Like the world i love is shaking
And my heart is slowly breaking
My tears go on and on
So depressed been that way
I don't know how long
Hurt myself so many times
Makes me wonder why im still alive
These bruises on my skin
Tend to mark my soul within
Like tattoos they never fade
All this sadness
going on for a decade
But still the word turns on and on
And the love i had has gone
And the tears i once cried
Have left and dried
So this is how i feel
Wouldn't  expect you to care
No big deal

as a solider i march in the dark
without a soul
without a heart
without your lips
pressed up against mine
your on my mind all day all the time
but still you lie
and pushed me away
so i march like a solider
in the darkness
of my day
there is no light
nothing that shines bright
i have no need to go to bed
to think of you
to rest my head
instead ill cry
and drown in all these tears
ive kept this pain
in my heart all these years
so you finally need to know
that your the reason i never show
your the reason i march in the dark
without a soul
without a spark.

sitting on the floor
wanting you back
wanting you more
feeling of tears all over my face
Then my eyes go blurry
as the tears slide down my face
the salty little tears
finally caress my lips
as  they drop to the floor
i cry a little more
and i hold myself tight
sobbing through the night
with his picture held to my chest
its all those memory's that i miss best
i hold it a little tighter
and the glass it starts to crack
slowly starting to shatter
i quickly lean back
glass is on the floor
glass is in my skin
taking on little piece
digging it in my skin
only love can hurt
hurt so much like this
cut so deep in
inside my wrist
the blood flows out
flows out just like my tears im finally letting go
of this love and my fears.

We stand as one looking over the sea and sand
I sit on his back…
Feeling his strong legs with my bar feet
As we slowly start to move  
I hold tight on his main
Ridding without a saddle
And the wind cursing through my hair
We start to pick up speed
Faster…………and faster……….and faster..
This is freedom……this is it
We move in sync with each other
I hold my hands out high
The water spraying my feet with a single tickle
His feet in -printing the sand with every stride
His breath getting heavier and heavier
We slowly start to stop and I turn to look the sea
And we go into the water for a swim
Holding on to his neck
We glided through the water
Like a board on a wave
I slowly get off and swim to shore
I lay on the bank with my hands at my sides
And the sun was shining brighter than ever
Nevil  comes out of the water
And lays beside me
I curl up in his neck
As we lay there together
Overlooking the sea and the sand
We slowly drift to sleep

you know what you did was wrong
but you thought it was so  right
when you hit and kicked and punched me
every single night.

as my screams were louder then ever
and my cry's hurt your ears
every night you go to sleep
with those sounds blasting through your ears
the gilt you have must be unbearable
but so was my pain

but you thought it was funny
and you played me like a game.
you laughed with every beating
and i think that you are insane

but when you took my life
i couldn't feel more alive
knowing im free of pain
knowing im finally going to die

the treatment that you showed
was horrible and dark
im glad that its over
and that you stopped my heart

but you will never be able to sleep well
each and every night
for my voice will keep you up
it will make you feel fright.

i am happy
i am sad
i get angry
i get mad
i abuse my skin
i abuse everything
every touch is always pain
will i ever love again

when i feel joy i sing to the skys
cry in happiness
with a twinkle in my eyes

but when im sad
i go down to the dark
doing bad things
that will always leave a mark
tears will never end
needing a best friend
asking out to the world
why do this im just a girl
ill raise my fist and shout to the sky
make it rain with all the tears i cry
ill take one last step
and make it to my death
sink deep within the ground
and i wont make a sound
ill finally be at peace
can finally go to sleep
never having to go home
my problems over flown

Sleepless nights
Held myself tight
All alone
I’m on my own
Tell me you love me
Tears down my face
Throwing myself all over the place
Filled with anger filled with hate
Why did I leave my heart to break?
You knew what you were doing
You never ever cared
I’m stone cold sober
Disaster in the air
No more love
No more tears
No more phone calls
No more fears
No more kisses
No more hugs
Because my heart no longer bleeds for you
It will never bleed for anyone else sigh  
Heart breaks happen to everyone but remember there is always light at the tunnel