Why do you say no
To everything you want to say yes to ?

I feel lost, empty like a vacuum,
My mouth dry as my mind is flooded with many thoughts,
Thoughts of how insignificant and worthless I am ,
Unworthy of love.

I want to quit everything ,
Everything that reminds me I'm worthless .

I crave love , I crave a woman's touch
Like a skinny dog longing for a bone.

So I sink my head in poetry ,
Because that is all I know.

If only I could make friends with my poems,
If only I could ****** a girl with a poem,
If only I could fill my void with poetry.

I feel lost like a sheep with no flock,
So I gaze upon the crowds and stare deep into the happy faces,
I don't think I belong.

People say " there's something for you out there"
But really, I am always left out.

My dad never loved me ,
My mom just left me,
Am all alone.

Will I ever be okay ?

I yearn to be happy
Like a king whose house is filled with silver, gold
And everything old .

Yet somehow the girl of my dreams is like a nightmare ,
She disturbs my sleep.

The nightmares ware me out
Till I have no strength left to stay away from you .