I am not worth it, I am not enough
People tell me I am, but I am not
It is not what I think, it is what I feel

If I really deserve to be happy
Will I have to feel this way?
I can't love myself anymore
I can't fight for my happiness any longer

Disappointments are eating me up
Frustrations are consuming me
Sadness is swallowing me
Anxiety is killing me
Depression is burying me alive

I do not need someone to rescue me, I do not need any love anymore
I just want to sleep and never wake up ever again

Naaalala mo pa ba nung huli kang naging masaya?
Yung totoong masaya
Maayos yung buhay mo
Maayos lahat
Masaya ka
Aminin mo, naging masaya ka talaga

Alam mo yun?
Yung pagod ka pero masaya
Pero ngayon?
Pagod ka na lang
Pagod kahit walang ginagawa
Pagod kakaisip

Ano kayang nangyari kung nag-isip ka nang mabuti?
Nag-isip ka nga ba talaga?
E wala, puso na naman
Katangahan

Tatlong beses mo sinunod puso mo
Bakit?
Kasi doon ka masaya?

Tatlong beses mo sinunod puso mo
Oo naging masaya ka
Pero ano nangyari sa huli
Diba’t nasaktan ka lang?

Tatlong beses mo sinunod puso mo
Sinundan ka ba ng kasiyahang hinahanap mo?
Hindi
Ano nangyari?
Hinabol ka ng mga kagaguhan mo

Ngayon, mag-isa ka na lang
Mag-isa ka na ulit
Mag-isa ka na naman
Takot ka na naman
Kaninong kasalanan?
Diba sa'yo?
Pero diba 'yan naman ang gusto mo?
Ang mapag-isa?
Ang maging duwag sa putanginang pag-ibig?
Ang sarilihin lahat ng problema mo dahil ayaw **** may ibang madamay?

Pero hanggang kailan ka magpapalamon sa takot mo?
Hanggang kailan mo sasaktan ang sarili mo?
Kailan ka ulit magiging masaya dahil sa tamang dahilan?

Kailan?

Patawad,
Sa lahat ng mga bagay na nawala
Sa mga oras na nasayang
Sa mga tawanan at kwentuhang hindi na mauulit
Sa mga luhang hindi alam kung kailan titigil
Sa mga pagkakataong pinalipas

Totoo nga
Hindi sapat ang pagmamahal
Kailangang paghirapan at pagtrabahuan
Pero paano mo nga ba masasabi na mahal mo talaga ang isang tao?
Kung puro sakit na lang ang nararanasan

Hindi sapat ang pagmamahal
Sa dinami-dami ng dahilan para umalis ka sa isang relasyon, bakit ka nga ba nananatili?
Dahil sa pagmamahal na pinanghahawakan mo?
Pero paano kung yung ka-isa isang dahilan kung bakit ka nananatili ay nararamdaman mo nang unti-unting nawawala?
'Wag mo nang pahirapan ang sarili mo at ang minamahal mo o nagmamahal sa'yo
'Wag **** hintayin dumating sa punto na wala nang matira sa inyo pareho
Hindi tama ang "ibigay mo ang lahat"
Tandaan mo na bago ka magmahal ng ibang tao, kailangang buo ang sarili mo

Sa isang relasyon, dalawang tao ang dapat na nagtutulungan
Hindi isa lang
Hindi isa lang ang masaya
Hindi isa lang ang umiintindi
Hindi sapat na "gagawin ko 'to para mapasaya siya"

Siguro nga, mahirap talagang magmahal
Pero ganun naman talaga diba?
Pag para sa taong mahal mo, lahat kakayanin mo
Pero sapat nga ba yun?
Hindi.
Dahil paano ka magmamahal kung ikaw mismo ubos na?
Paano ka magbibigay kung ikaw mismo wala na?

Hindi ka nagmamahal para buuin ang isang taong wasak
Hindi ka nagmamahal para baguhin ang isang tao
Hindi ka nagmamahal para may maipagyabang ka sa mga kaibigan mo
Hindi ka nagmamahal para waldasin ang pera ng magulang mo

Nagmamahal ka para sa ikabubuti ng pagkatao mo at ng minamahal mo
Nagmamahal ka para malaman mo kung bakit ka talaga nandito sa mundong 'to
Nagmamahal ka para maging masaya, hindi para maging miserable
Dahil kung gusto mo lang din naman maging problemado, maraming problema ang Pilipinas na pwede **** atupagin

Kung nagmamahal ka na lang para masaktan at makasakit, hindi na yan pagmamahal
Ang pagmamahal ay hindi katumbas ng pagpapakatanga
Oo, may mga bagay na magagawa mo lang dahil sa pag-ibig
Pero kung magpapaka-tanga ka na rin lang, hindi mo ba mas gugustuhin na matuto at malaman ang mga mas importanteng bagay sa mundo?

