he wasn't an angel--
but he wasn't the devil either.

like most of us,
he was caught floating
somewhere in between
wandering
and wondering
who
      exactly
               he
                  was.

Yes. I am ******, not a beast.
Why do you scoff at me?
Was it my wish to be so?
Had you wished to be a man?
And you too to be a woman?

The sun never fades away to see me.
The stars never stop shimmering.
The moon never goes into hiding.
The breeze never stops blowing.
The clouds never draw back.

All these angels fully know.
The Almighty made me different.
And all are same under the sky.

Are you so sensible so wise?
Would you stop me from rising?
You are melting day by day.
Then?
Let me breathe easily
Or He is ready to drop His wrath.

Of you,
I speak of
softest petals, always kissing
flowers, full bloom
wet drops, your reddened lips
pour darkest cherry wine
all the day, watercoloring
my skies

I think I knew when I spilled coffee on your favourite book
I couldn't find the same edition when I went to look
but you didn't care
because there are different versions out there
you told me that you felt like you were floating in the ocean
didn't know whether things were certain and going
this was your reasoning for our break
but you didn't consider how the current would
take something that wasn't even two months in
and take you somewhere new
find things about each other that you never knew
I argued
and I cried
I hung up
Then I called back and yelled
I didn't want you to break my heart
something you didn't even want from the start
you asked to be my friend
towards the end
and maybe someday I'll be okay with that idea
but for now I'm going to just not talk
because friendship isn't what I want