I was asked which I would rather live in
a lie or a truth
most would say truth that's the truth
to know everything for it all to be revealed
but it my case that's not the truth
in my case i just wish this truth was a lie
but even more so
I wish I still had the lie
the lie that she loved me
that I wasn't alone
the one point in my entire little life I was happy
the time I had hope and fun
but that world deminished by the truth
so if I'm asked which id rather have the truth or the lie
I hope you don't want the truth
because the truth is not freedom
its cold and dark
so if I'm asked which id rather have the wonderful lie
Or the horrible truth
I do hope you choose wisely
because the lie is much better
The lie had love
I just wish i could be happy again
and that's the only truth I waunt
Because the truth broke my heart
I just wish I had that one lie again to mend
but it all came to an end
for the truth is the worst thing

Is it funny how irony is every where
it comes just mere
just at the right moment
at this moment
the irony of me
me being here for her
still
but now she looses her love
she doesn't realize i have some to give
and that's the most painful isn't
when someone doesn't feel the same for you
as you do them
and thats the irony
she loses love as i have some to give
but she broke my heart
and her promise
yet im still here
irony a little much
irony is such a touch
that no one gets
so im here on my knees right behind her
as she stands infront of me back to me
back to my heart
while shes crying
and im broken holding my heart
thats what i imagine





Irony.....why?

Yes im mad
cause i had love ill never have
but now that revenge and irony reaks
i creak
and i dont know why
this is what i waunted, die
now she loses her brother
the one shes love even more then her mother
And now i feel sad
because i got my broken revenge
and i didnt waunt it
i didnt even meant it
now she loses the love she loved the most
even more then she love me
yes that hurt
it was all a lie
and i loved now to die
because i was there and she turned her back on my heart
now she loses hers
and now im meek
because im weak
because i got my revenge
and no one knows
buti dont waunt this
i waunt my family back
i wish there was a hack
a hack to what you ask
a hack to life
because life is strife
but i and her lost the love we loved the most

Im a monster
so what
ill cough up to it even in the alter
no i dont care if there is a god or not
but there is something a matter
because im happy and sad
but she is not happy
i didn't do anything
but bare this broken heart out of happy
cause im tired of being sad
because she broke me into nothing
yes i wanted revenge cause she broke my heart
but now i am something
and now i dont care
if she wants to be happy
ill be right there
because no one is perfect
and me im proof
because i am me

shes calling
calling my old name
calling oh darling
taking the punches
i wake up
wake up from the bunches
the bunches of voices
And i laugh
because i woke up
i woke up on there behalf
because i love them
and i still lover her
i love her and i might be dim
dim cause she keeps on hurting me
hurting me why
because i woke up from a broken heart?
So i wake
i wake a monster
because that what i need for what im going to take
So this day i wake up
one day i woke up
and i say nope
because i love her
but she doesn't love me
and i became a blur
so much i fade away
And so what if im a monster
they pushed me away
not out of emotion
because they just didn't like me
so ill give them a notion
And so this day i wake up

We destroyed worlds=) you remember don’t you?
We were unstoppable all of that good determination hehe we were the ones that really needed a bad time hehe=)
Turnaround friend you’ve made a crime.
If I had to go back on the deal that I made for you so don’t walk over that line
or else buddy then I’ll have a great time.
But brats like you don’t play by rules
and boys like me I CAN’T BE MADE A FOOL.
So let’s go let the room GO RED
let’s go so I can chop off your head =)
Go ahead and try to **** me if you’re able.
You should know that MERCY’S JUST A FABLE =)
I can tell you’re really sick of dying
but I’m just going to keep on fighting.
Just let me win
you can’t play forever
even if killing is more fun together
I’ll just reset and come back a killer
and with every try I’m even more determined than you are!
This is where it stops this is where it ends
you keep telling me those words hoping I will understand
But even if I hear you I’ll just **** you again, are you really just that dumb or can you only feel numb=)
Go ahead and hit me, you’re not able
YOU KNOW NOW THAT MERCY’S JUST A FABLE.
I can tell you want to stop trying but it’s too much fun watching you dying=)
Just let me win you can’t live forever
You winning will be a never
I’ll just reset and come back better you can’t stop me I’m just going to let her=)

Did you hear it?
They are coming for you cause your stains so red
they know what you did
they know what you did you can not hide
so run while you can
since you cant hide
youll be the one to be called to do this mad genocide

Shes about to call me back
give me the pitty
but its my pitty party and i cry if i waunt to
shes about to call
talk about my grades my life
but i have troubled times
no one gets it
not a single
so she gets mad gives the speech
but i swear ill yell at her back
just to build the courage i say im crazy so what
but if she waunts to mess whith me to
shes caught by one big nut
so she yells any way
like she waunts me to get mad
and i just realized
i hate the libarian.

Knock knock
the time she asks whos there
knock knock
i put my fist at the door
knock knock
she answeres
i smile and cry
and i drop to the floor cause its a dream
and shes not there to catch me
so i cry
and on the floor i go knock knock

im pushed away again by her
i try to comfort her but she screams at me to leaver her to her
and so i run and cry
and i get pushed in that dark hole of depression again
i waunt to be happy to be my mental self
but each time i go back
but i dont waunt to
and yet i do
but this time im going to be the deamon they keep pushing
pushing away
but this time ill grab on the ledge
and the next time she pushes me back ill be ready
ready just push back
and no matter what i do
i know she wont feel the same way i do
cause what she does to me i can forgive
i can love
but she keeps pushing me away
so i guess the next time ill let her

Im off my rocker
i admit
but when they come a nocker
i will answere
whith a red smile
out of the sadness
out from the mile
ready to be crazy
so what
ive been through mazy
so i head out
ready to deal whith those sane
and then i head into the out
to the tree
and i laugh and cry
cause thats where she met me
but i laugh
i laugh cause im crazy
im a maniac
im loco
im a psychopath
but im still good
ill help those who are good to
but those hoods
those bullys
they will be those who face me
face the crazy
those who are bullys that think themselves so cool
will beg for forgiveness
because no one deserves what they put upon
what gets put upon me
but im tired of just leting them bully me and bully others
im tired of bieing normal
im always overthinking
but now its there time dont you think
and this shall be my insanety who reaks vengance
this shall be my crazy story

yesterday was the day
the day of blood
the blood sheded for this country
for the not perfect country
we like to say it wonderful
that its beutiful
but realy its not
im living proof
so many people are
people that are left behind
but it doesnt matter cause nothing is perfect
im non perfect
im broken
and so is this country
on the outside people think its wonderful
freedom, lie
the closer you get the darker it gets
but its true sometimes
there are fun and bright parts of this country
america the non perfect

but everyone has a point and say
but so what
nothing is perfect
cause everything is non perfect