My eyes really open up to know the world will go on without me
I'm stuck living life from check to check and mirror to selfie
What is this world of self admiration without self confidence?
A fake sense of belonging for a measly thumbs up and a "share"
Funny to know that most of the time we all don't care
Conscious and worried in the back of our mind
Love me notice me be with me it all rushes in
This fear of being alone come about through wires not connected to our brain
Never have I felt such a rush from reading characters
and to think you have no idea if I've ever read a book or not
Take a second and think about that thought

Feel the beat and never stop
Beat your feet until you drop
Drop what you're doing and come with me
With me I'll show you a world you've yet to see
See if you can look away
Away from reality, you've come to play
Play the song that will make me move
Move with me indulge the sweat
Sweat will make you more comfortable better yet
Yet is when you will have had enough
Enough to be had fill your satisfaction
Satisfaction, until I can get my..
My satisfaction creates the mood for the night
Turn up the music child, it'll be alright

No tie downs I'm livin free
Girls on my mind straight animosity
With females around I don't feel alone
A little bit or love on the rocks to take me home
Home is where your heart is
Where do I reside?!
Away from my past life by your side
Anchor me down but keep the fun
I changed when I realized you were the one

We are all connected
What I just don't get is
No one is connecting

No matter how big you dream during all the hard times you scream but nobody can hear you there's no easy way to say I need you everyday but I can never see you  the limits are the sky I haven't learned to fly so there's no way to reach you on the phone or with these eyes but it's no Suprise no one knows the real you perfection is a test which people suit you best there will never be a you

You can't leave me, not like this
Call me selfish but your best friend is hurting you
Comfort from an inanimate poison
Self hate and self harm
So much charisma, your happiness exudes
Radiating your essence to make others envious

You can't leave me like *this

What's going to happen when you lead and nobody follows?
You say something with no comment or interaction?
Step left and they all go right
Asleep during the day while all those roam under the light
Afraid to be alone yet silence if your friend
Sunglasses at night just to keep from seeing your shadow
Even you know your ways are sinister
Controlling others unable to control ones self
Minds to play with but never yours
Misery loves company and that's why you adore
Living life full with a glass half empty
Is this as happy as we'll ever be?

People who say they aren't scared are lying
They wouldn't be here right now trying
For their easy way out just a few years
some of us try to make it when we're still wet behind the ears
but its ok let me tell you it's alright
we're all in this together through the day and through the night
For where ever you walk we will walk with you
Until our time is up and we have nothing left to do

Constantly getting back at each other but never giving
Some call it love but I call it selfish
We hold out our hands not to help but to receive it
How can we borrow so much and never return it?
Secondary actions never concerned with
How can we ask even when it's so empty?

Take a step, but look out below
I wanna know all the secrets trouble knows
I'll fill your head with lies and fairy tales
Just to see what I can get out of you
I know what I want, and what you want
To turn it into a personal game, to watch the lies build this foundation
Nothing to gain, to win, to lose
What I want stands here in a deep and heavy mist only true evil and sinners can penetrate
Misery may love company but evil just the same.
Take my hand, let me control you and what you feel
I fear these lies have caught up with me, like the underdog in their element
I bid you a farewell, but know I will be back.

What we want and need
We differently perceive

I want you, but you don't need me
Hardly even want, cold reality
But giving up is not my mentality

Finishing what I started, quit not in my vocabulary
Persistence and commitment it's what I do
For the things that I do are not for you
For you it's a show and for me it's a game
To play it well for me, just to get you? What a shame.

What we need we cast aside for menial possessions
When wanting possesses us we lose our directions
Too stubborn to stop and ask on the road
I wish I could welcome you to my humble abode

Lost in translation
Perception of reality a mess
What seems right one day like the days reset
Unsaved data
Hours wasted
No money but time spent
Time waits for no man
Our hour glasses disappearing
The sands fade away in the waters of life
It gives but mostly takes
But make no mistake
Your life is only right twice a day

It's my dark side
A shadow cast by the sun
My other half
The half of less fun
No expressions with a hint of sad
Wondering can my shadow really feel as bad?
As I do when it's dark alone with my thoughts
Staring at the sun to see those bright spots
Punishing my eyes until it grows bright
Exposing my darkness to unveiling light
Misery loves company a shadows with no words
Silence my new friend haven't you heard?

