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Aug 2020 · 80
starchild Aug 2020
Floating threw the universe now
painfully passing threw the destruction of the world
the only thing i'm tied to now is him
Aug 2019 · 156
What's Wrong With Me?
starchild Aug 2019
Some say I'm not the same
maybe I have changed
I used to be able to tell
used to be able to know
what's wrong with me...?

Is it my face? Or my hair,
maybe my eyes do not glow
it's cause my frown doesn't show
I'm not good at my grades
but I am at the stage
I know how to act every day

I may not be beautiful
i may not be smart,
but I love them
I love you
why isn't that enough?

You say it's on me
if I explode
from the lies that I've said
to spare my sickness from your head,
and it is said it's my fault
if I end up dead

what is wrong with me!?
why do I think these thoughts
what is wrong with me?
why am I so distraught
i know I'm not special
i know I'm not alone
then why do I feel so cold?

It's on me,
they don't understand
it's my fault,
that they want me to frown
it's my fault,
less guilt on their crowns
that they want me to be happy
when they are happy
to lighten
to be ok
why are they
so two faced

But still.. it's not all of them
they are loving
they are kind
they could understand,
but I only wish
that they could see
that the pain that's in me
isn't for them
to feel

And i get it all
i've understood it all
overthought it all
every moment
every motion
all the pain
that I cannot share
there is to much I know
for me to show

You may think not
you'll pass this without a care
but just so you know
I will keep on smiling
i'll keep hiding
till you are merry
and if not
I still don't know

What's wrong with me...
Jul 2019 · 112
Fairy Tale Fixture
starchild Jul 2019
Close your eyes,
pretend to fly

But, somehow, your not
pretending anymore
once the darkness glazed over,
it becomes real,
you swim in the
clouds and glowing yellow sky
the cool, cold, but warm air
fills and surrounds your soul
replacing the emptiness,

And now you realize,
this is reality
this is your dream
your capable of smashing all
things your expected to be,
because this is your fairy tale dream

The beautiful sky
that your free to fly,
now it's water,
you float upon it's calm surface
just above the darkness that
intends to swallow you
but it doesn't.
it's so calm the water reflects
the stars above, my friends,
this is the calm before every storm,
the quiet voice before the trailed, de-railed, echo
and despite the seas promise not to pull you into darkness, it does,

This is my home, the sea keeps me captive in it's darkness, my only light is my night sky
but this, is even worse
the monsters that lurk here
mock me, for being here and not even in reach of my light, my illuminant, Night Sky

I'm trapped here, but this is a dream isn't it? Yes... No
but I'm not really here, so yes, I've been told I go around as a hypocrite, by people whom I try to help, people who figure out why I'm so good with other people's seas of darkness and lurking, mocking, monsters, is because I hide my own. I dream my own.

This is no cry for help,
I'm not some ticking time bomb
ready to start the next world war,
no.. I do what others cant,
what psychologists and beruocrats cant stand to hear,
Is I put others dark ocean of emotion, before my own
I'm capable of understanding
and standing under others judgemental tries, because I'm more, your more, then reality

If you truly are more
then this world full
of people who believe
that others pain
is some sort of joke,
You know,
You already have an
of the full picture
you have a understanding
that not only do I bottle my
pain so I am capable
of mending others happy endings
But because I can't open up
because it's to much
and I'd rather it inside me then others
Because I love so many others
I can't,
and this may seem like some rant,
Some poorly organized throw up
of emotion on a digital page
but this is my ocean
this is my sea
this is my illuminant sea life
reminding me how I can't have
Real stars
So I become others
Fairy Tale Fixture
#Rant #FairyTales #Understanding #Breath #Smile
Jul 2019 · 165
Love, Nobody
starchild Jul 2019
Titles are meaning
deeper, the title
brighter, the title,
GREATER, the title
the more views one gets
the more likes or attention
ones creation gets
most of the time

I'd love for someone to notice these
someone to hear their pleas
Like I do
my creations
my words
And my understanding
doesn't just come from my heart,
it comes from theirs to...

