In a different place and a different time
I'd find your smile, that pale soft face
The cold hard truth is, I'd follow you down
To the ends of this world, to the end of my rope
I'm all for serious, I'm funny but this my dear is no joke
I'd hold your hand the whole way just to hear you say you need me

Where have you gone, where do you go
In the nights and hours I need you the most
Nobody cares and nobody knows
But to me you're nothing more than a ghost

I Promise I won't say a thing
Just come sit, let me push you on the swing
Share a laugh or two once more
Stay out late, use the back door

We could venture the night, brave our hardships
Solve all our problems with a little hard work
We can work it all out, there's no doubt about it

Looking into someones eyes, I don't recognize them anymore
Knife that's in your mind covered in blood on the floor
Razor sharp mind with a dull outlook
Wondering how much man out of me would this have took?
The rhyming Scheme a bit cliche what can I say
The artistry pumps through my arteries
And while I create this imagery
Let's take a look at the real me
Can you feel me?
Can you sense my presence?
Taste the story as it unfolds
See the things I've never told
Hear the words coming from my head
Rather than the mouth that's fed you lies instead

All of us are magnets attracted and repelled in all different directions
Sticking to what ever metal foundation we can surface, hold on tight ; gravity

Remember the times we use to share
Nights by the fire, I'd stroke your hair
We laughed we loved we braved the rain
I'll never forget this sugar coated pain
I was so young I couldn't see
A love too real, fantasy; imaginary
I held your hand but held it loose
In the other a tightly knotted neuse
Now if you asked me back I could only refuse

So beautiful but you're not as real as I want to believe
Your features drawn on; emotions erased
Face flawless masked with your harkening depression
That yearns for release and the problems to be lifted
Happiness there but a facade to show what isn't shown
As much as I can try to I do but nothing seems to work
Look in the mirror unrecognizable to ones self
*Beyond help... I hope not

You can't sit there looking at yourself
When you're standing there wishing you were somebody else

Don't change your shoes, until they've been filled
Years of experience takes time and effort to build

The the comfort we all felt inside a pillow fort
Like motherly foundation, call it moral support

Looking in the mirror unable to see yourself
It's okay you're still looking for that book on the shelf

I wish I never fell for you
Hands on my chest to keep my heart from jumping out
Your name your being you're all I want to talk about
But I don't get it, you don't even flinch
Life's hard for you and harder for me since
You said my name and we shared a kiss
I am pushed aside because of someone else
My eyes stray while you have your way
All I want to do before you leave is say
I wish I never fell for you

So red, out of sight!
Talk about the cold shoulder
Is it summer yet?

Call it an infatuation, this tornado is my destination. The eye of your storm brings me closer to home. A place where I've felt oh so distant for so long. Take me away into the sky, before you end up whirling another guy

I want my hands full with yours  in them
I'll fill your heart up with enough beats to keep your body going
I'll yell to keep everyone knowing
This right here is your shoulda coulda woulda been

Blizzard take me in as we disappear
Wrap me in your frosty White
Snow Blind I can see things so clear
Illuminate the sky with your snowy light
Cover the world to make us know
The world is kinda pretty with all this snow

Everything happens for a reason
Rags to riches stuck in your head busy dreaming
Yeah I know you see them
Choices and actions form your future
All depends on how you perceive them
Money power and intelligence often missed
We get caught up in the dream we forget to create the scheme
Planning, it's harder than a tomorrow do you want to hangout
People are too busy with this "bangout"
They forget what their lives are even about

Tell me how you feel to you is this grass as green
as the life and actions of you go unseen?
Rags to riches far from fictitious
To the victor go the spoils who is more ambitious?

Rags to sheets, packing heat, wondering where you're gonna get the next eat
Cliche, or dangerously true? It's up to you
See it through and tell me what is there to do
Trapped in the hustle when you lose the grind
Instead of making you're doing time
Spare some change fill your cup
On the corner selling your sell like your don't give a...
Well if my words brought you there you're in the right place
Rags to riches ain't for all but don't we all just want a taste?

You're attention span I could measure using my arms
But I'd rather use them to keep you from running
Into the arms of another

You love me when I'm gone
But when I'm near it turns to a game
One I've never been good at but still play

When my efforts lessen, you seem to notice
You want to be a part of the distance
But never the circumference, that is me

A game of tag, after 10 minutes
the more I try
the more you want nothing to do with it

Inevitably, *me

My life quickly coming apart at the seams
It would seem life has a funny way of takin you back to reality
Take away your natural high and shout to bring you down from cloud 9
Far from reality a really bad film
Where nothing goes right or the way you planned
Yet it's a comedy the irony, now that's reality

Friends come and go it's good to know at your highs and at your lows friends come and go