Those eyes and those hips
Icy stare snake like motion
Modern medusa

Just forget about everything you ever wanted and want me
Have every bit of energy to be spent on me...with me
Lose your ambition, lose sight of your goals
Your morals belong to me, intertwine our souls
Two becomes one, doesn't this seem like fun?
A little game I've created, no where to hide, to run
I'll take you down a peg before you know
Is this really love, or just a really funny way to show it?

How I've wished this water was whiskey
In my absence, will "they" miss me
The world around me moving quite slow
My life would be over if this water was alcohol
How I wish someone would look up to me, a role model
I keep these unseen feelings in an internal bottle
Ready to drink, water to ***
If this water was alcohol my life would done

Days go on and I just drone out
Zone out thinking what am I going to do about
This life I'm leading and this air I'm breathing
Which is better? Which is worse?
sometimes I feel cursed
To let history repeat itself until I end up in a hearse
Sometime you're not going to be able to blame someone else until all that's left is your own doing
Ask yourself when did you stop pursuing?
Those wild dreams and adventures you talked so vividly about?
You only fail, when you quit!
Success is inevitable so let me tell you quick
Take both hands and get a grip
Because it's your life to live and you're stuck with it

Competing with smiles
All thirty-two contestants
Faceless deception

On the floor covered in filth as she stoop over the mutilated mess she caused. Nothing to do but run for safety. " It's too late, no one can save me. Saving me was no easy task." But it is when you wear 15 other masks, right? Suddenly she heard a shriek not very far next thing she knew she was in a car with a man. she had never seen him before. He said "How much you little *****!" As she tried to say she wanted a kiss she realized today she had a lisp. The man slowly reached for her clothes. She leaned over and broke his nose, and that's when things got out of control. The man said "The **** did you do that for?" she didn't think she just pushed him out the door. His body lays on the highway all ****** and graphic, slowly being shredded by on coming traffic. Scared and alone no idea what to do. A life of misery lies ahead said mask number two. Misery loves company isn't  this fun? We're just getting started said mask number one.

Biting the hand that feeds
Creating a stomach that bleeds
Offset by the wants and needs
Until insanity by definition succeeds

It's been time for the past 5 minutes
Do or die it's what we say
Game time, all the time, no more work, just play
Hands shaking, stomach quaking, mind aching, nerves breaking
Our object and goal clear with the rooms gravity intensifying
Sweating, it's cold, pressure, I'm trying
No time to waste, our time to use
A game where we can all tie win or lose
The crowds expressionless faces their infamous harks
The more I think about it, we're the fishes in the sea of sharks
The pressure they put on me was always provoked
I couldn't overcome it even on my best days
When it comes to the real do I have always choked

My heart lies on the other side of the world
Though I've never been I can only assume it's amazing
The fact that love can reach anywhere is over my head
Concepts of beauty and understanding we all have them
Some differ from others but we all need love
A picture is not only worth a thousands words
It's also worth a thousand feelings
Sad happy just to show
My heart captivated by an 8x8
And I want the world to know

Saying a whole lot we'd never do
Like hey man hit me up and come through
Simpler times like we still in high school
When you're an adult it's like there is a common trend
Where we start is most likely where we end
Customer service like have a good day
In the end we just wanna get paid
Weekends turn to stories of how messed up you are
Then novels about how you didn't go far
21 hit the bar instead of raising it
420 still smoking might as well face it
Mind state same color as a nosebleed
Wired mind figuring out what you need
Reapers lurking might as well concede

"mr blue sky please tell us why you had to hide away for so long"
Beyond the cloudy days and mystifying ways of everyday
Sunshine to illuminate a beautiful canvass for our eyes to paint
Show me the way to sun kissed freedom up above the craziness let me dive into a whole new world of clear and absolute the way things should be but instead people like clouds can often ruin a good day or get in the way or just plain stay where we least want them but I digress blue sky preferred over this cloudy mess