I feel it all
and some may just say I'm edgy
the darkness may seem sketchy
but one would only believe that
if they haven't experienced pain
From another

And those others
the others...
are becoming opinionated
and offended
And are starting to say
like I did, on the sixth year, and bad day

But when did I...?
Become nobody
#Nobody  #Love #Here #Breathe #SMILE  #;
May 2019 · 120
Im back in multiple reals
starchild May 2019
Guess i'm back
i am sorry
i really lacked
from insanity
thinking 'Why?'
for quite some time
i should've listened
but at least i'm better
better understanding
better at looking
better at surviving
better me

I may be overthought
maybe over thinking
overthinking constantly
gave me understanding
but the slight anxiety
and apathy
i didn't care
they didn't
In multiple reality's

It may take time
to revive
what once followed
but does it matter?
As long as the thoughts flood
and the tears fall
across my soul
i will live
in multiple reality's
Nov 2018 · 124
Words Untold in a Mason Jar
starchild Nov 2018
Its not good mentally
i was never good,
but too fail so much
it explains why i lack,
i keep it in
because i know how much words can hurt
knowing that
i know how much emotions hurt.
the words fine
and ok
and 'yeah.. just tired,'
can hide so much,

And why do i play this game,
it doesn't count as lieing
it is hiding,
not out of cowardice but out of
How one is hurting from an arrow in their back
as another walks up too them and asks,
'Are you ok?'
because they care
because they realize everyone has pain.
but nobody realizes
that the person who asked,
'Are you ok?'
Has a multitude of arrows in their back

But it doesn't matter
for women and men,
we each have the same sized ladder to climb
but the people in between
that can see past the stereotypical remarks,
and bullying of all kinds
past their pain,
to make others laugh,
..and smile...

It doesn't matter,
who you are
why you do things
what you look like.
we all have pain
but some will keep it locked up
bottle it up in a jar
that will never break,
so they can mend the wandering
broken hearts of this world.
But sometimes they can be misunderstood,
because they smile in a world filled with frowns
but their only misunderstood,  

Because of their untold words
that lye with the pain
and sadness
that lye's
in their mason jar, heart
Oct 2018 · 248
starchild Oct 2018
Choice is a funny thing
people think one thing is a choice
but sometimes it isn't
success isn't always a choice
i mean, you cant always choose to work hard
sometimes people cant
not because their lazy
usually because their exhausted
from fighting their way threw each day

sometimes trust is a choice
you can choose to trust someone
but its like a roller coaster
up and down
along for the ride
but choose the right person
and its like a marry-go-round
yes, you may be going in circles
but its nice
and slow
with the joyful colors
and lights to brighten the ride

But trust is also funny
its a multiple way street
when trust begins to break
its weird
because you can never
ever, begin to understand the full story
were all misunderstood pieces in a game
you can assume one thing of a person to believe true
but when the true story comes too pass
its false

But its too late now,
you forgot the one important thing
your parents told you as a child
before sending you off too kindergarten
don't... judge a book by its cover.
because its funny what a smile can hide
on the outside is the bright carnival of delight
the wonderful spin of colors, lights,
and fun prancing ponies on a poll

But like an eclipse...!?
its one thing in front
but another behind

the true pain
lying within
and its sad
because we see one thing on the outside
but when you do something
to someone
or say something
to someone
you never know

What is hurting them on the inside
Oct 2018 · 116
Caring Uncruel World
starchild Oct 2018
How many of you have a best friend!?...

What makes them your best friend..!?

Do any of you have someone who accepts you!?..

Do any of you have someone to go to...!?

Do you accept anyone...!?... and everyone!?

Tell you what.... They accept you.
you can be yourself
you can go to them

Do you feel safe at school!?
Of course you don't!
Because people Judge
and people are cruel and aren't accepting

Accept... And care
My dream... a accepting world. with accepting people.
Jul 2018 · 171
TrY nOt ToO cRiNgE
starchild Jul 2018
Just scroll down this profile page......      
you'll see only my poems are cringed,
Jul 2018 · 189
Fire AnD Color
starchild Jul 2018
I haven't written in awhile                      
I haven't ryhmed,
for quite some time
as I sat there on the roof
fire works in all colors,

A flash of blue,
then a flash of yellow
next is red and green
all in different patterns
all in different shapes
all.... In different, emotions

And to watch this,
this colorful phenomena  
all the while knowing,
it's potential for destruction

All the while knowing,
... That things that have been burned. Are still beautiful...
May 2018 · 171
Increase in Love
starchild May 2018
We've been back together
past a full month
last time was six
now were loving each other more each day
my heart laced with her love
my happiness returned to stay
and i see my heart in her hand
and hers in mine
A little short....
Apr 2018 · 179
starchild Apr 2018
Hope that the new life will be good!
That's what the bunny symbolizes
combing through each little house
leaving a basket

But what little peter cotton tail really is leaving for you
Its isn't chocolate treats or presents galore
Its hope for every boy and girl
Hope that by the end of the day
done with the fun and endless egg hunts
making the dull white eggs
colored with fun and joy