Totoo nga, there's more to life than love
Hindi mo kailangan madaliin ang pag-ibig dahil marami pang pwedeng mangyari sa buhay mo
Marami ka pang makikilala
'Wag **** paikutin ang mundo mo sa isang tao na walang kasiguraduhan na magtatagal sa buhay mo

Bakit hindi mo muna buuin ang sarili mo hanggang sa dumating ang taong magmamahal sa'yo na kapantay ng pagmamahal na kaya **** ibigay?

Pero paano kapag si teacher naman ang nangailangan ng tulong?
Paano kapag si teacher naman ang nahirapan?
Paano kapag hindi na rin maintindihan ni teacher ang mga pangyayari?
Paano kapag si teacher mismo napagod na?
Paano kapag ubos na ang pasensya ni teacher?
Sinong iintindi sa kanya?
Mauunawaan ba siya ng mga musmos na nangangapa pa lang sa buhay?
Paano kung si teacher mismo naliligaw?
Kaya bang sagipin ni teacher ang sarili niya?
Kakayanin niya ba?
Kaya niya pa ba talaga?
Kaya niya ba talaga?

Ode to my teacher,
oh what a wonderful,
delightful, energetic
teacher.

So full of love,
and patient when
we need it most
my teacher.

It's a shame you
have to go before
the rest of us do.

This is an ode
to you - our teacher
to thank you
for your help along
our way.

You are like the tree
and us the apples of
your eye. Love us-
teacher.

We hold you with the
importance of the sun
for we are the plants
bowing our heads to you -
teacher.

we have used similes
and metaphors
just for you -
our beautiful teacher.

Thank you -
really.

A teacher: The Villain and the Hero
One inspiration, one true motivation  
That one person who gives his powerful students  
The right direction
That one teacher who fights for the future of others
Who finds success in the success of others
That one person who further form a teacher
Is a human-being
He might seem like a villain to some
But he is a hero to others
He is my hero

Picked me up from the gutter
Made me strong enough to deal with
X equals A to the second power multiplied times two
He is that one teacher who taught me how to leave problems behind
And solve equation easier and faster
That one teacher who became a role model
The perfect inspiration any student needs
His way of teaching the concept  
His way of giving us the chance to be teachers our selves  
That way of making us the main importance
His way of giving us our place in his class room

Taking possession of our minds and changing them to capable ones
Making each and every one of us students who can solve anything
He expects a lot from all of us, He expects a lot from me
He gives me the challenges that I can handle
Gives me a chance to prove my self
He taught me that X is just a variable
That X is the solution
That you should not be afraid of the variable  
That the solution is hidden behind the other factors
That lesson I use in my daily life

I'm not afraid of any problem in any subject
Because he taught me how to deal with problems
And when finding X was hard,
He was there ready to answer my questions
As I walk away during lunch  
I wish him a good lunch
But what I'm actually saying is
You have done a lot for these, your students
Now give yourself a break and do something for your self.

He might just be an algebra teacher
Or a staff member at Riverside University High school
Or just Mr. Sepulveda, to some people
But for me he means more than that.
For me he is a hero
That can travel the distance
And can fix any problem with time
He is the Hero who inspires me  

He is a teacher
Whom I admire greatly
Not for being a teacher
Or being at Riverside
I admire him because he made me strong
In Algebra
In my problems
In life  
And now In my poetry

You sometimes are the villain
For giving me a B in a test
But you are the hero because for every B
I get another challenge  
And I know that with your help
I will get an A in Life.  
You are the Villain of my mind
But the Hero of my Heart
Thank-you Mr. Sepulveda
Written by: Estrella Luciano
For: A true hero
P.S. I still think I deserved an A on that one test. ;)

Ready to barter my
last wish with your tulips
glowing in eyes.

I didn't ask for
any help to decipher my
blue dream of edge.

Two little words may
be sufficient to
resuscitate charm.