thought I could care less if she lived or died......I knew in my mind I told one last and worst lie
This woman that I spoke of is the girl of my dream...and if you listen closely late at night you could here her name I still scream
The night she left my whole world disappeared.......and to tell the truth it was the worst I have ever feared
At night I sit outside..... and pray to the moon and stars that her and I could take together just one more ride.

The life that I have now and the one that I should have are close to one of the same.......it's just the woman in it I have not to mention a name
She is my soulmate and my destiny.......and in the words of the lord it was meant to be
I wait till the sun sets and rises a million times for this woman I speak of......for it was written from the heavens above
Real and true love need no words and I know she feels it too.......and the the whole world knows it's true
This may be the last time I write of this subject but the universe is taking control of this......the least I want or need to see her face and one more kiss
In life there is only one true love love made for each of us.......and in my mind and in my heart I know that we are one....and from my voice there are no words to discuss
Her and her family mean everything in the world to me......as soon as the next full moon the whole world will see.....

Again in love did I fall for her......that sparkle I did see within those eyes ...the smile that captivated me...... it did it again .....just like remember when
Her beauty it is deep within .....not just on the outside.....for years it has kept me mystified
For it was in the dream I had about her last night......the stars were in full affect and Oh so bright
This woman is not just a past love but a part of me.......not only when I close my eyes it's when they open I can see
To be back in her world this is just not what I want for it is our destiny .....she might not be aware of this but it is how it supposed to be
For it was written in the stars along time ago......we must give it another chance to grow.
The memories come back from time to time.......and the tears fill my eyes and for this I must rhyme
My eyes look old and weary from all these tears........my love for her has been growing for years
I hope I find out soon what becomes of it all the bad things that have been said by people on the out side......there is no way it would ever change the tide
This woman that changed my life forever .......she is still in and to leave my mind she will never
If and when she does return......all the lessons she taught me she will learn.

I try to listen with my ears but the only sound I hear is that of silence......I try to see but my eyes there is no vision....in my head it makes no sense
The light of love is within my heart......but to see this you must feel it and of you it must be a part
That light that once was shining so bright has gotten a bit dim....this is why I must relight the fire in my heart deep within
I know this light of love in my heart will regain its power.......I know if we work together we can rebuild this tower
If you look deep within my heart the love light that lives inside will be bright once more and this will happen before we are knocking on heavens door...

I said I am moving like a freight train....but I am trying not to go insane
Although I am in so much pain...I am still moving like a freight train
My love for her is so intense......I sit and to all of it I try to make sense
But I am still moving like a freight train .....trying to keep from giving insane
The pain I am in cuz I miss her so much.......and with reality I still lose touch
But I am still moving like a freight train.....maybe I am better off taking a jet plane.
This woman and the world I try to live in.....they are both always in my head.....and always remind me where I have been
But here I am still moving like a freight train.......but I am still trying to keep from going insane..
Everyday and night my life has got me going from left to right.....I keep falling but I won't stay down.....I refuse to walk through it always wearing this frown
But again here I am moving like a freight train...and trying to no end to keep from going insane
......(talk ) as long as this train keeps going strong ..I will always remember right from wrong
Because I am moving like a freight train.....and who knows if I will ever go insane.

Yes I think of her everyday.....yes I want her in every way
She lives in my dreams......she is and always be a part of me so it seems
I feel her by my side......her warmth is with me deep inside
This I cannot escape.....and as I think I love the feeling everyday I wear it like a cape
As I think of the many in the past .......no one had the power of the spell on me that she has cast
The love that I still hold for this woman could not be matched.....it is as if my thought of any other woman from my mind has been snatched
The story from which my poems have been written are all true......but my feelings for her will never be through
I will work hard and pray for the rest of my life to have her again by my side......it will be together into the sunset we will ride

Look under your coffee cup sweetie I left you a note to make you smile.......hopefully it will keep it there for a little while
I love to leave you messages and tell you how I feel......I know deep in your heart you know this is all real
To say I love you and that I care....to not say anything it just wouldn't be fair
These notes that I  leave they come from the heart .....and you better believe they have right from the very start
Now I leave you with this note to say how this love I will always have deep inside....I wrote it with a smile upon my face I hope it does the same for you ......because on these notes it comes with love and I hope you know my feelings are true.