But not everyone's holiday
is this way
some is full of sadness
and loneliness
but even for those who don't have what others have
still can enjoy this holiday

For the Easter Bunny will leave you a little hope in your basket
will leave you hope anywhere you go
for this fun day
is for you to stay
have fun
And smile
and laugh awhile

Even for those who know he ain't real
(Ssssshhhhh) I still believe
All you have to do is believe
For peter is always there on this day and tommorow
To cure your sorrow

So be happy
have fun
And include those who aren't having as much fun
make everyone else's day while you make yours
for smiles laughter
Is the greatest cure
Have a great Easter!
Mar 2018 · 178
LoVe conqures AlL
starchild Mar 2018
I don't think you'll ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
Or how youve opened up my heart
To things like love, and the wonders it can do

The threat I thought that horrified me
Obliterated infront of my eyes
for love is the most powerful thing
wait for it to bloom
Mar 2018 · 156
Sad Song
starchild Mar 2018
Whats is the worst fear of all?
everyone one fears something
the dark
tight spaces

What do you fear?
well ill tell you mine!
its the worst fear of all
Thinking you dont know how to love
the one you love the most

since ive believed my whole life
that no one could love me
i loved no body
And now....
i love somebody

I dont know how to say it
I dont know how to show it
and now that love could be in jepardy
im afraid that someone might be able to show her love
better then me

and i love her whith all my heart
and all my being
its just showing it?
giving it to her
no matter how much i want to?
im horrible at love

but i will fight for her
i would **** for her
now that i can show!

but the worst fear of all?
is losing the love you love the most
.......Its a sad song....
Mar 2018 · 155
Music Box
starchild Mar 2018
I felt empty
I felt alone
i was gone

I felt horrible of what i did
i left her alone

so i gave her this music box
everytime i twisted that little ***
the music played
and all the memories i have of her

Flooded through the wooden base
the glass case
the flower
and most of all
the music
will never leave her alone

She just has to twist the ***
and ill always be there for her
as the lyric from my heart poor's
and im always with her

The music will never leave her alone
Mar 2018 · 209
My heart In A eMpTy sHeLl
starchild Mar 2018
I d
               know what to say
                I d
                             know what to do
                                                         I feel helpless
                              I feel empty

And all i K N O W                     is that

                                        I M  H E R E  F O R  Y O U
I love someone. And she has no idea how much i love her.... a big problem we all face. I just wish i could be there when she need me and tell what what she needs to hear! but i cant.... and i don't know how. But ill stay strong for her this time i know it! And when shes sad ill try to be there... even though i don't know how. And i don't know if i can help. i never felt like i could help.....
Feb 2018 · 223
One sided Fiddler
starchild Feb 2018
just trying to be happy
and when you fall off the roof
you get up
and continue to play the strings of your happiness

but you realize
no matter what
its hard to be happy
in a world full of sorrow

so you stick to tradition
you try to stay safe in your little town
but they are there
their mean and cruel

but you need to realize
there's a reason that their that way
because they've been through pain of there own

Because all villains have been through pain

for that is what people must see
it doesn't matter if your a fiddler or a supporting villager
everyone goes through pain
for it matter only
how much pain.
and which point of view you have
Feb 2018 · 174
alone, demon
starchild Feb 2018
I hide my light
In a cloak so tight
beneath the black and white
the diamond in my heart
locked deep within
to let it go?
to let it show?
and all the TVs read
for the whole world to see
"A monster."

I fall apart
Yes it was me
"A monster."

I hide my pain
inside lyric
its as if the notes I sing
set me free
I keep my love
under lock and key
I'm so afraid it will go,
go away from me
"A monster."

and all of me
is not enough for this I sing
They call me a monster
a freak of light
for I do not lie
for I only sing
A monster
in pain I hold myself
so tight
I breath
starchild Feb 2018
yesterday I was dared to tell
as many people as I can the word
because that's what the world needs
the knowing that's everybody is
my friends friend killed themselves the other day
and my friend was crying
because she felt alone
and I told her that she's never alone
but she said that she is alone
nobody loves her
that she is fat and ugly
that only her friend loved her
and then I said
I think your beautiful
everyone is beautiful
and you not alone
you have me and so many others
and were here for you
And I know your beautiful
so she was happy the rest of that day
so i told as many of you as I could
just that word
and then I said BEAUTIFUL
because I know everyone is. =)
Feb 2018 · 266
starchild Feb 2018
Is that your heart that's beating
or illusion your alive?
but upon this summer threshold
a demon comes at night

Piercing eyes cut threw me
a knife in hand so blight
But it really isn't necessary
for I'm the demon in the night

