Despair watches me as I smile
Waiting for the moment, silently
One moment of tranquillity I find
Pounces on me like a demon
Devouring the intrails of me
As it slowly poisons my mind
To be fed by it or to feed it
I surrender to it, a rotten apple.

Despair watches me as I try smiling again
This time I have a wild thought
Do I surrender again as I did before
Or try to control the urge to lose
To lose the balance in me for a while
Or Just let it pass like how I tried before
Am Trying very hard to be ignored
But the demon is strong, devours me..

Despair watches me as I cry
This time I let it watch me crying alone
Lost all hopes of being a better man
All the lost thoughts come crawling again
Within me I lost the light I had found
Outside it was grey at the moment
Crying with a smile I searched for it
I found my lost name. I am. Despair...