I wanted to take the time to write you this because you deserve nothing less than complete honesty. I know I've told you just how beautiful you truly are to me but I still feel as if you don't see what I see. Thats partly my fault because your beauty is more honest than I've ever been able to be with you. Your beauty is bold and unafraid so maybe it's my turn to be the same.

Honestly when I look at you I'm reminded that if you stare at the sun too long you can go blind but I wouldn't mind if the last image I  ever saw was your smile. Your smile reminds me of that, the sun. It leaves a lasting warmth that lingers even on cold nights. Ive painted your smile so many times in my head that I've memorized every little curl.

Honestly your eyes remind me of the north star. Like I could get lost in them, if they didn't point the way back home, to you. Under the bright city lights your eyes are the only stars that refuse to be outshined.

Honestly I've  learned that I'm my happiest when I watch you dance. Those moments where I can feel your happiness as your body glistens under the dimly lit dance floor. All I can think about is the mornings before winter, when the air is first getting cold. The frosted mornings that leave the world icy as if by magic.

Honestly your voice sounds like a song I've known my whole life but never knew the words to, so I just forever hum the tune trying to remember what's been forgotten. It echoes through me while the racing beat of my heart fights to keep time just praying it can be the next song you dance to.

I know you thought my eyes lit up every time another girl walked in but it's you who illuminated my world with just a simple smile. It's no wonder your name means God is my strength because I've needed the strength to breath after God stole one of my ribs and made you. So before you doubt your beauty again, look at yourself through my eyes, and know that,
Honestly,
You just need to smile and my whole world makes sense.

I miss you like the earth misses the sun, during the night while the world is hushed in its slumber. I miss you like I miss breathing because I've been holding my breath since our last goodbyes. I used to think time stood still in those moments when our bodies were entangled and our lips embraced eachother in a way that always seemed so familiar. But without you my love time has come to a complete stop. Seconds seem like hours and hours like days without you by my side. The broken pieces of my heart now resemble the sands of time slipping through an hourglass. And yet I still feel the pulsing beat in the voided emptiness left in my chest. I still love you and I always will. I wish I could take the pieces of my broken heart and fill a snow globe just for you so you will never forget the story of how I fell for you.

God made me the way I am
And sometimes I wonder
Why God
Why would you make a man to walk this world alone with a heart the same size as the grinches...
At the end of the movie
I realize that I am only 25 and some might think that is not a long time to be without love
To them I say spend the next 25 years of your life blind
Because in 25 years I have never been able to see what beauty really is
Spend the next 25 years of your life deaf
Because in 25 years I have never been able to hear her voice
Spend the next 25 years of your life ... holding your breath
Because since the day she was born I've had a pain in my side where God stole one of my ribs
He stole one of my ribs in hopes that when I came across her
I would recognize the missing piece of me in her smile
And on that day I would be able to tell her
That I will love her as if we are the only two people on earth
Because I'm her Adam
And she is my Eve

Here I am pen in hand
about to write another stupid love poem
still unsure if i have ever been in love
See I used to fake love to get handsy under the bleachers
now I'm so practiced at faking love that I could probably get Grammys
My words have always been adequate enough to put smiles on girls faces
But my words have never been concrete enough to find a place with anyone in particular
Maybe that why I find it easier to bounce around from girl to girl making declarations of love to you and then again to her
I've even gotten so good at faking love that I have fooled myself into believing I'm someone worth loving
So good in fact that there are days when I wish my hands were made of sandpaper because I've been stroking my ego so much that I've started devoloping carpal tunnel in my smile
But then again I've always had pain behind my grin

When I see you looking my way everything fades to black
A spotlight hits you and we become the only people in the world
It is in these moments when I want to tell you everything I've been keeping secret like
From the first time I saw you I became imprisoned in your eyes, imprisoned to multiple life sentences with no chance of parole
Or if your voice was my alarm, my snooze button would get so lonely it would be forced to use dating sites in hopes to finally get some action
I want to tell you that your laugh sounds like my favorite song, and I want to keep it on repeat until it
keep it on repeat until it skips
I want to keep it on repeat until it skips
I want to tell you that your smile is my favorite movie, that I could know it line for line and still watch it like it was the first time
And to be honest I've spent so many nights talking to the moon about you, telling the moon all the things I'm too scared to tell you because when I see you looking my way I get really nervous and all that comes out is
"Hi...uh nice... shoes"