It still hurts to hear your name
After all these months you still cloud my judgement
I’m starting to think that I might never be the same
But being alone is better than being your puppet

Maybe you never loved me, I’ll never know
But if you did, what kind of love was that?
Leaving me to cry on the floor when I was feeling low
If you really loved me then why did you raise your hand?

A few weeks ago I met a guy
He treats me like a queen, makes me smile
I gotta admit, I’ve never felt so high
And I think for him, I’ll walk down the aisle

I hope you’ll realize what you’ve done
When you see me with him, holding hands
I hope you see the way my face lights up like the sun
When he’s holding me while we dance

I knew from the moment I first saw you that you’d only bring me pain
But I always try to see the good in people
I guess for you I fought in vain
Loving you was like being stabbed in the heart with a needle

And still I try to remember the good times
I try to remind myself of the laughs we shared
But I have to admit that you committed many crimes
And if I’m honest all I ever was, was scared.

I see now that I was a fool for loving you
And that I deserve better than what you made me feel
A tragedy was what was the love between us two
I will need years and years to heal

Lighting a cigarette always brings back memories of our time together
Every time I inhale, I hear your laugh
It brings back the smell of your jacket made of leather
Of that chain you always wore with class

I find it hard to breathe lately
Maybe it’s because I’m addicted
The smoke brings me back to you immediately
It’s the only way for me to feel close to you, I guess it’s twisted

So I light another cigarette
Inhale deeply to remember the taste of your lips
Remembering the time we first met
And I admit, those are my best trips

I miss you

S.W.