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RLF RN Jul 2017
On the passenger side, I sat
Carrying my frustrations,
heartaches, and vulnerability.
Looking straight at the road,
Lost in my wilderness,
Trying to ponder,
"What is happening?"

I looked to my left, then
There was you, Theo.
On the driver seat,
spinning the car wheel,
leading the driveway, and
Maneuvering the destination.
Without knowing,
"where the real destination is?"

You looked to your right,
Our eyes have met, finally.
Bespoke to one another,
How each of our hearts broke,
Our longing, and anticipation
Of the next that is yet to come.

Day after day, night after night
Our communication hasn't stopped.
As if sleep, was our only enemy.
For every chance, every day,
on the same vehicle,
in which we met,
there was only bliss and hope.

Not until one Monday afternoon,
On a sudden depth,
every bliss and every hope vanished.
"What happened?" I pondered,
this time.
The answer, I tried to seek.
Your presence, I sought for.
I had nothing, nothing
but faded memories, and
Blurred dreams for the two of us.

On the passenger side, now I can't sit.
Frustrated, heartbroken, and vulnerable, once again, I am.
I looked to my left, now you're gone. You looked to your right,
someone else's eyes you've met.
But no, this can't be..

Theo, my love.
Oh how you changed my life,
You have no idea, I'm sure.
You are the sun that shines bright throughout my day,
You are the gravity that holds me down in every way.
You are the moon that shimmers throughout my night,
You are stars that glimmer oh so bright.

You are the oxygen that keeps me alive,
You are my heart that beats inside.
You are the blood that flows through me,
You are every color, and every love song, there is.
You are both my answered and unanswered prayer.
You are the one more chance,
I never thought I'd find.
You are the only guy I can see now.
As if you are my everything now.

I never want to lose you.
I want to be with you for every day and every moment, there will be.
Oh my Theo, why do I fear?
Why am I so jealous?
But hopeful, I must be.
To stay in love with you,
Still I want to be.

Over a period of time
I got to know the real you. 
My Theo, so caring and gentle 
with a genuine heart so true. 
I told you I'd never leave 
because of the feelings I have inside.
Of the destination, we are to go to, 
Maybe I'll just let you, and time
befriend each other.
If it is meant to be,
time will remove the wall.
My love shall open your heart.

I love the way we are together.
You can always make me smile. 
Will our love can ever really be true? 
I guess I will have to wait awhile. 
And see what lies ahead, 
but always remember 
what I have said. 
Meeting you has changed my life, 
and I really love you so, Theo.

Oh my Theo,
such a blessing you are to me.
Open your heart for me, my love.
Seize every love I have for you,
Let go of the rest, and Carpe Diem.
The feelings I feel for you 
I am never letting go. 
Remember me always,
Theo, my love.
I hope and pray that one day,
finally you will, too.
theo bea Oct 2018
happiness is a risk,
and to risk means to know its cost
Theodorus Rex Nov 2014
Never Worry
You are my woman
I'm happy to be your doormat
You own me
It thrills me to be your slave
I know you don't want me right now
But when I am with another woman,
I will always kick her out of bed
At your whim.
Never Worry
I am at your disposal
I enjoy yielding to your better judgment
I will dine on your pleasure box
For as long as it takes
My need is strong
And never ending
Time is not a factor
I laugh at the thought of you with someone else
It just increases my resolve
I have the will
I can wait and wait and wait
Sure, I might be with other women,
But only in an effort to get closer to you
To become a better lover for you
Even your sweat is perfume
Yeah, my flame still burns
I don't even want anyone else
The others are a means to an end
A salve until we reunite
They are all rehearsal space
I'll simply end my date
When you call
Its just the hierarchy
Of natural selection
We are meant for each other
And not meant for each other
The essence of contradiction
The passion
Of the Paradox

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Theodorus Rex Nov 2014
Only one flower
Has spoken my name
For so long...

I fear the silence
After the final hug -
More silent than any ocean
Can breathe

A tear in the eye
That is a star.
How far
How far?

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