I'm "going hard" no I'm not alone
Ain't found a place yet to call my home
I'm hungry call me an animal
Looking at humans like a cannibal but I ramble though
leave your thoughts jumbled in your cantaloupe
I've lost hope for the past because it our future
Living in a world among leeches and moochers we call them losers, dead beats and abusers
Funny how beggars can't be choosers
But I write to save the world you see
I may not seem phased   by all this gravity
So let me put this weight on you
What can a no name writer do
Write on brother and sisters
The pen is my weapon
Paper that ammunition
Make an impact on a million lives is the mission
So I take shots here and there daring and dizzy
Put my words on this paper could it be that easy?
Sticking to the grind till they miss me

flakes pour down and surround me
Coldest I've ever felt and will be
Showered with the feeling or better yet
Trapped in the blizzard of my regret
stinging cold to correct my mistakes
Gone too fast life's cut my brakes
blacking out onto incoming traffic
A warm day I can only imagine it

In her eyes displayed a woman once happy, once. Her smile use to be the comfort we all yearn for when we're young. A voice of happiness collapsed by the cold hard world we all were brought in to live. But I ponder, what happened to this woman? Is this a world we were all meant to live in? Equality, a word used but never meant. Equality made this woman lose her mind. She didn't misplace it, overtime she took a gamble on life and can you guess what the end result was? Life took her hard work and effort just to throw it back at her. She's been swinging a sword against an impenetrable shield for years. Are you not entertained? Neither is she, fed up with life's punch line her life is the joke. No where to run and all the floors are wet. She's the janitor of her own life but can't ever clean up. The one thing to power such a woman is her selflessness toward everyone in the future. She's already submitted to life in so many aspects are continue for everyone who counts on her. Spending life in poverty, through hard work she prospers but to just barely get by? Understand this life was for all to enjoy but how come we fight for a tablespoon of what we all want to do, live a little.

I've got a million reasons why I shouldn't be awake
I've prayed every night but still you take

What little sanity I have left by keeping you in my thoughts

What we were and what we could have been
Funny how we are now versus how we were then

You'd take me for a drive just to hear me talk
Park far away from my house to hold my hand longer while we walk

To my door to call it a night
You'd kiss me, say I love you sleep tight.

You don't care if I ever see the sun
Because the whole time you threw me shade just do fun

It was never your intention to stick by my side
Just to take what little sun I have left and hide

Goodbye us it's been real
Only time will tell, only time will heal

Mixed feelings up late
Stupid fights; that love hate
We fight to keep the flame alive
Give no less than all I got
Remember where we first met?
Forget that better yet
Remember where we first kissed
Time with you will always be missed
Your love to me was always worth earning
And cannot bare our separation I'm learning

Smile, malevolent
I heard you were trouble, but with me it's double
I couldn't stay away if you paid me
I'd pay to call you baby

Yea I heard you were trouble
I want to share your pain
No pain no gain
I might be insane

To think this would ever work again
It doesn't work now and didn't back then
Membrane, must refrain from making this choice in vein
Insanity ward pass on the word you didn't hear this from a little bird

What is it?
That's makes my relevance so easily detachable?
One day I'm the toast of the town, and the next, vacancy, a LOT of disappointment
When I want to grasp I sense the grip of my efforts slipping from my almost ghost like fingers
I breathe but you think I'm suffocating, not only myself but you in the process
Hello, Hi, Hey... I've got the message

A sleepless night turned to nights nocturnal
Eyes wide shut, confronting fears of the dark every second
Embracing light for security, it dwindles to nothing, a goodnight light
Taking steps with uncertainty, a blind man's game
I called his bluff, he took two steps forward and I back one
So sure of what cannot be seen will not hurt; confidence?
I have seen it all along, I was just seeing it again in a new *light

Wake up like what happened
In a bed next to your friend
Thursday night feeling more like the weekend
But that's old new what's right with today
Waking up with regret like the rent you'll never be able to pay
All because you set out on a journey to make her your bae
I hate that word, the bane of our language
So easily manipulating words to create another's anguish
I thought it was bad enough when random white girls tried to learn Spanish
From all this Reggaeton and fast living and not caring what you're hearing
All I want to do is love, but you all lost that capability and feeling...
The story doesn't end just because it's my last rhyme you got time sit down and let me give you some of mine
Let me tell you what this is really about
Y'all calling people thirsty when there's a drought
I don't understand this assimilation are you seeking it out?
They say just be you, and that's scarcity nowadays
Finding who you are is a **** maze that nobody wants to navigate