I look for signs search for clues ...reach for the stars and try to find the light....the world right now seems so dark I look for answers to if I should give up this fight
I need the love I used to have in order to keep me alive......but it seems that there are no doors all walls....so how do I survive
I grow weary from trying to understand what is going on.......one minute I had everything and then in less than that it was all gone
The light was all gone only darkness fell upon me......so now I am where I should not be
The tears I can no longer cry.....for my hands they can not reach for the sky
I feel like I am in chains and can move no more
How did....or why did this all happen to me......the light my eyes can no longer see
I must somehow break this chain.....and release myself from this life of pain
Deep inside I know the light will once again shine down on me.....so I must continue to fight and reopen my eyes so the light I shall see.

She was my best friend....she will be that until the end ...at least in my eyes
Each night I do pray and hope that she is ok......I think of her each and every day
This woman she put a spell on me.....it's one that works on only me
Never in my life have I met such a woman that posses this kind of power....I will always be here for her until the final hour
It has been the longest minute since I have even seen her face.....but even when I think of her my mind and heart races to outer space
I have been with woman but none like her....when I was by her side there was nothing else that was better that life could offer
So I write this poem to tell her my words of love .....because I know that God sent her to me from the skies above
So as I walk my life path alone I still feel the warmth of her touch....I so miss that heat from her body oh so much
I look to the sky and that falling star......and make a wish and send my love to her from afar
I put my hands together and kneel down on the ground.....she is the fairest maiden I have ever found
I will search the world forever to find her once more .......I know she is the Angel that flies where eagles soar
I know my life will Never be the same .....now that I have learned to play life's little game.

I miss those nights cuddling up to our favorite shows......eating peanut butter M&M's and you picking things up with your toes
I miss those Sunday drives to Home Depot and BreaKfast at IHOP and getting dinner at Stop & Shop
Laughing and joking with you while we listen to our favorite songs.......i miss putting my arms around you while we sleep just so I can feel you breathe.....I miss the love we had for each other and the smile on your face and sparkle in your eyes.......waking up each morning for work watching you sleep was more precious then the clear blue skies
At night when I close my eyes only for a minute and again I am holding you tight .......and in my dreams we will be together again .....I fear not to open my eyes .....because in my heart I know where our destiny lies.....but on this night my eyes I will keep them shut ...for in my dreams there is no end .....so tonight my princess when you close your eyes remember forever and a day ....my love to you I send.
And baby even though we have been apart I can still find your smell on my clothes and on my skin......and the love I have for you the fire it still burns within
You will always be in my heart and my soul..and be a part of me.......and to my heart you will always hold the key.

Why did I listen.....to her words from those lips.....because the love I have for her had my heart doing backflips
Why did I get lost in her eyes......because her beauty had me mesmerized
My life was a poem I forgot to write.....the road got a little bumpy so I had to hold on tight
Was this love true or was it all a lie......but if it was why did we both cry
If what I heard is true this love it will return.....and when it does I will be ready to tell her all the lessons I have learned
Both of our hearts were broken .....but now they are on the mend......if this is our destiny .....our life and love together we must not make pretend.

It wasn't the first time..and it won't be the last........my love for you is still strong and it's not fading and that magic spell was cast
Its a story that has no end........the power of it all .....you must not pretend
I know in your heart you feel the same.......I will get you back so you can carry my name
The sun will rise and it's light will shine bright........you and I together again .....and in my arms I will be holding you tight.

