Lost inside
Fractions of mind
Consciousness split
Bubbling up
Unhealthy impulses
Hurting
Hurting
Hunting
Hating
Conflicting parts
No peace
No bliss
Paralyzed
In a dissociative
Circle
Let me out!
You have to endure.
Every feeling
So I am enduring
Breathing
Numb
Opening one eye
Hate. Closing it.
Opening another eye
Lust. Losing it.
Never opening both eyes for too long.
Awareness. Awareness. Awareness.
Searching.
Reminder?
How to connect with myself
When there are 100 parts
Within me arguing.
Unpleasantly.
Who am I?
Who was I yesterday?
And an hour ago?
I am fear.
Afraid to lose control.
I am freedom in disguise.
Lock me up.
Hide me in those woods.
Tyranny.
Being is survival
Existence a struggle
When you fight.
So stop.
STOP.
Stop fighting. Now.
Trying to find my center again. Not quite myself today.