I know that I never meant anything to you
So now I know that this is what I've got to do.

My last wish my dear, would be to see your eyes
One last time before I say my goodbyes

But it ain't gonna happen, you never loved me
I decide against goodbye as I stare out at the sea

No need to let you know, cause it's not like you care.
That I'm too weak and this is pain that I can't bear

I wish that night could have lasted forever
and that didn't have to end.
I wish we were still together
Rather than just being friends

I love you, and you love me
You know the only place I want to be
Is next to you, with you under my arm
lying there protecting you from harm

I was so stupid, why couldn't I see?
That she never, really ever loved me.

I was an idiot, I said 'I love you'
Because I kinda thought, she loved me too

I was so dumb, I was out of my mind
to think I could get her, she's one of a kind

I'm still an idiot, because I'm still in love
With an angel belonging, so far above.

But she never loved me.

There he is again, that voice I know well
That voice who has always, put me through hell
'She doesn't love you she never did,
she'll never love you so just give up kid'

Don’t throw away the poems the poems I write
I know they won’t matter. Not after tonight
Maybe for a little while, rereading them will hurt.
But eventually, my words will be meaningful as dirt
You won’t even hear my voice whispering each word
In your head. It'll be some other voice that is heard
Don’t throw them away okay? Don’t throw away me
Don't throw away all that we used to be.

I woke this morning with a smile
I think it'll be my last one, for a while.
I am drowning, not yet dead
It was all just in my head
Everything we ever were
Now my vision starts to blur
Because now I struggle for each breath
and I would gladly welcome death

It's not that I don't want to sleep
I just don't want to wake up again
Because I might not find peace in sleep
But in waking I find only pain

Even dreams that should be nice
Where I am holding you hand and seeing you smile
Make me want to break down and cry
I don't have you any more and I haven't for a while

Oh sure the dreams can be pleasant
as we hang out and do the things that we do
but all dreams must end, all sleepers must wake
and I must remember that I lost you

Right now I would welcome nightmares
of monsters, death and unbearable pain
because every time I wake with a smile
reality hits me again...