I have been walking down the longest road that I have ever been on in my life......but the time has come to stop and smell the roses and put an end to all my strife
In one minute I lost it all my mother....sister...and the only true love I have ever had.......but now as I stand tall I am through with being sad
Been so long since I've seen her gentle smile......you know what for that smile I would still walk the longest mile
All the tears I have cried .....and the new romances I have tried
I still remember that she was the one......and with her is the only time I have fun.....
I will try to move on but I will not ever give up because I was meant to be with this one woman and this is what I feel deep down in my soul......And for the rest of this long and winding road and it is always something I can control...I believe in true love and in destiny ..........and this is it not only can I  feel but I can see.

Hey you know it has been a little while.....since I have seen that beautiful smile
I just stopped in the middle of nowhere and stared into space......and I realized how much I miss you .....and without you this world I just no longer want to face
The times we spent together ....I mean every single minute ....I will always cherish......every minute ...hour ..day...until I perish
One day I will get you back in my arms where you belong.......but for now I must move things on and be strong
Every night when I am sitting on the back porch staring straight into the moon......my heart and soul tell me that our paths will be as one again and soon.....baby remember these words I  say now to you.......forever and a day I will always love and be there for you......and I know for a fact that you and I both know this to be true.

The light that was within my eyes in no longer lit........so how much time without my love must I sit
From dusk till dawn I lay in wait......for it is in gods hands to reveal my fate.

Deep into the night when you are fast asleep......if you listen real close you may hear someone weep
Its dark and cold I think it is in the spring.......the only sound out there is that of which the sirens bring
My eyes are wide open I barely ever sleep......this feeling in my heart it is very deep
She must be on my mind for my eyes they will not close.......I try to let go but the love in my heart it still grows
I try to strip my mind of all the thoughts I hold.......if I can find this love again it would be worth more than gold
The time I had on this trip I would never regret ........what we spent together I  will never forget
To turn back time I wish I could.......I'd do everything better and treat her the way I should
So the clock it ticks and the dreams they fade.......why the hell did it have to rain on my parade
The darkness falls and the doors they close......all the memories in my mind they froze
And there they will always stay under lock and key.........if and when love comes knocking again I will just smile and let it be.

Since she left me...Now.. I am a much better man and I want her back.....I have been stuck in a place where I don't want to be.....better places on the horizon that I can't reach but I can see
I want to get out and be happy once again...with her by my side...she is the only soul which I can confide
The life that I want to live is within reach ......I have learned all the lessons that she wanted to teach
Time has passed but my feelings of love that I have for her are still in my heart.....and I do believe in Destiny and a brand new start
I will dig down deep and follow the light......it is the way out there is no need to fight
I changed in so many ways all for the good......just for this I will do every thing I should
This vortex that I am stuck in is just a state of mind....so the beauty in life I will finally find.

It has been years since the grim reaper had his claws in me.....from now on that is the way it will always be
As I look back at my life years ago......there were a few people that I should have never let go....but believe me he was not one of them
Right as I was at the depths of Hell......while I was still captivated by her spell
I was much too strong for I broke free...but the damage was done my love she had to flee
The reaper shall never invade my space anymore.......but if he does this time I will be ready for sure.

She was the smile that left my face.....she was the beat within my heart that disappeared without a trace
She was the light within my soul.......she was my strength when I was losing control
One last time our lips must touch
Because their sweetness I do miss so much
Although we are apart maybe forever .....I will always cherish our time together

