I don’t know if I should.. I don’t know what is..
But when I close my eyes, I see you.
I see you like your my own masterpiece that I can remember every single detail of you.
The softness and lightness of your hands,
That weirdly adorable mole in your forehead,
Those nut brown eyes of yours, the way it scans the place back and forth in an odd kind of way,
The pinkness of your lips that oozes of its moistness  
I close my eyes and I see you.
I see you and I don’t know if I should continue.
I don’t know if I should but I want to paint you, so I could brush off all your burdens.
I don’t know if I should but I want to stitch you, so I could put back to pieces all love that you’ve lost.  
I don’t know if I should but I want to mold you, so I could shape and strengthen up the person that I think you must be.
I don’t know if I should be.. I don’t know what this is..
But when I close my eyes, I feel you.
I feel you like you’re my own bed that once I’m laid onto I’ll be vulnerable.  
I feel you.  
I feel you here, right on my mind and in my heart.

He always wears longs sleeves
And anyone who tries to be friendly to him
He pushes away
He isolates himself
I've never seen him with friends
I gave him my number
He didn't text me back
I wonder if there is a reason behind it all
Why he likes to live alone, in silence
I'm going on the same trip as him
Late in the year
Should I try to get into his head
Try to talk to him
And unravel him?
Break down his walls?
I'd like to try
I'm not afraid
Of finding his inner demons behind the walls
I have my own
I'm not afraid
But I'm afraid
It isn't my place
Or that he will be angry with me
For trying to melt his steel walls
If I fail
If he doesn’t let me in
Is it worth a try?
Will it seem too stalkerish
If I try to break down his walls?
It never hurts to knock
But it hurts if they open the door
Just long enough to hurt you
Then shut you out again
I don’t know
What do you think?




Please comment and let me know your opinion. I need advice on that.
He is really attractive but beyond that he fascinates me. I liked him the moment I saw him. He plays violin and basketball and I really want to get to know him but I am scared and I am worried he will freak out that I am being creepy and insistent after I gave him my number and he didn’t text me back. (Although it is unconfirmed that he owns a cellphone and I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t) I have heard of other girls who tried to talk to him but he was pretty standoffish and they all gave up on him. Should I give up too?

I lie here
time ticks by me
the Earth continues to spin.

If I stay
they keep going
- people lives, without me in.

If I move
I can join them
become a part of it all.

If I don't
will they notice?
To stay means a shorter fall.