As the most serious person
You ever met
I laugh and I joke
To hide the depth of complexity
That riddles my mind
The answer to the riddle too hard to find
As the most serious person
You ever met
I do everything I can
To hide the pain and sorrow
That fills up my soul
And despite who I really am
To you I am someone else

I can write a poem?
I can write a poem
About anything in the world
Any dream ever held


Have you ever heard of Xanadu?
A place of blissful peace
Have you ever heard of Tokyo?
With your'e head stuck up your own ***

Sorry to be profane
But I can write a poem
In the method of the ancient romans
About ****** fellating in ******

But seriously
What the ****
I can write a poem
But will anybody read

I really don't give a ****
About sunshine or hearts
Just read the words i write
Because I know you'll feel what I say

And after an hour
Zero reads
Maybe you don't want to feel
Maybe I say too much

Its just the coldness
Its just so foolish
A fool moon
To make me feel its ending
Its just the darkness
The naked sky is starless
A word unsaid
That keeps ringing inside my head

Its not the moon
Its not me
Its me.......
Its not you
Its not me
Its me.......
Its not you
Its the world we know
Its the shattered night of memory

Singing songs to the night
And hoping that where ever you are
You can hear
Singing songs to the night
And hoping that where ever you are
You can be near
To me

Its just whatever
Whatever we say it is
All of nothing
To make me feel I'm losing something
Its just the abyss
I'm ready to jump
When you aren't
This deadly pool of frozen nothing

Don't hold my hand
Its not me
Its me.......
Its not you
           Its me.......
                    Its not you
Its the world we know
Its the shattered night of memory

I see she changes
She changes because of me
Like I showed her a sun
She could not feel
So the artificial light
Makes her feel warm
And she is not outside
She is a flower reaching for a light bulb  

And is it my fault
That I loved her so
I loved her as the ocean loves the moon
And the tides roll into shore
But there are sharks in the water
Smelling blood
Hungry for flesh
Eager to ****  

Well I am to blame
The things she says to me
Are but a dream
Heavy with the Dramamine  
Because she Is moving
And I can't be there
To hold her still
And show her what love is

But I do love
Without knowing why I feel
I love without care or pride
Or fear of pain
Like the days last cigarette
I know it's killing me
It's not something I need
But I enjoy it until it's gone  

I hope she understands
I pray to a god I don't believe in
Because it becomes
History repeating
And I've done this all before
I've felt this all before  
But it never meant more
It's never meant the end

She cries
She cries glorious drops of sweetest honey
Tears that melt away the obdurance that has become my heart
It's a world we know
Where man grows cold
Skin a minefield
Love a faded tombstone covered in vines
Soul a name that can't be read etched upon a stone
Decaying bones
Frozen wilds
And her warmth
She cries
She cries a boat on a mythic river
Excretions from some north September skies
Her salt a raindrop
On my barren dusty life
She cries the ocean from her eyes
And in her face I'm drowning
Dying for a taste
She cries
And it reminds me
In a stark and ugly world that made me numb
There is still something
Worth feeling
She cries
She cries ink down her cheek leaving a tattoo of my name
And giving me hope
She cries
But I will be the one to dry her eyes

I don't need this cold
I feel
in between the numb and dull
aches
pains
the way the universe expands
shotgun in my mind
she is

she twists me up in the fabric of time

how to suffer fate
omit
we're becoming nothing anyways
arrows
slings
the way of the moon and the tides
straight-blade razor sharp
she is

she makes me live forever

there could have been nothing
her voice sails over my prayers of gratitude
I was empty all this time
and never really was
she takes my hand
she twists me up in the fabric of time
accidents waiting to happen
her voice is my prayer and the first word I spoke
I was silent all this time
waiting to begin
the way she smiles
she makes me live forever

She is beautiful
But
She is ugly
Her physical appearance
Hides an inner one

She would say the right things
When she doesn't mean them
She would say she understands
When she can't

She is beautiful
And her image haunts my dreams
But her actions haunt my thoughts
And have become
My waking nightmare

she moves to me
whether in a picture or sat against the sea
as a cloud she floats gently above me
the currents and the streams
her neck where sections sit
the way her necklace rests ever so delicately
her soft brown skin
through all this land
she moves to me

she is
gold
sunshine on a crystal morning
and pearls
silk
nothing
everything

she moves to me
whether its a mirror or stood against the sky
as the music the cosmos makes in our silence
the stars and the planets
her neck where moons beam
the way her necklace follows her collorbone
through all this space
she moves to me
whether its gravity or we as entangled particles
and we are in every moment as we are together
our quantum dancing
her neck where time begins
the way her necklace falls so gracefully into place
through all this time
she moves to me