These tired eyes have closed
To dream of better days, better times
"One day I will get out of this god forsaken place"
Too many times I've had egg on my face
I've always been lost in reality but the gravity is much worse
No choice or chance for me to grab, we can't all be winner eh?
In my head is the safest, come take shelter
For reality comes knocking with much more than harsh words
Choices to make no time to waste
Time to get out of this god forsaken place
Off to the land in my head safer than a fallout zone
No trouble in sight, in my head...all alone

When absurdity starts to make sense and you've seen all the time you've spent away from the thing or person you love the most an it's staring at you like you're a ghost of your former self, trapped inside this emotional shell you call a body find a way out of this new age hell

I thought I was a poet and wanted to write
When that bordom hits you in the middle of he night
You would scribe yourself a poem until you got the feeling right
It just hits you, a barrage of words
The sound of my  voice reverbs
Words in a flurry from my head to my toes
This poet going might work out in time who knows

She could see right through me, X-ray vision
She made up her mind
I made a decision
I ain't going back, like I just got out of prison

Her eyes screamed "**** me" you can just tell
Her body so slender
Yeah I'm going to hell
Her hand inched onto my belt buckle, well

Here's how it happened, practically a fantasy
All my moves predicted
But she didn't care she wanted me
I saw that and I kept on going because I wanted to see

Where I'd end up, her room, her bed, her mini pink
It's not hard to see where this is going but I was..
My brain shut off no more room to think
The air clouded my mind and the lust didn't

But instead rose to new heights, ******* euphoria
We rolled off the bed and on to the floor with her
It felt too real for this to be such a vivid dream
The sound of her pleasure practically a scream

Lucid dreamer, I've longed for this power
Even if the dream lasts a minute, it feels like an hour

Hearts beat for so long
Only when they forget how to
Love has gone missing

So much now that could have helped myself but now I choose to help others
Only those with experience know the struggle of late knowledge
To many now would be better then and then would be better now
If you could send words of wisdom to you past self what would you sound?
You could solve a thousand problems with one simple solution
I've  lived, I've learned, I've lost, and still have so much to gain

There's no one out here influencing me
And the people I look up to
I dont even see

Talk is cheap but can you afford it?
Making plans with you is like "Mission Aborted"

Time is money but time is priceless
It all leads back to a very common crisis

The ones you adore turned the ones you adored
You thought it was forever but nothings assured

When silence is communication, that awkward recognition
When all that spark and friendship goes missing

Cat got your tongue? No, but this felines got feelings
Words with no gravity goes straight to the ceiling

I can't feel you do you feel me?
It wasn't easy but now I see

All these clouds raining on my sunshine
Now I know you were never meant to be mine

There is nothing I can say that hasn't been said
Just a different way of making you see the bigger picture in your head
The imagery is more vibrant and memorable
Something held closer to your heart to spark the love you still hold inside
For those who have maid you wheep and cry
whether it was girls or a guys
The realest feelings are the ones coming from your eyes  
In disguise
Covered by a smile to no ones surprise

First glance at the airport a mini mouse
Meeting up to take me back to the town house
Feels like we've been friends for way too long
Aimless laughing and much to come
A sweet girl much love to give
A kindred spirit I've yet to see live
Living it up in the dead of night
Never argue or even fight
One good time after the next
Even spending time with your soon to be ex
I hope I didn't take it too far
But it's okay I promise you this
I'll be sure to see you in the near future
You taught me friends come in all shapes and sizes
And even strangers are full of surprises
I wish we spent more time I do
Just over zealous me and itty bitty you

I am an American Soldier
I face challenges less than 1% of the world faces
Courageous, fit to fight, ready to go.
Guns and war are not the only thing we do you know
We learn and progress to better ourselves
To protect those who cannot protect themselves
Not saying they are weak but have other intentions
Freedom is no easily earned but evenly distributed
I am an American soldier and I will fight until I'm DEAD

I said I got years of experience in months what you think
A test of self control, she said I wasn't old enough to drink
But I'd do it anyhow drunk or not I want not you but us
Two people wanting  eachother wants almost earie
Inhibition all time high leave the excuses for "the next guy"

