as i watch my life pass through my eyes
a part of me dies
through the way i talk
the way i stare
a part of me dies

i have no choice or say
no place for my mind to assuage
im stuck between a limbo of what’s real and what’s not
watching through a window, a place where i rot

my life has always been a courtroom
constant decisions I have to make in a never-ending loop pool

but one sudden case I cannot glare:
my mother's or father's care
two worlds that had collided as one
turned to a hand now holding the gun

I'm asked to choose a place to stay
but leave one side to decay
yet in this trial, cold and grey
I find there is no right way

so I stand, lost and torn
in a court room where right was never born

The ocean calls me by its steady waves
And I follow its orders like a slave
Running to the ocean feeling calm
Knowing that I'll be safe forever in their palm
I jump into the ocean, knowing that I'll be set free
I feel the tides getting higher, my thoughts finally at ease