I kiss her just below her right ear
and I know now is everywhere
and everytime is now
the sun and the moon
the spiral galaxy
the walls that hold in time
I kiss her just below her right ear

she moves to me
whether its the wind or impossible odds
as the dreams we hold dear and our hope that keeps us strong
our faith and love
her neck which i caress gently
the way her necklace seems to retire when she does
I kiss her on the eyelids
she moves to me

She speaks to me
In a language of sadness
All her songs
Enchanting and beautiful
As ancient as emotions
I'm at peace that I can hear
I'm in turmoil
That I may never understand

She speaks to me
As a broken river
As the roots of a tree
As a waning moon
That once it sets
Won't rise again
Her words seem to say
The night will always be dark

She speaks to me
Through a veil
From a deserted carriage
Watching her horses run away
As powerful as connections
That last forever
As painful as watching
Something break

She speaks to me
In a language of sorrow
As a lonesome stranger
In a foreign land
When if I could find the words
Or I could find the way
I could ease the pain
She would speak of love again

She was beautiful
She was the fire
She kept me warm until I got too close
She made me hot
And then she burned me
She was the reason all I am now
Is bitter remains and ashes

She was beautiful
She was the flood
She bathed me and made me pure
She made me clean
And then she swept me away
She is the reason all I am now
Is a drowning dying man

She was a flower
In my forty year desert
The smallest glimpse of redemption
Which held my hope
And the sands that shift under my feet
Bring me to a name
My holy land
She was

May I fear not the fire
As I drink the water?
May I fear not the sun
As I wish on  stars?

She was a cloud
In her I see a face
In my broken lawless sky
I dream of eyes
And the winds that blow confusion
Bring me all the truth
My only truth
She was

May I hold not to endings
As I pray to begin?
May I die one day in peace
Her by my side?

She wore red
Because of me she wore red
A thousand or more
Countless stories
Because of me

She wore red
Hands in the night that paint dread
A thousand lost words
Fingers can't count
Because of me

She wore red
And in my own minds eye I can see
A thousand false truths
Pure dying light
Because of me

She wore red

If you got a kidney
I'll trade ya
I got a giraffe
A connection with illegal African animal smugglers
And I promise
Giraffe meat is delicious

My oriental connect
Just sold me some ground up tiger ****
***** strong!!!!!!
You and your lovely lady friend
Will go all night long
Hit me up on my trap phone
We'll make a deal

Or if buying blue eyed babies is more your thing
It's something I can swing
On the down low


Basically
What you want
What you need
Hit me up
I got you man

The former artist formerly known as the artist formally known as the artist formerly known as Prince
Was always my proof that Minneapolis really is in outer space
Any one up for a game of basketball?
How about you and your friends versus me
And the revolution?

I don't need someone
I'm a survivor
I know how to stay warm
On the coldest nights

Wrapped up tight
You'll never see me shiver

I should cry
But I can't
I'm too much of a man too shed a tear
Or
Maybe I'm just too numb
And from all the pain
I've gone into shock

And whatever I'm feeling
I don't really feel
It all seems like a dream
Becoming a nightmare

And I can only stand outside the pain and watch

Because I love you
And your not alright
Even my shoes will fall apart
As I expect it is only deeper meaning
How much I love you
Probably more than you can ever know
And my shoes
And their sole
Are only just a metaphor

My every step
Foot falls harder
In unending goal
To walk to where you are

I'm ripping my sole to pieces

Right foot.

Is it coincidence
I like to think not
That when I first met you
Three times three
I saw a shooting star
Is it coincidence
That the day you leave me
I see another one

And though your gone
I still hold on
I made a wish on a shooting star
You know what I wished for

Sick
Sad
Pathetic
Little world
And the fear of the unknown
A disease is growing
Proliferating in populations
And syncophantic minds
Sick
Sad
Pathetic
Little world
And a cancer that cant be cured
Cell by cell and whole body
It eats insatiably
Until nothing is left
Sick
      Sad
           Pathetic
       l i t t l e
World
               Truth
                        You don't want to hear
Our world is a diseased
And we are the cause

Still
don't worry

Death is coming soon

The disease we create
Dies when we do

All the signs are red
Sign of the ram
As I see a noose hanging over my head
Sign of the ******
I can fall into
Announcing my intentions
I'm only here
Until I'm nothing anymore
All the signs point too
Stars amount to blood
And I know a knife and my verdant flesh
Time that I bleed
I can sink until
My head is far beneath
I only breath
If I can find the air