I may give you a smile
But I won't forgive those sins
ones done by those bully's
So I'm the dancing demon

Watch me twirl and watch me spin
But I may give you all a smile
But I won't forgive there sins
Feb 2018 · 642
NiGhT sKy
starchild Feb 2018
I used to share a room whith my father
he would go outside and sit in his shed
he would go out with friends
and get drunk

anyway when he was out
every night
I would stay up till midnight
and I would watch the stars and the moon

They'd like to sparkle and glow
iluminating the dark room and the outside
I always like to have a conversation with them
As I heard the clutter of conversation between stars

I always had my personal conversation with the moon
the moon would always give me complements
on how the light reflected on my pale skin
that nobody else liked
On how my personality was different
Which nobody loved
On my interesting take on the world
which everybody put me down for
And on my funny and different mind
which everybody called me dumb

On the first night of me doing this
the moon and stars forever became my friends
Id count everyone of them
id name everyone of them
Every time they appeared
Id say hello to each one before we began talking
We always has the funnest of conversations

And then midnight comes around
And I say to all of them
Good morning
Because I know they go away when the sun came up
So I said good morning because midnight is the start of
A new day
(I never liked the sun for chasing away my friends)

And id do this every single night and still do
But around the time I began kindergarten
I began to truely notice that some stars have disappeared
but there would be new and different ones
So I named the new ones
and welcome them
and things changed a little
Everytime a new one would come in
Id just name it and we'd continue our conversations

And there was this one star
Very unique
It was off in the middle of the sky
all alone no stars but far off around it
and it shined brightly
of course the other stars weren't avoiding this little star
In fact they were trying to go to the poor thing
but the sky had its own plans so it stayed alone

All that night i had a fun conversation
And at midnight I went to say good morning
but i forgot to name the poor star
so right when the clock struck 12:01
I named the star "Hayden"
and I said to Hayden good day
And he sparkled and I went to bed

The next day I went to school
and I felt how Hayden felt
that day were having hot chocolate
and watching the nightmare before christmas
it was into the school year and a day before winter break
I was sitting in the back alone
watching the show
and this boy.... he walked up to me
and sat next to me and he said
" interesting movie huh?"
I just sat there and stared in amazement
And I shook off the look and just said "yah"
I'm going to spare you the rest of the conversation and just say
we became good friends
at the end of the day we shook hands and I said
" my name is Tommy."
And he said
" its nice to meet you Tommy ... my names Hayden... its nice to be your friend."

I walk away in amazement

but that night Hayden isn't in the sky
And never was again
And me and Hayden at school were friends
all the way up to fourth grade
He turned around and stabbed me in the back
He betrayed me and left me alone
And I never saw him again

I was truly alone again
Just had the stars and moon as friends

And new stars continue to roll in
And I continue to name each one

But I wonder
what happens to stars?
do they become suns
do they just explode and destroy and disappear
like he did?
And I say to myself
" not all stars disappear
not all stars will be that way
but we know
Stars are your friend when no one else is"

See everyone is a star in there own way
each different
and In a different location
But you gotta know
were all in the same sky

And as the moon lights up my life
And my room and the outside
I think and know
I'm glad to have the nigh sky as my friend
Cause when I'm dead
I don't wanna go to heaven and have fun
I don't wanna go to hell and watch those he wronged me
I want to dance and walk around the night sky
and truly meat the moon
and each star
Sun (even though if they chase away my friends
They deserve something to)
Black hole
I wanna meet everyone in the sky I saw
all of those who were there for me when I was alone
The night sky is mine
and my friends home
Don't worry
No one is alone
for the leading moon
isn't days doom
its happiness
and my true. happy. home.
I love you all.... I love my friends and I love those of you who like my poetry.... you don't have to like my poetry I'm not one of those people. I love you all anyways.
Jan 2018 · 196
When i didn't have a friend
starchild Jan 2018
I got so sick of being on my own
Now the devil wont leave me alone

Its almost like ive got a friend
(Warning realy short) =) </3
Jan 2018 · 145
starchild Jan 2018
This world will never be what I expected
That I don't belong, who would have ever guessed it

I will not leave alone
I will not leave everything I own


To make you feel like its always been to late
Because everyone had hate
hate for me

For neither hell or heaven wants me
I'm cursed to wander darkness

But I realize this using death
I may be in darkness
But I'm not alone as I see many people have been alone