It's so easy to say goodbye
Instead you look me in the eye
Lying your alternative to a much simpler farewell
You want, gimme gimme, always gets...when I love you
The other way around is a whole new double standard yet to be recognized
It's only fair to give what you get
Let's all be stingy and only get from the givers
We're all hoarders in some area, a little sick, a little selfish
Sometimes it hurts just to be selfless

overwhelm me if you can
gravity has already got it covered
Got a lump in my throat
Full of words too big to get out
we can't read lumps and I can't read my mind
Consider me alliterate
Doing fine I never could consider it
I know I'm slow
But I'm so smooth my mistakes don't even show
Tasks piled miles high on my plate
Let's just say my eyes are bigger than my stomach, too much to chew
It's Friday, I'm ecstatic this week is through

A sign of freedom and letting loose
Rebellion slowly forming a noose
Sit back and watch your future fade
While you're stuck making minimum wage
To all his own metaphorically speaking
Doesn't take a cry for help to see you freaking
Out and about you still return to the scene
Like nothing else matters and no in between
Coming down from a hangover like no ones business
When the future come you won't be missed

Unable to grasp the gravity
The pressure on this darkest ridge
A rope I walk
My Golden Gate Bridge
Digital emotion
Reality misconstrued
Imbued by love
I'd jump for you

Could you smell like ciggarettes one more time?
It's cancerous taste brings me back
To a time of youth and rebellion
The feelin of invincibility would take over control
Inhale; time feels as short and thin as the air in my lungs
The taste oh the taste, a bitter remorse, hint of curiosity
The only taste I ever knew, ****** lungs
Could you smell like ciggarettes one more time?

Don't got money, got a heart of gold
Plenty to accomplish before I get old
Think I'd be anywhere if somebody told
Me I couldn't do it, I had to take control
Of the waves life brings and crashes
Gotta swim with them not against I have this
Gift I need to share with the world out of habit
My thoughts come racing quick like a rabbit
Ideas to spread and lives to touch
Even if I do a little with that I'll consider it good enough
I don't call it luck or a coincidence
It seems suspect, some day heaven sent
I've done my fair share for when I depart from this earth
I've tried my best to do what I can for what it's worth

I smile for the world to see
There is always someone who can make you happy
It's someone you know better than yourself...or even the same
It was always you smile because I knew
That special person inside of you, yeah I do
Your body smiled at me but your eyes wouldn't let you gander
Afraid you may have to ask for directions
You were lost but you have to to be found
Music a tad too loud not for all to hear
But for me to share, I want you to listen
Not see what I see but feel what I feel, it's real
It's all easy just go with the flow
A river couldn't do a better job if you feel me
No application necessary just enjoy what comes our way
Happy tomorrow because I'm happy today

Life is all about perception we believe in what we see
So come with me randy let's find the remedy
To all this chaos and animosity
Till the day we live laugh love in harmony
Because you see there ain't no harming me
But until they day out reality becomes a fantasy
Well be here on our grind turning money into the air we breathe
Don't deceive because we agree
Life is not always what it seems stay on them dreams the path will show itself
and by the time we die wed discover  happiness is wealth

Let the smiles and laughs pour out
Like waterfalls and rainbows
Happiness is but a free emotion we all pay for
Take my hand and we'll grin at the sky
Just because we love life itself
No reason to rush, smell the roses
None around, we can just pretend
We know that our smiles will still be there in the end

Connected like 4, diagonally is how I see
You sitting down the ways from me
You copped a look, pretty sneaky "sis"
Text message, and that look is gone
Attention averted confrontation deserted just no chance
That cursed little machine
Has us all bent out by the seams
Claim we can't live without it
I don't get it, what's the appeal
Words with a background but nothing to feel
No emotion or gestures with some sort of physical appeal, man, what is real
So addicted to this easy living
We forgot where our bodies and mind exist
In this world of technology we are all hurting but firstly inadvertently doomed for eternity

******* dysfunction and ingest my rage
Feel my mind's mosh pit as I dive off the stage
Smell the lingering presence of my pasts rage
See the remnants of what use to be
Hear what I almost said that it was you that I L O V E'd

An innocence not seen by these sinning eyes
A style, swagger if you will not appealed until I glanced
Never forgot the day my presence was overwhelmed
A sense of all things good in you, evil could do no harm
Like an angel from heaven
Sent to test me, or cast me away
Either way, I was being judged
Unsure what to say, I appeal to your sense of humor
A little dry for my taste, I got us both a drink
Religion, it is what may keep you sane
But for me, the lacking of it, making me unsteady
Testing me at every turn I could see it coming
How in this day and age a girl so sweet so pure, humming
Not a care in the world yet one for you remains in check
What you do is not for you but for the man, you sit and wait for his call and beck
You tempt me with purity, does that make you a sinner?
Even good things can be bad in the right light
But I would not accuse such a "******" with silly accusations and assumptions
I would only prove to fail the test, and he already knows it
Giving second, even more chances
I'll see you in the future

If you talk to me for 5 minutes you can see I am a genius or an idiot
5 more to see if I'm an *** or considerate
Another 5 to double check number 1
5 more and you're having too much fun
5 turns to 10 oh where has the time gone
you found in me your time was well spent
All I wanted was this and nothing more
Could you spare another 5 minutes or...