For I know now that I must just let her go.....but how do I do this I don't know
....For She was and still is the love of my life
I want to let her know I will be here and if she ever needs me no matter the problem big or small.....she must get to that phone pick it up and call...no matter if it's day or night no matter what time at all
I will be there ....I will get there to help you baby in your time of need...that's how much I love you ...if I am with someone or in work or in bed cause it's 2am it don't matter I will be there..and I think you know this to be true.......all my life I waited for a girl like you ...and when I finally had you I blew it ......plain and simple I ******* it up big time.....I will spend the rest of my days remembering our time together.....and yes baby I will forever ...if I must now move on...take a deep breath and accept that you are gone...it will not be easy but this I must do
I will never look back at our time together with any regret .....and that sparkle in your eyes and that smile on your face I will NEVER forget
So my little princess sleep well every night......and remember what I tell you now and know I will be your guiding light
I will always be here and will never be far from you......
For I know when I lost you so were gone were my feelings for love .......because I know baby you were sent to me from above ....to take care of me and ease all of my pain......you did all that and so much more ......I could have fixed it all before you showed me the door..
I can't say that I won't write anymore ....but it will not be for a bit that's for sure
The last words that I say right now....I will always love you and to love someone else as I loved you I don't think I could know how
No matter what happens the love I have for you shall live in my heart and the memories in my head......and they all will stay with me till long after I am dead.

The reason for these tears I don't really know.......but I have a great guess .....it's because I must let go

My life I must reinvent.....I try as hard as I can to understand it all .....and still cannot feel content
As sure as I am that no longer do my demons control me......I still feel stuck and can't move.....I have to let go of this feeling and get my life to improve
I believe that if I do begin to look deep inside of my soul.......then my life I will finally take control
For the one I want to live is still possible.......because if you believe then any bridge is crossable

With my mind I will listen...for my heart cannot speak......my love for you shall continue .....but to pursue I grow too weak....

The road has been long and winding.....and my feelings through it all have been spellbinding
Been through so much that I just don't know how much more I can take........And believe me none of this stuff is fake...I could never make it up
My life and my love ....but there is only one
The love I have for this woman there is no equal.....and believe me if I have any say in it there will be a sequel
I love her and I will hide my feelings no longer.....and everyday I get stronger
And by her side I will do anything to be the man she wants me to be.....but you know why...because this woman means more to me than anything on earth and my feelings I  will not be shy.
If and when I am back by her side I will do everything for her and us to keep us together and help me and us forever.
For us we were meant to be...and I want her and the world to know the words I speak now will be the key.
The reason I am still here .....is to show her that I truly care
When I leave this earth I will be by her side....and prove to her that we were always soul mates inside.

Without these eyes I could not see .....without this tongue I could not speak......for years and years for what wisdom did I seek
Without my hands I could not touch her skin........and without my mind I could feel her within.......
Without her I think of so many things....without my senses to be without her I could not feel how my heart it stings
For there was a lesson and I learned it well.....it was because her love had me trapped in a cell....and I could not believe how hard I fell.......and in time there will be a lot more of the story to tell.....

I will never give up on the one love as long as I live....I know she still loves me and I have so much more to give
We were meant to together this much I know......baby give me a little more time i have so much to show
You thought it was good before ......let's take the the chance I can show you so much more
I feel the love we have for each other everyday .I see the signs they are before my eyes.....they are for real no more lies
I know you and I and tomorrow is ours ......for with the love we have no one can break these towers
It was etched in stone high in the mountains ......and when we first met it was set in motion....hell when your eyes met mine there was no need for love potion
And when our first touch was finally made.....God had told us it would never fade.
So when we return and look into each others eyes .......the fireworks will again go off in the summer skies
For it written that next time our eyes do meet the only sound we will hear is that of a heat beat it will not be yours nor will it be mine......it will be both because we will beat as one and the universe will tell us that our love will have won the test of time.

These tears that I cry......the stars that fill the sky
My heart that continues to break...
The scars that I can no longer fake
My wishes that never come true.....and my soul that is black and blue
One day it will all turn around.......hopefully before they put me in the ground
My heart and soul I  do give......and I shall as long as I live
The pain I must go through......these wrongs I must undue
This love I do endure........the love I have for her there is no cure
Forever must I weep.......I dream of her each night I sleep
The laughter that was always around.....and the cries that never made a sound
The sun will never set...as it will never rise....unless our love takes off the disquise

I think I've cried over a million tears......it's more than ever in all my years
The day I lost you I will never forget.....it's one last kiss is my biggest regret
Maybe it's better because all of the pain.....forever my love the tears will fall like rain....