And us freaks
Stick up for each other

Whith my group of friends of maniacs
Are there for eachother
=) don't worry friends are there when you don't even know it.... heck even I'm there for friends.... and your friends are there for you...... And so am I.
Jan 2018 · 230
Pain makes a monster
starchild Jan 2018
Every school is a top tent circus
everyone competing for a little fame
and at which I'm a freak
me and my friends were freaks
Were maniax

but everyone who is truly insane
has felt the true meaning of pain
we all have something that turned us into a monster

Sally she was *****
she was convinced it was a good thing
and she was used
to this day she still collects dolls
And she became a monster
and the man who used her never to be seen

Toby was made fun of and abused
he had these ticcs the mental disease
and kids at school always made fun of him
and his parents werent so nice to him either
he became a monster
And now everyone wished that they didn't mess with
Ticci toby

Jack was forgotten
he always wanted to make people laugh
and make them happy
but people were just mean to him
and he tried
but soon no one loved him
and everyone forgot about him
he became invisible
he became a monster
And everyone who made him forgotten
were only remembered as dead

jane was decieved
and alone
she was loved by a lot of people
but she lost everything
her parents
Her family
Her friends
And now she's our friend
And she's a monster
And everyone who took everything from her
Is long gone

hoodie was always stressed
people surrounded him
called him names
and made him sad
he always wore a hoodie
And now he goes by that name
He's no longer stressed
and now he's our friend
And a monster
And those who made him stressed
were no less alive then when hoodie was stressed

And those are my friends
I have more friends
each one just as diferent as the examples
I have given

what's different about me?
Ooh well that's a fun story

I used to be a good kid
very nice I had friends
then everyone turned on me
Everyone bullied me
Everyone made fun of me
called me names
And so everyone made me a monster
And all these freaks are my friends

Were all freaks I this circus
And when the world gets a load of us
They'll look back and think

See all the freaks
Crazy s
Were all like this
because others made us this way
They inflicted there
so we built up our walls
and our horns
Our claws
Our personality
And we became a monster

That others fear
Because they made us feel pain

And were all monsters
That are in pain
Jan 2018 · 318
Happy ending
starchild Jan 2018
I've been told to get over it
to just ignore the bitter hatred
to be happy
and  I guess its about time

I've finally escaped the darkness
but I haven't been happy
I be written plenty of things
and none of them have been happy

I've been told to be happy
but how can I be happy
when all i know is sorrow
and heartbreak

but now I've realized
it is time to be happy!
I'm tired of letting them get me down
so now I'm getting told to be happy

and I say
I have a small feeling it wont last long. =)
Jan 2018 · 274
starchild Jan 2018
The other day I was told to stop throwing staples
       when I wasnt throwing them
                  they were falling
                          falling out of my skin
                                      Once they were all down my legs
                                                all along my arms around my waist
                                                     and all over my face
And most of all they kept me smiling
        and when someone hurts me they fall out
               I stapled my mouth so I could smile
                 and now they have fallen out
                        I'm afraid I won't smile
                              and everyone has turned and gasped in fear
                                     and I look in the mirror and my mouth
                                             its bigger and black and scarier
                                                 and everyone screams  
    and I look at all of them as the look away
           all the people who have bullied me and harmed me
                now screaming in fear... but I don't feel joy
                        I run and hide because there scared
                          and I sit in a dark corner and cry
                                 and I cry. not because I look like a monster
                                        but no one loves me for me
                                              that I'm alone in this dark world
                                                  and I look at all the staples
some blood stands and bent
          but I notice there are two staples remaining
                two staples struggling to hold together my broken heart
                       but suddenly I realize..... that I'm the way I am
                             and I pick up the stapler and say
                                    "its those who were mean to me who needs a    smile."
=) We don't need staples or stitches to help us smile. Just smile in the faces of the people who doubts you or bullied you and called you names. And you know that you get the last laugh.
Jan 2018 · 501
Blind Love
starchild Jan 2018
There once was a blind girl who hated herself
because she was blind
she hated everyone but her loving boy friend

He wanted to marry her
but she said only if i could see you
and one day someone donated a pair of eyes so she could see

Then he proposed to her
but then she found out he was blind
So she said no

He ran away in tears
And he left her a note at her house saying
"Take care of my eyes dear, i love you."

So she ran back to him
but found out that he was already on a train to new york
she knew she couldn't get back to him

So she wishes she was blind
so she didn't have to see this awful world without him.