On the outside I see everything I've ever wanted and need
I can see the hardship and times you've wasted on others
I see through your eyes of pain as you bleed

Your eyes tell a story and your mouth the background music
Creating a symphony of destruction you slowly decrescendo
Telling me I might be better off because you tell me you're SICK

I'm bound to you like misery loving company
Tears of blood rain down your face like bad make-up
Through those eyes of pain can you see me?

Can we self-destruct together I'll never let go
You think crazy is bad then look at me
Sin with me and nobody has to know

Call me foolish shame on me
For seeing something passed your eyes of pain
Just think of how much less it would hurt
Take a chance on me with nothing to lose and everything to gain

As I'm writing this the seconds fly by...time, slow down, I can't keep up and I'm always in the past.
Assignments, projects, classes with a schedule to cram in, must make me a busy student
I find myself listening to the tick-tock of the clock as I clench my fist trying to grab a hold of time.
No matter how much I get ahead or behind, time does not wait for mankind.
As the clock chimes and reminds us of the time before you know it's midnight.
All throughout my struggles and endeavors I utter a cry of defeat as time slips on by and through my grasp.
Now I, exhausted, crawling to bed and my work incomplete is a constant reminder time is something you can never beat.

You'd much rather be entertained than educated in the brain
Idle hands are the devils playground
All I see is a bright screen most of my days
Call me a jungle gym for evil ways
Indulge in the same ol' it'll be fine
like like* like* post status scroll
Until you reach the end of the day
Time seems to have just slipped away...
With friends, with family
This screen is all most people see now a days

I'm a sucker for you that's what I said  
Looking at my pillow right next to your head
Unintended words slipped now I'm in the red
Waking up to pitch black wondering if I am dead
In a blink it all turned to a mess
While I'm trying to iron out life's kinks first with a permanent press
I'll put in the work till I sweat
It's all worth it if I lay with you when I rest

Eyes sewn shut you could see right through me
A plastic  smile easily replaceable
Magnetic eyes I could t look away
Infectious laughter and a heart to die for
I to a dive and still no where to hide
To my surprise
Even through my ruse and deceit
I was still found and standing on my feet
Knew who I was didn't bother to run
She whispered with no remorse to say
You're the one

What if you fell on fast forward...would you rewind?
Stop or pause and access what's going on?
Or would you watch like a Dr. Who marathon?
You have the chance to see where you will end up
or see where you don't
No consequences, just actions
One you've seen the butcher, the chopping block
There is no looking back, you must accept
You've seen too much yet know so little
You'd forget it even happened before you know it
It's time
Would you rewind before knowing your end and time?

I spoke and my words along with me started to fade away
Nothing more or less than a gentle sea breeze
Never to be seen but always to be heard
We can feel each other but you'll never find me
Your heart could pretend to love me
I know you're cold
I smell nice and your skin so soft
Getting off track but that's what eternity does to you
My mind hasn't gone it's just occupied by the changes in the ocean
Of your emotion and impossible to read chicken scratch personality
I've lost it all but go with the flow so you know even though
I'm not around all the time I still feel the want to touch
Your life don't forget me I love you very much
Inhale the courage to exhale my name
and one day I might breeze passed you again

Ignored by the ones you love, I feel so cold
This game we play is getting old
When you're the one I want to hold
Keepin distant from my heart is what I'm told
Falling in love you wouldn't chance it
Even though I'm a hopeless romantic
My time with you is sinking...titanic

Shovel and pale in hand
I'm ready
How I miss you
Our sleepless nights
The longer days with you make me feel so good
Eating ice cream together
Glistening, sweating, skinny dipping
It's all the signs of a good time and a good vibe
All day and all night
I'd fight to keep you any day
Splish splash, salty taste, in the waters late at night
With you it don't matter because when it's time it all feels right

Life will drag you along even when you're standing still
A ghost writer told me to take one step and watch
Not life but the waves of the living take you and carry you as your next step
Be cautious of your actions for I have seen it all
Love turn to chaos and turmoil build up within the gentlest of creatures
I am the evil that can be within
But with the life givin and strength provided I give your to wake remember this
The truth is life will go on without you but will you go on without it?

Every thing is better when I'm not around
A vice to keep you on the ground
A so called friend needed at a moments notice
In the long run what's the point of all this
Recognize the words of comfort
Say it again to keep me sure
My intentions were good but the time is all wrong
When you come singing that tune
I'll say it's the wrong song