You broke me and I admit it...day in day out chasing after you gets exhausting, trust me I get it. This relationship we have may very well be toxic, but I knew in the beginning when we first started this... this TORTUROUS game that you handed me, wothout a book of rules, because I learned the cost of it...But at the end of the day that game is the only thing that makes it worth being alive.... I'm trying to find a way out, a way to dance my way through without as much pain, a way to live without so much sorrow, a way to be ALIVE, because I don't want to JUST survive...anymore... but your voice so sweet and tempting, wrapping me up, pulling me in, leaving me with goosebumps and butterflies..... Its bliss... But love your games can be so cruel...you seemingly throw yourself at some and abandon others to rot, cold and alone, with nothing more than empty promises to keep them warm... Love you are bittersweet... But somehow I can't seem to get enough.

I thought I lost you the other day
I dreamt I was standing by your grave
But you were only a few blocks away
But I lost you nevertheless

I thought I saw you the other day
But it was a stranger wearing your coat
The one I gave you on your birthday in May
But I lost you nevertheless

I thought I called you the other day
But I couldn't go through with it
Even if I missed you I know you´d say
I lost you nevertheless

I thought I got over you the other day
Got this feeling of relief in my chest
But even with the heartache at bay
I lost you nevertheless

I thought I lost you the other day
and you were saying it was for the best
But you were only a few blocks away
But I lost you nevertheless