And they both never stopped loving
Jan 2018 · 266
Sad Story
starchild Jan 2018
Shes laying on the bed with her iPod on full blast
the door is locked, and the curtains are locked
on the TV screen is the notebook
an empty tub of her favorite ice cream is on the floor
smudged with makeup, her finger tips are stained
from wiping away her eye liner and makeup, stained tears
there last conversation plays in her head
she thinks to herself
that shell never get him back


Hes on the edge of his bed the doors locked
his room is pitch black from the absence of lights
theirs a hole in the wall from when he punched it earlier
his headphones are about to burst from how loud the music is
no one can hear his sobs or see how messy his hair is from running his hands through it, thinking and thinking.
hes replaying there conversation in his head, thinking,
Hell never get her back

Heartbreak effects us all in horrible and depressing ways... but i think this sums it up. But this doesn't just sum up heartbreak i dont think. Its the same way when you have a crush dont you think. Oh and the partial of this is not mine i dont wanna be rude and take full credit. =)
Jan 2018 · 177
starchild Jan 2018
"i kind of like anxiety,
as it tickles my stomach like knives.
and the others trot along,
living there perfect lives.
Its not normal to like tourture
and the everlasting pain.
Call me crazy ( ill take it as a compliment)
But i sort of enjoy being insane.
=) insanity isnt the painful thing... its helps the pain.
Jan 2018 · 210
Sanity... why?
starchild Jan 2018
Your all prisoners.
what you call sanity,
Its just a prision in your mind that just stops you from seeing
your just tiny little cogs in an giant absurd machine.
Why be a cog?
Be Free
And just remember. smile.
-Jerome valeska

No matter who you are
no matter what happens your not free
you need a touch of madness to be free
to see the truth of things
all it takes is a little madness

see im not just stuck in my insane asylum
im free in it
so why cant we all be free
if not thats fine
but im not a cog
who waunts to be some boring cog
yes you may have brilliance but your not free
so be brilliant and free

So yah im just a little crazy
but im not mean
i am crazy and nothing can change that
but a little crazy isnt a bad thing
so you cant tell me im not insane
cause all of this im saying is true about me
so dont let people take away what makes you speacal
and insanity makes me who i am
people have said im not and im a kind person
and i am. to my friends. But im also insane
and not even my friends cant get that now.

so hopefully you can

so why be a cog
be free
and remember
you dont have to be crazy to be free
thats my point
but why not
but not my point
just remember
smile. =)
Jan 2018 · 180
starchild Jan 2018
These padded walls contain my screams
this straight jacket contains my pain
this whole place hides the truth of my suffering
see this is who i am
i know it not think it
its also what others made me
and so they must all know
i am a monster
and now i see the only way to not be afraid of monsters
is to be one
so dont judge me
dont say im something else
only i can determine who i am
and this is what i am
mentally broken
because i determined who i am because of others
i wont be able to live without my mental damage
without it id be... dull
so im stuck in my insane asylum.... Why? to protect myself from this cruel world... it is as simple as that.... but oviasly not all of its cruel... i see that to. =)
Jan 2018 · 215
D - evil
starchild Jan 2018
Hide away child
don't let me In
I'm a demon, I am a devil
I'll teach you how to sin

run away child
don't look me in the eyes
there silver- blue and deadly
and full of broken lies
Jan 2018 · 189
Villains and Heroes
starchild Jan 2018
All villains
just heroes
who chose truth over dare

All heroes
beyond repair
#villains #heroes #happyendings
40th poem hurray =)
Jan 2018 · 391
starchild Jan 2018
see i think myself alone
whith friends that are there but not at home
but as i look hard
yes i may be crazy
and live in a house of cards
but i realize im not alone
not everyone hates me
but as i look closer
we are together
even if we dont know eachother
we are together
together as writers
together as poets
together as puppeteres
togethers as crazies
because i may be crazy
but all the best people are
so lets all be together
as one
Jan 2018 · 137
No OnE LiKeS a CrAzY pErSoN
starchild Jan 2018
I have a diferent personality
and no one gets that
they all just think im weird
and odd
i even bet that you do to
because no one likes me
what i writte
what i say
what i do
doesnt harm anybody
but it seems that no one like what i do
no one likes my poems
no one likes me
for me
she did
unless that was a lie to
and they all thik im anoying
but i dont care
im crazy so what
but no one likes that aparently
someone who is diferent
i have a diferent personality
a different mind
but they all dislike me
those who are reading this
if you knew me
i bet you wouldn't
Dec 2017 · 260
I am Krampus
starchild Dec 2017
** **, ** **
how can it be
that the Krampus
didnt come for me