You are the weather of my soul
My fingers are trembling ships racing
Trying to reach an island
Where the seabirds play
In the light of a never ending sunset
Why now,
Are the storms raging silent?!
That I can see the tumultuous lightning
And feel the rain as it pounds onto my skin
But the gutteral growl of thunder
The instinct imparted from the crackling sky does die
And my ears listen to the sound of the beginning
My greatest fear
Silence
When there was nothing at all
And nothing again
In the end

You are the weather of my soul
The way a humid ninety-degree day invites the rain
And my fingers are song birds flying
Trying to reach the nest
A place to call home
My songbird fingers
Your skin
I can feel your pain
Still
I can't hear your voice
Silence is my greatest fear

Oh, my jaded love
My sunshine day
My storm
Encompassing me
My flood
Silence is my greatest fear
So talk to me!
Even if what is said
Is nothing I want to hear
You are nothing more than everything
The weather of my soul
My love
And even if its raining stinging drops of violent pain
Where you are
I want to hear it

We are all chicken of circumstance
We are all beast
Ghengis khan and atilla the ***
Animals just like me

We are all children of happenstance
Luck and opportunity
And if it happens to you
It can happen to me

And I believe you hurt as much
As you want to
And some are *******

Cynical pessimist
Woe is me
Nobody else has it as bad

Maybe something simple will suffice
I can see a lot of light
But I love even your darkness
My fingers spell your name
In dead languages
I can't read, but I can sing
Even louder than your demons scream

Maybe its not as simple as I would like
I can see a lot of life
But death in your hair I want to hold
My fingers draw your face
There's no color, but every line
Becomes the reason I will live
Even the pain you feel is my hope for tomorrow

Skies are blue
So are eyes
Oceans too

Love is red
So is blood
Passions too

Pain is black

I wanted to paint a rainbow on a soul
But I have no color
My brush is only tempting fate

Pain is black
So is night
And darkness too

Let me say it simply
Because the lowest common denominator
Will fail to comprehend
The loqaucious intonations of a verbose paramour trapped in Tartarus

So simply said
I want the world
And everyone on it
To understand

I only want to love
And it causes me such pain

The grass and the root
End the teardrops
Dewdrops
I find simplicity
Poison came
And poison went
Poison never ended my life
It only hurt me
Found its way
Into my arteries
Found my willing all in vein
And tore me apart
I find simplicity
In my inability
To deal
With complexity

Capable
I could venerate my experience
Through elaborate and unwarranted loquations
Merely to manifest my convoluted and labyrinthine mind
But I prefer to remain more lucid
And saying something simply
Is simply enough for me

I'm so tired
   Of the trying
The way I play with words
  Saying more with less
And the only lesson I have learned
Be
Simple
For
The
Masses
Are
                       Simple
Now come up
    Comeuppance all at once
Amateurs that strike against
    The professional
Its a lesson taught against from
Poets
Deaf
Dumb
Blind
And
Cynical
                       Simply said

I will
As surely as the dawn brings light
Into dark and broken night
I will
But still
I know how forever feels
And the ugliness it reveals
But still
I will
Remember my name
And the reason I came
I will
Sing again
I will

I want only
            never need
tomorrow
            the great unknown
I want to be the change
             I want to see in the world
I want to be
             the end
Singularity
              through my words
when all the
               difference
                                 becomes one
                                                      at long last
I want to be love

I roll a boulder
(Gigantic and imposing)
To the top of the hill
(Steep and unforgiving)
Just to have roll down the other side
(The story of my life)
And so once again

I roll a boulder
To the top of the hill
Just to have it roll down the other side

And so once again

Sleep well
My sweet angel
Sleep as an autumn seraph
In the bounty of the harvest
And there are no more nightmares
Only dreams

Sweet angel
Please sleep well
Knowing through the night
The bitter darkness
When you awake
I'll be at your side

And it will be enough to make you smile
Sleep well

Because I want nothing more
From you
Than what I need
And all I need
Is for you to keep dreaming
Sleep
Well
My
Sweet
Angel

I saw you
I thought a light in the dark of night
Someone who doesn't exist
Someone I want to be
I saw you
And quickly put you on a pedastle
A paragon of ideals
Perfection

I saw you
Make choices that change fate
Become something else
Something less
I saw you
And I couldn't believe
Sullying what is pure
No longer dressed in white

And its too late
I want love
I thought you wanted
But you want love
In physical form
Nothing more

You're just a ****

When I wake up
I want a smile on my face
I want to feel the way I should
I want to smile at the day
I used to smile all the time
When I woke up next to you
I don't smile anymore
Nothing left worth smiling for

When you wake up
You'll have a smile on your face
The smile that I see
Was the smile when you left
You used to smile all the time
Loved the way I made you smile
I don't smile anymore
You aren't smiling for me

I told you
I miss the time when I made you smile
Every time you saw me

Well right now
Is a dark night of my soul
And yours too

(And I know
Its easier to find one hundred new girls
Than to repair with one)

And you told me
That you've found someone else to make you smile
Every time you see him

And this is my pain
Knowing what I should be
Is something I'm not

(But I feel
I've let it go before without a care
I can't this time)

I told you
I only want you to be happy
Do i make you happy?