Is it bad I don't educate myself?
I have desire for the books on the shelf
Yet I want others to read about me
It's  apparent I create my own irony
Hire me hire me I want them to see
What I have to say and what I want to do
Between me and you I have a lot to prove
Stick and move my writing rides on with the groove
Like the fads that entertain me and you
I'm trying to be as trendy but can't hit the viral brew
A concoction to spread like wild fire I desire
Kindled fire higher power fame lasting longer than an hour
Is it too much to ask? So much time has passed
It's when your dreams get up and start running you pursue
All those things you been searching for is right inside of you

Worrying about the future, worry about the now.
Always wondering when but never how
Problems that haven't happened yet
All these "what ifs" and "oh I bets"
Past dues last tues for accumulated debts
The life of an adult isn't always glamor
It's just a take on how you use the hammer
To build your future piece by piece
Until you mind is at peace at least
You're able to eat
Don't think of the bad friend think of the good
Not the "can I?" But the "I could"
So take it easy, take a pill because in the future I know "I will"

Hello, a simple gesture
Nearly impossible to be friendly without assumption now a days
In a world of paradigms of the opposite *** and this go go go and instant satisfaction induced generation I'd welcome this dissolution from the world we live in today just to taste what reality was meant to be like

Writing is the music in my mind
The kind that's got you stepping
Word play done so right
My meanings will keep you guessing
About you, me, or them the question
Words light up your mind open up your third spectrum
Minds eye wide opening another dimension
Did I mention what writing is?

No time to bleed, to wait and see
What you're trying to hide, just want a peek inside
Don't wanna rush, push, or shove
Don't gotta show me no love
Just don't keep me on the counter, and forget about me
An old game you don't play, gathering dust, stored away
Stop taking pieces of who I was, to build who I am now
No clue how to feel, if this is real
We've grown too similar it's pushed you and I away
Take it from me stay away it will bring us closer apart
The further you are away the more I can feel my heart

Like a brand new toy
All is fair in love and war
Loosely holding hands

My mind travels to the darkest depths within itself when I've got the time
Time I've got now it has me
Stuck in the grasp of that which cannot be reused
I've become it's personal charger
A slave of time caught somewhere with my toes in its sand
In awe, time has its way with all of us
Nothing to be done, so much to be seen
The end of time never sounded so lovely

The whole time I've been scared
Not knowing if I'd be here tomorrow
So I smoked it..
Fuzzy memory, smoked to the nth degree
So high, so high
Our minds touched the sky
Raining down thoughts of who I was and what I wanted
Far gone, Far forgotten
It didn't do much, few laughs here and there
Got **** to do, but I didn't care
I had my chances, burned all my  bridges
Up in smoke, unclear; my path ahead
Sifting through I push on, what do I see?
The end of the road; the end of me
Will it come down to this?
Death's holding my hand, but I'm holding it loose
Inhale the dark and free your mind

A woman
with not much more to give than a smile and kind gestures
Discontent but not for herself, but what she lives
By choice but it feels like that of a trap
She loves and loves but nothing ever gives
She nods and believes god will have her back even if it doesn't feel that way
The love from her burns greater than a saints angelic glow
Wondering if her kids are happy will I follow on that path?
Lovers who morn with no loss but that of their love
Agreeing to hold each others hands in the night but loosely
Turn day, the show began for the children and those who doubt
Pride the illustrious white horse that can choose the path of good or evil
But whom to consume with each path the fakers or the unknowing?

I'm not scared of you...
I just don't know what to say
I see you walking toward me...I see you on your way
I..I...My heart starts to beat faster
Your beauty my obsession
Wanting every fiber of your being...
Wanting...
Needing...
The idea of you...
Gets me so high
You and me
Our bodies melt into one
our minds in the sky
All I ever do is think, think, and over think
How come I'm afraid of you, and you aren't afraid of me?

I wasn't programmed for this
To feel, to need
What doesn't fit, and what I can't see
In my mind it's soft to the touch
Yet hazy and misleading as the night
Shadows dance, but not with me
Emptiness even after sun down

They stare at me while I stare you
Sitting behind hope faded from the truth
Craving; yes  as I feel that heartbeat through my chest you've seen the worst and I am the best but...
They stare at me while I stare at you
You're vision once set on me now grown through times skew advances
Live fast die young **** love and romance then.