Yet here i sit
myself alone
in my nice
and warm own home

** **, ** **
how can it be
that Krampus
didnt come for me?!

What do you mean?
didnt come

i know how can this be!
That the krampus is
Dec 2017 · 163
starchild Dec 2017
The roses have wilted
                  The violets are dead
                                      The deamons run circles
                                                                      And Round
In my head
Dec 2017 · 199
starchild Dec 2017
The things ive done i cant
i know because i know it hurts and causes

I cant say i didnt know what i was
i didnt know what i was thinking or what i was

We had a speacal love but you threw it all
i regret what ive done every second of the

if i could change the past believe me i would
i would take away all the pain if i only could

Love is rough just give it time and it will blossom
Dec 2017 · 150
starchild Dec 2017
My friends are in tragedy
and i said id be happy
but its so hard to be happy
in a world full of sorrow
and death and grief
my friend who lost a cousin
and lost some love
my friend who is mad
and irritated
and i just waunt to fall
fall and never wake
just continue to be lost in darkness
then to be sad in the light
and im spinning
spinning till im dizy
and dead
my life is just one big carousel
and im tired of never tell
because im just trying my best
my hardest
and i always fall
but i dont care
im spinning round and round
on a carousel
Dec 2017 · 161
starchild Dec 2017
In a whisper in a sigh
in a dream that flashes by
i can see you deep whithin
i childhood memory growing thin
in a flicker of an eye
in a heart that aches to cry
i can hear your words of love
as you soar to the heavens above
in a whisper in a sigh
i hold your hand as time goes by
i see the pain i try to hide
to protect my heart by your side
in a mind that searches why
whithin the monster needs to hide
to find the answeres to start to heal
to halt this cutting pain i feel
whith a tear in my eye
whith fresh hope i search high
for one last chance to sit awhile
to view your face, your laugh, your smile
and in a whisper
i realize
ill never
Dec 2017 · 148
starchild Dec 2017
She sais im the one who needs to pay
well how do i need to pay?
She broke my heart
she broke her promise
she keeps on hurting me!
she tells me i didnt love her that much anyways
but i gave her everything
i let her in
and she destroyed me
but i still love her
and i hate that i love her
that she could do this awful thing to me
and on a hill
far from a lake
thats where she just completely destroyd me
so if anyone needs to pay
its no one
but i still love her
Cruel and cold like winds on the sea
Will you ever return to me
Hear my voice sing with the tide
My love will never die
Over waves and deep in the blue
I will give up my heart for you
Ten long years I’ll wait to go by
My love will never die
</3 :)
Dec 2017 · 254
starchild Dec 2017
Hearts are like diamonds
They shine brightly
bringing light to the dark
thats what her light did for me
and our diamonds shined together
that was then
she stole to meloncoly heart
and its more then i can bere
and thats why hearts are like diamonds
there all diferent shapes
diferent colors
but all fragile
and they all tell me to be happy
at which i am
but after a heart is shattered
its just like a diamond
in everyway
non perfect
                                                      so she continues to think it wasnt that bad
                                                      that i didnt love her that much
                                                      that i still love her
                                                      but she was my whole world
Dec 2017 · 147
starchild Dec 2017
Everywhere and
Never fading
Rude to talk when
They’re listening

Not quite falling
Not quite living
But for sure he’s
Still existing

Left no memory
Of his presence
Gone forever

Can’t retain a
Stable body
Core consumed him
Only rotting

Broken doorway
Leads you deeper
Empty room and
He’s the keeper

Stumble forward
Knees are shaking
All around you
Space is breaking

The darkness
Your soul can’t
Stop pounding

You’re glitching
It’s over

Can’t remember
What his name was
Talked in symbols

Cracked and melted
Mind is twisted
None had seen and
No one wished it

Work was cut off
Family forgot
Past is worthless

Machine broken
Can’t be revived
Despite efforts
Did not survive

You’re falling
Start calling
Is coming

It’s bruising
You’re grasping
For something

Shattering soul
Can it refuse?
Keeps reacting

King’s scientist
His position
Taken over
Long forgotten

Running down the hall
You catch your breath
There’s nothing left
You start to fall

Through the void
There’s no choice
You call out hopelessly to all the darkness

Inching back to check again
He’s disappeared now
Now’s not the time

Spreading endlessly through time
Dust never carried off
Stuck like this for now

Never fixing the problem
Those trapped under the ground
Have lost all hope

Fight on the left
Spare on the right
How will you

Act in-between
Items consumed
Approach this?