If I don't
It's best I leave


But
Still

I'll do anything I can
I hope you understand
I'm still trying my best

To help you smile
Through my pain
I known it matters

I don't ever smile
And if I do
Its just a mask I wear

Still i know
I believe, like angels speak to me
I'll smile all the time

And it will be
Something from a dream
Become reality

We will never be able to know where the sky begins
I feel no difference in the copper of our blood
The saline of our tears
All my rivers and all her oceans
So close there is no space between us that we don't fly through together
Her hand in mine
So close I am not a man
I am her

So ends the season
You haven't known god since she left
When you truly lived in the streets
Wondered at the conversations you never heard
And drove past a building everyday
You never once have been inside of
I think the price for these scars is too high
I think the sun sets in a new way each time
I think the skyline I can see from my window
Is only a dream
I think the light's playing tricks on my eyes
Only colors and shapes
But what to believe in
And what is the reason?
You haven't known god since she left
So ends the season

So many drown in depth
So few
Can see depth with feeling
I am an ocean
Could you be a shark?
Breathing underwater
Always moving forward
Ready to eat my words alive

So many burn in the fire
So few
Can ever control
I am a flame
Running wild
Untamed by hands of man
Turning all to ashes
Especially the willing cinder

I burn for you
I throw my spirit onto paper
My spirit
I only hope you can overcome

We share the same goals
And the same
Hopes
Our skin
Only conceals
What our blood reveals

We are a nation in crisis

But hopefully
The crisis doesn't tear us apart
As most would expect
But rather
It brings us together

One love
One heart
Let's get together and feel alright

Yes
We're on the brink
The brink of finding peace
We can make a change forward
For the best

One love

Because in reality
I'm only a man
With nothing in the world

And all at the same time
Too many thoughts were on my mind
That I couldn't pick one
So much to say I said nothing

I just stared blankly as you walked away
When you wanted me to walk with you

And all at the same time
So many thoughts were on my mind
So many dreams that don't come true
So many answers I'll never find

I was just looking for the question
When it never really mattered anyways

And all at the same time
Too many thoughts were on my mind
That I couldn't pick one
Too much to say I said nothing

I just stared blankly as you walked away
When you wanted me to walk with you

And all at the same time
So many thoughts were on my mind
So many dreams that don't come true
So many answers I'll never find

I was just looking for the question
When it never really mattered anyways

I had to die awhile
Sometimes
I had to let you go and hold you
I had to find and guide you
I've fought so many wars
I'll fight so many more
It was only salt and falling bombs
Spilling over the earth
The ground
The soil
My shield
My sword
I had to claim this shadow
As my own

Some kind of monster
With a beautiful soul

The only light he sees
Harbor shadows of pitchforks
And unruly mobs chanting

"Leave
Now,
We Don't Want Your Love"

And his days spent in solitude
Without a home
A place he can be
A place to belong

Some kind of monster
With a loving heart

But the appearance of a beast
Fanged and horned and rotten
With heavy breathing and gnarled fingers

"Leave
Now,
We don't want your love"

Some kind of monster
That's beautiful yet terrifying and ugly
And unable to control

Some kind of monster
With a beautiful soul

Who couldn't tell you
The last time
He smiled

I see
You were only waiting to hate me
Until you found someone else to love
Like I said
You'll hate that someone else before too long
You look for me
But I'll be gone

I can rest in the knowledge I'll always be
Something to you
Used to be someone you love
Now I'm someone you hate
But rest assured you'll always be
Something to me
Someone I couldn't save
Someone who helped me lose the better part of me

And as we part
With broken hearts
I can only say
Its really better off this way

But rest assured you'll always be
Something to me
Used to be someone I love
You'll always be someone I loved

Why are the most beautiful things
Always so fragile?
I couldn't hold the flower in my hands
Without breaking it

Well I picture something broken
With something beautiful
Growing out of it

Why is it a field full of hyacinths
Trampled by beast?
I couldn't walk through this field
Without crushing everything

Still I picture something broken
With something beautiful
Growing out of it

Why is it a world of wrecking *****
And you a heart of glass?
My love was always made of ghosts
And my heart made of stone

I was just a brute
Too caught up in my own pain
To see you were hurting too