the problem to my life
is that i live a lonely life
i speak to no one
im all alone
all my problems are big and grown
cant trust anyone
they all have betrayed

i have never asked for help
for i thought i didn't deserve
for the treatment that i get
is one i wont forget
to breath the air in peace
and to be able to get to sleep
is what i dream to do
even when i feel so blue

time is not a friend
as i find it hard to pretend
that my life is good and great
being alive is a big mistake
thought everything would be alright
got so bad
held myself tight


crying on the bed
with my head in my hands
listening to them screaming out demands
i scream at there feet

"leave me alone
"let me do my thing
"i do everything you want
" just let me do one thing
" let me please rest
" its truly for the best
" i need to rest my head
" feeling drained
"feeling dead.

get up off the floor
and do what we ask you now
you selfish little cow
we ask you to help out
and now you scream and shout
its not like you to say
leave me alone....
i have to say you surprised me good
but im not one to do you good
do as i say now or you will get hurt
dont live by my rules
sleep in the dirt

Came home late To postpone the hate To forget the wars That is behind closed doors. To forget the hurt To forget the pain But it doesn’t matter   I got it all the same The door has closed in the night And the feelings  gave me a fright For he kicked me in the head Told me he would make me dead Yelling kicking screaming Saying why is I so late “your grounded get to your room. Picked myself up from the floor And wiped my bleeding lip Held my hands on my side Another broken rib Stumbled on the stairs It hurts and I am numb Closed the door in my room And reached for the gun BANG ! I took my life I am not prisoner her now As my soul floats to heaven I am finally free now

look inside my eyes
see the pain that grows inside
see the tears that now have dried
see the hurt that i have to hide
see the bags under my eyes
from sleepless nights
and late night fights

see all the stress
that bubbles in my head
wanting it all out
want to scream and shout
break a glass or two
lock myself in my room
cried another night
another sleepless night

woke up with sadness
as i cry some tears in bed  
laying there crying
again i rest my head
doubting my day today
should i even bother to pray
for it never came true
to come home one day
not feeling so blue

depressed with this life
how on earth do i avoid all the strife
when my temper runs away
i feel like i should be dead straight away
never knowing how to say
leave me alone
just go away
for my voice tends to leave
every time i dont believe
that im ever important today
or every time i have a bad day


so when you all say
pick yourself up dont delay
think about what I say
as i dry my tears away
for this sadness never ends
i feel so alone
never having friends
the only thing that comforts me
is the warmth within my sheets
so when you live like me for a day
tell me then what you would say
for my life is really bad
its really dark
its really sad
so when i say its hard
dont think im just saying it
for the truth is here to see
i will never ever be free