Fight on the left
Spare on the right
Check him too

Act in-between
Items consumed
Don’t forget…

A drawing
Three people
Poorly drawn
Is missing

A folder
Locked away
He’s crying
“Don’t forget.”
Nov 2017 · 161
starchild Nov 2017
She just waunts to stand there and watch me burn
but thats alright because i love the way it hurts
and thats why this is all sad
she will calm me
hurt me
torment me
come what may
because ill be happy
and thats the sad thing
i still love her
even i know she wont feel the same
and ill still be my crazy self
because i made a promise
no matter how she hurts me ill be happy
ill be good this time
and thats hurts the most
when you love someone
who will never love you back
but she keeps hurting me
but come what may
ill love her evermore

but she just likes to watch me burn.
Nov 2017 · 136
starchild Nov 2017
she thinks she can hurt  me anymore
she can take every shot she can
take away what i love
make me feel like nothing
but ill always will have that smile
that smile that makes the kids cry out
please stop your scaring me!
and that will **** her
that im happy
because it seems very much
that...... that she doesnt waunt me to be
be happy
i just wish she could be happy
she looks like she is
but i know thats just her trying to hurt
hurt me
so i dont care anymore
im not her puppet anymore
i wont be to her amusment
i had strings but now im free
there are no strings on ME!
i had strings but now ill have fun
im not attached to anyone
there are no strings one me

Dont be anyones puppet and cut those strings!
Nov 2017 · 146
She broke my heart
starchild Nov 2017
I am broken, I am damaged, I am tainted
I am unspoken, I am empty, I am unpainted
I am forsaken, I am forgotten,
I am un taken, I am rotten
I am black
I am cracked
I am black and blue
This song only comes to those with a broken heart
Listen if you choose to
The one I love or loved I don't know anymore hates me because she broke up whith me and she broke my heart and all I did is tell the one I had closest to newness now she wants to take that away..... so tell me why I still love her even after she broke up with me and broke my heart and she does this to me.... why?
starchild Nov 2017
Now im back
back in this hole she put me in
and she thinks that its all my fault
but i promise i wont let her
let her push me out of my friends lives
and she sais i made her feel worthless
that i go around telling
telling everybody that she broke my heart
well good
because its all her fault
and now she thinks
thinks im talking behind her back
and she calls me names
and talks behind my back now
and now she hates me
and i love her
and its sad
but she sais that shell **** me
that she will get me
but i say guess what
id probably put a gun in my mouth before
before she could even touch me
and i hate it though
i hate that i love her
because she continues
continues to torture me
but i wont let her destroy me again
ill be happy when i get out
now and then
ill be happy
now were back to the begining
its just a feeling
and no one knows yet
but just because they cant feel it to
doesnt mean that you have to forget
pick a star on the dark horrizon and
follow the light
but i promise
i swear ill be happy again
credit to regina spektor...... ;)
Nov 2017 · 233
Why Try
starchild Nov 2017
Yes ive said it before
im going to happy now
im going to show them crazy
im going to have a happy ending
but the truth is ill never escape
escape the darkness of this sadness
no matter how hard i try i fall back into that pit
that pit at which im alone
and sad
now matter hard i try to be crazy
and happy
she pushes me back
she gave me two chances and for what
i gave her a hundred
and i guess im not the villain
the villain like they all said
im just the lonley kid in the corner
the monster no body loves in the corner
and no matter how hard i try im just back to the begining
going in circles
no matter how hard i try im just sad again
so ill just push them away so i cant get hurt
Because no matter how hard i try i always begin

Then Why Try
this person keeps saying i nned to ryhme but poems dont need to ryhme they just need to express the way you feel...... doctor suse ruined peoples way of thinking :-)
Nov 2017 · 152
starchild Nov 2017
When you just get pushed away
when you just fade away
you encounter a monster
a monster with a open face
then you'll begin to race
but you can not run away from your deamons
so you go to the up side down
where its dark and cold
and everything there is the exact opposite
but much darker
where the monsters can get you
but I actualy would feel welcome
because they made me a monster so this place could be home
if the monsters wouldn't **** me to
so no matter who you are a villain or not
don't get caught
caught up side down
or the monsters will get you
but if your like me
show those monsters what true crazy looks like
set the score past eleven
and be a maniac
because that's what it takes to **** a monster
all the way to the alter
all the way upside down
I know it doesn't ryhme but if you don't like it please suggest :)
Nov 2017 · 156
starchild Nov 2017
Yes we give thanks that's no question
thanks for life but this is the objection
we need to give more
more straight down to the core
because there are some in the dark
and now its time we make our mark
mark on those with less happiness
mark full of joy and glee
don't you think we should put the giving in thanks
so lets give more
because were not thanks whithout the giving
Happy thanks giving and I hope you enjoy your dinners and give a little more :)
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